Dear Diary

September 14th, 2008

I'm sorry, I can't do it. I cannot become a person without any connections. It's too hard. It makes me feel lonely. I've been spoiled with good friends for too long. Now I can't live without friends. It's pitiful. A person that can't live by himself. Why am I like this. I guess that's my nature, but still it's an excuse. My life is an excuse. This world has been cruel to me. I never wanted this. But What choice do I have? I don't want to die yet. I'm to young, am I? Besides the point, Josh and Jaden have been one of the best friends I have ever made. I don't know why but they made me open up. I can't explain it. But today, a new person came, a girl, an Irish girl, and a snobby one at that. Thinks that the world revolves around her. Thinks that she's so beautiful. Thinks that all the boys like her. I hate her. I hate that type of people. She picks on the people that look different from her standards of a person. Mainly me. I hate her. I never want to talk to her again. But of course we sit at the same table group. Of course my life is like this. The only person I don't want to sit with. What a pain. I hate her with everything I have to offer.