Painted by Fate (✔️)

Chapter 43

Chapter 43

Dahan-dahan kong iminulat ang mga mata kinabukasan. My eyes stayed on the ceiling... trying to remember everything that happened last night. Dahan-dahan din akong bumangon at ganoon na lang ang pag-ngiwi ko nang maramdamang sobrang sakit ng ulo ko.

Napahawak agad ako rito, naiiyak. What did I do last night to be this exhausted? My eyes widened when I remembered that I was drunk in a bar. Iyon ba ang rason kung bakit ang sakit-sakit ng ulo ko ngayon? Did I drink a lot?

At... sino ba 'yong nakasama ko kagabi? It was a guy... and I don't remember his face.

Napatakip ako sa bibig at paulit-ulit na napalunok bago inilibot ang mga mata sa hindi pamilyar na silid. I promptly noticed the black and gray interior designs that... a guy probably owns. Malaki ang buong kwarto ngunit kaunti lang ang mga kagamitan.

Napatingin ako sa damit na suot ko. Ganoon na lang ang panlalaki ng mga mata ko nang makitang naka-spaghetti strap na lang ako't naka-shorts nang maikli. Last night, I was still covering them with my cardigan and denim jeans.

Napahawak ako sa tapat ng dibdib nang may naisip. May... nangyari ba? Anong senyales ba ang mararamdaman na nagbibigay alam na... may nangyari?

I remembered what Bianca told me... She told me about her friend who told her what she felt after her v-card was taken. Masakit daw ang gitna ng mga hita...

Kabado kong pinakiramdaman ang sarili. Wala naman... I bit my bottom lip. Hindi pa rin ako nakasisiguro. My tears welled up in my eyes as I slowly tilted my head beside me. My eyes widened whilst my jaw dropped upon seeing a figure of a man facing back at me, lying on the bed... with no shirt!

Dahan-dahan akong napaatras, takot na takot. I first noticed his tan skin and the firmne of his muscles and back. Half of his body was covered with blanket that I just knew, I was using earlier, too.

Who's this?

Naramdaman ko ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko mula sa mga mata. I didn't remember anything about what happened after I simultaneously drank. Ang naalala ko lang ay may kasama akong lalaki pagkatapos no'n. Sana pala hindi na lang ako uminom kung ito ang kahahantungan.

I promised to myself that I would just give my virginity to my last and to the one whom I'll be exchanging vows with after marriage, the reason why my heart's crying right now because it probably happened... especially that I felt like it was a stranger whom I was with last night.

Sa kabila ng naiisip, umaasa akong walang nangyari dahil nakita kong may isang unan namang nakalagay sa gitna naming daalwa. But who knows? I don't know anymore. I'll probably cry a river if it will be confirmed because it was taken without my consent because I was so drunk.

Dali-dali akong tumalikod nang makitang gumalaw ito, at tinakpan ulit ang katawan ng kumot. Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa kaba nang maramdaman ang paggalaw ng kama na tila bumangon na ang lalaking iyon. Mariin akong napapikit.

Now that I've learned my lesson, I won't drink the next time, I swear. I'd rather die in the dark feeling the agony than having this as my situation. This is a worst nightmare.

Kahit ayaw ko mang lumingon dahil sa kaba, nagawa ko pa rin para kumpirmahin kung sino 'yong nakasama ko kagabi. Kung estranghero ba o kilala ko.

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang masaksihan at makumpirmang... si Nathaniel 'yon. Nakatingin ito sa 'kin na salubong na salubong ang kilay... like he wasn't pleased by my presence here.

Hala... hindi niya ba alam na napunta ako rito? Maraming tanong agad ang namutawi sa isipan ko. Siya ba 'yong lalaking nakasama ko kagabi?

"U-Uh... N-Non sapevate che sono qui? Se n-non hai, io mi dispiace... io non mi ricordo perché sono qui... (U-Uh... Y-You didn't know that I am here? If y-you didn't, I-I'm sorry... I c-can't remember why I am here...)"