My real life diary

Chapter 7 You are not worthy of the tittle "Father"

I came home 2 days after I was in the hospital. The house look like a tornado ran through it. I didn't know where Georgia was but I hoped she was ok. My "father" was turning into a careless man I bet you he didn't even know where Georgia was. I went up to the attic (this time the door was wide open)
I could see the blood stains left on the bed. I saw the cloth that the men used to tie me down. I kneeled down on the bed side
"God, You up there big man? I know I haven't spoking to you since I was 3 but, I'm desperate. I need you deeply. I've did crazy things in my life, like spilling ice water on Georgia when she was sleeping. Like when I cheated on MCAS. When I watched popporn with my friends at a sleepover. God I'm asking please help me, for what as happened to me can never be erased. I'm pregnant because of my "fathers" selfish and careless ways. Take this child away God, Take it out of me. I pray for those who have done this to me. I also want to pray for my mom-"
"Nevada!?" My "father said interrupting my prayer. How evil of him
"I also wanna pray for my "father" God cleanse him. In Jesus name I pray, AMEN!

"What do you want!" I asked My "dad
"Nevada we need to talk" He said touching my shoulders.
I pushed away. I WILL NEVER LET A MAN TOUCH ME EVER AGAIN
"Talk!" I said in an attitude voices
"Listen honey. You can't tell your mom about what happened" My dad said. I thought he would at least apologize for what happened and take control.
"But I'm pregnant, she's obviously gonna see my belly. She's gonna know dad" I told him
"I know but, she won't have to know how it happened. Tell her you are pregnant with your boyfriends baby. yeah your boyfriends baby. You do have a boyfriend don't you?" He asked. I looked at him sideways (not literally turning my head side ways) is this man insane! He wants me to blame an innocent person for his mistakes.
"Dad I can't- who would I blame? won't I also get in trouble? dad this is insane! I don't know if I could do this-" I asked him
"Listen! If your mother finds out about what happened, we would have to get a divorce, and your mom just lost her job.Who would pay for the rent, who would help support the family." He replied
He was blackmailing me! What kind of "father" was he?

4 hours later

Later that day my "dad" came back from his friends house. He didn't have Georgia with him. life was so boring without having my annoying, smart, beautiful, talented, smart mouth sister around. I felt so lonely inside,(even though there's a baby in me) I hear the house phone ringing
"Hello" I said to the caller, who's voice wasn't familiar
"Nevada! Baby it's me! Mommy" the woman said. omg it was my mom. I didn't even recognize my moms voice. I wanted to tell her what happened so badly
"Mom? Mom listen I need to tell you that da-" I said, pausing when I saw my "dad"
"Nevada!!" He yelled
"Dad has been doing a great job watching us" I continued
"Tell your mom what's inside you Nevada" he said
"Oh that's great" my mom said
"How's Georgia-"
"Mom I'm pregnant!" I said interrupting her
"I'm pregnant with my boyfriends baby. Please come back mom please! I'm sorry that I got pregnant, but we could fix this" I said crying
(I didn't just get pregnant! I was freaking raped by my stupid "fathers" "friends")
My mom didn't say a word
"Hello? Hello?" I said. still no answer, she hung up.
My "father" just stood there watching me take the blame for his mistakes. watching me break my moms heart into pieces that may never be restored.
"Good girl" he said with a smirk on his face.
"GO GET MY SISTER!!" I screamed to him
He slapped me across the face. I hit the floor
"Don't ever talk to me like that! This B.S.. your all a piece of s***t" he said
"Are you drunk!?" I asked
"Mind your business! If I was drunk it doesn't concern you. I'll get your sister, but that's it!." He replied

"Go to Hell" I whispered
"What did you say!?" He said. Omg he heard me!!
"I didn't say anything" I said sweetly
He grabbed me by my hands and threw me to the ground. He kicked me in the stomach. (poor baby that was in there)
I started yelling.
He stormed out of the house. I ran after him
"Stop you can't leave! Please father" I said to him while crying.
"I'm done! Enjoy the house to yourself Nevada!. Me and your mom are over. YOU ARE NO LONGER MY CHILD. SHAME ON TO YOU FOR GETTING PREGNANT. GOD WILL PUNISH YOU AND YOUR CHILD" He said. My "fathers" last words to me was a curse!

"You are also no longer my "father". I will no longer call you "father" For you have walked out on my family" I said crying
"George! (that was his name) YOU CAN NOT CURSE SOMETHING THAT HAS ALREADY BENN BLESSED" I Yelled out to him...

And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved. (‭Acts‬ ‭2‬:‭21‬ KJV)