BEA
by OroEsuma
Whenever I met a person, a thought of loosing is expected
It's a battle between loosing that person or simply loosing myself at some point
And for so many many times, I never had someone I choose to keep
It's either they stay and I cast them out
or they leave and I let them be.
Some color's aren't pleasing to my eye.
So as some human qualities do.
It's not craving for loneliness,
But the benefit of being alone.
Being alone doesn't always mean you became lonely.
and being lonely doesn't mean you're alone as well.
Sometimes I am with someone but there's loneliness beneath.
Most of the time I am alone but there's no single drop of loneliness in there.
My true meaning of living my life is still a mystery I always wanted to unlock.
For now, what keeps me going is for somebody else's.
I don't have negative thought of doing it that way.
There's a reason in there and that's enough.
But,
I kept glancing to corners as I can
as I am expecting to find a reason for myself.
which kind of tiring.
And then,
I came to a point where I stopped.
then revisit a past.
A portion in there.
a part of History ain't bad anyways.
I can't recall all details in it,
but it has a good memory
worth repeating.
Now,
I don't think the universe will have me keep this or take this out again
but,
I would want it not to intervene.
Let me keep you,
as I never do couple of chances before.
I will let you stay,
Because I told the stars about you.
