ℳ𝒶𝓈𝓆𝓊ℯ𝓇𝒶𝒹ℯ (𝒥𝓊𝓁𝒾𝒶 ℋℴ𝒻𝒻𝓂𝒶𝓃 𝒳 𝓇ℯ𝒶𝒹ℯ𝓇)

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Today is finally the day of the ball, and to say that i am excited about all of this is an understatment. I woke up at 7:30, why so early? well don't aske me this question, but my nerves got the best of me and i ended up getting up early and i couldn't fall asleep. For all the morning my mind couldn't help but wander about how the ball would be, how the decorations would have been but moreover i was trying to picture how the collinsport mainsion would be since i naver actually had the chance to go inside of it. I then prepared myself some lunch, which consisted in a sandwich since i didn't really want to cook. After that i decided to have a nice bath, to calm my nerves down. I got into tha bathroom and lit some candles before turning on the water and waited until the bath was completely filled, i hopped in and laid in the water as i relaxed while i hummed a tune that got stuck in my mind a few weeks ago, it was a song that reminded me of my teenage years in some ways. It was where is my mind, by the pixies, to say that i love that song is a complete misunderstanding honestly. It reminded me of when i was around 15 and used to hang out with my friends almost all saturdays and i alwayse ended up drunk by the end of the night. it was fun, really, but it really was so wrong in many ways, because i didn't drink just "for fun" i did it because i couldn't stand the person around me, or, or because my toughts were killing me and i needed something to keep thos intrusive toughts away from me

flashback

i was in that studio, again. I started to hate that room honestly, i would have love to just be live my life as a normal teens without having to go to therapy every week. But anyways the reason that made me look forward to the session was her. Yes my therapist, i really liked her, i felt like a connection beetween us, a connectioin can can't be put into words because of how deep it is.

"so y/n, did you manage to go out with your friends this week?" she said in her soft voice

"actually yes, and it was really fun, we had fund and well, yes we drinked a tad but just to give some spice to the night, and it worked" i said ending my sentence with a faint smile on my lips, she althought  sighed and leand in her chair

"Y/n, don't you think that the night could have been still fun even if you didn't drink?"

"yes,...maybe" i paused, cause i knew really well that i didn't believe what i was saying "but it's better when i drink, i can be more carefree and it's the only think that can distract me from having hurtfull toughts" i immedeatly froze. did i really just say that? it's like realization just hit me. i moved my gaze to the floor, ashamed of what i had just said until i heard her voice again

"So when was the last time you drank?"

"two days ago" i mumbled

"alright" she said while writing something on her notepad before looking back at me "and the last time you tought of drinking"

"this morning" i said while looking up at her, slowly tearing my eyes away off the floor, and when i looked at her i saw hwe expression, she seemed shocked and, worried?

" Y/n darling you can't keep going like this you know right? it could turn out in something really bad, like an addiction. and i know that you don't want this" she said and gave me a reassuring smile, i still felt guilty for the words that came out of my mouth

"yes i know but, but what can i do uh? i just want to be free" i said whispering the last part so only i could ear it. The rest of the session went pretty well for how much a session with a psychiatrist can be.

End of flashback

After some time I got our and wrapped my body in a towel to dry myself up and wrapped my hair in a smaller one. When I got to the mirror I looked into it and took my hair brush out and I started to brush my hair. it was relaxing, until I glanced at the clock. it was already 6 p.m. which meant that I had 4 hours to get ready and to do all the other stuff, which was quite a lot of time, but not when you are too anxious. I put my hair in a ponytail and went into my room changing into some underwear before taking the dress out if the box that was in my wardrobe. I took out the shoes and stockings too and settled them on the bed whilst I run back into the bathroom to dry my hair. After an hour my hear was finally all dried up, I decided to leave my hair as they naturally are, not wanting to do anything to them, I liked how my natural hair looked. I then went to my room and started to dress myself, I did my makeup and after I was all ready there was only 1 hour left till the begging of the ball. i spent 30 minutes trying to find my mask tho, because I had pitted it god knows where and I found it in a random box that was on my closet, I don't even know how that ended up in there but anyway the important thing was that I finally found it right? I then used my favourite perfume, which was a fruity one, sweet but whit a hint of bitterness, I really really loved it. I sprayed some on and placed the mask on my face before finally heading out of my house, I got into my car and drove off to the Collins Mansion. after maybe 15 minutes if driving I pulled in the driveway, which was filled with various cars.
As soon as I stepped out of my car tho loud music could be Heard coming from the Mansion, as well as some flashing lights could be seen from the windows. I took a deep breath and finally entered collinswood, the big hall was filled with people in fancy dresses, which I actually found really amusing. Anyways I needed a drink to calm my nerves down, so i headed to the table where the drinks where and took a vodka lemon, which was perfect since it wasn't too strong and was really refreshing. As soon as I finished the drink I heard from the staircase a very familiar voice singing, I walked in that direction and to say that I was amazed by what I saw wasn't enough. Alice Cooper himself was sending a few feets away from me, and I was amazed to say the least. I started to sing through the song and stayed her for a couple of minutes until a I saw someone, more precisely a woman with a beautiful long pink dress sitting at a table all alone. I made my way towards her, getting more and more nervous with each step that I took towards her, but I didn't even know why, but as soon as I remembered that she couldn't really know who I was, I sighed in relief, hiding behind a mask gave me some sort of unexpected confidence. As I arrived to the table I sat beside her, looking at her and scanning every inch of her trying to be as discreet as possible
"so you finally came here"
I looked at her and furrowed my brows
"pardon?"
she just chuckled and shook her head
"I saw that you were looking at me, what was so good that made you have your eyes glued on me for at least ten minutes uh?"
she said as she rested her elbows on the table and placed her face in her hands. I didn't really know what to say but I just have to say thanks to the mask, because underneath it a soft blush speed across my cheeks
"well actually I don't know, maybe it was your dress, or your beautiful mask, but I could ask the same question to you, why where you looking at me dear?"
I said with a sudden burst of confidence
"well.." she trailed off and moved her gaze to the crowd of people dancing on the center of the room "I just felt like someone was watching me, and I was right, and well other than that, your dress is beautiful, it's from the Vivianne Westwood collection right?"
she said and looked back at me. we continued to have small talks and had some drinks for the rest of the night and it was really enjoyable, even tho I felt like I knew her, I don't know if it was for her short orange Bob, or for her beautiful hazel eyes, or for her voice, but I just felt like I knew her for some odd reasons.
anyway I tried to brush off that feeling and the night continued amazingly, until it was time for me to go since it was pretty late. I rose up from my sit and started to leave, but I then as soon as I was about to leave the mysterious lady grabbed my wrist, I turned to look at her and she handed me a little piece of paper that was folded many times on itself
"call me tomorrow"
I nodded and said my goodbyes to her before heading out of the mansion, when i finally arrived to my car I immediately took my heels of, those things were killing me. I then drove home and after some time I was finally at home, as soon as I entered my house I practically ran to my bedroom and I took off my dress and put on my satin black nightgown and collapsed on the bed

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A/N: Hy guys <3, I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in so long but I had some stuff to do and I really couldn't find the time, anyway I ope you enjoy this chapter, I promise that from the next on and on there will be wayy more Julia
goodbye for now sweethearts <3