I knew I wasn't always gonna win.
I knew I needed to lose
So that I could learn.
But did I have to lose at love?
Did I have to drown the one time
I thought it'd be okay
To listen to my heart?
Cause now I'm torn and shredded
After you kicked me down
While I was at my lowest.
You let me break
When I showed you my worst
But I still stayed.
You took my crown
After I told you how hard
I had to fight for my throne.
You let me hurt all alone
Not offering a wording to console me
Or a touch to comfort me.
You watched me as my world burned down
And, now you walk away
Like you aren't leaving
With my heart in your hand.
So, I hold my breath
And I count to ten.
I clench my eyes shut
And think about
Three things I can feel.
Cause my fingers feel numb,
But, I know that something's gotta be there
Not you, even though I wish you were.
So, I touch the cracks on my bathroom floor.
I touch the pendent on my neck
And the ring round my finger.
And, I feel a bit better.
I tell myself to breathe in
And I smell the candle burning.
The smell of vanilla and cherry
Entering my nose.
And, I feel okay.
So, I open my eyes
And, I look around me.
I look at myself, sitting in a ball
On the floor of my bathroom.
I look at the way my chest heaves
Up and down as I breathe hard.
I look at the collar of my top
That's soaked wet now.
And, I can't tell
If it's because of my sweat
Or the tears that rolled down my face.
And, I realize I've lost.
It dawns on me then
That I tried with my heart
After years of telling myself not to.
But, I didn't win love back.
Just like I knew I would never.
A/N
Okay, ngl. I don't know what I've written. It literally went from one topic to a whole other universe, but I'm putting it up. Tell me if I should take it up.
ALSO, WHAT THE ACTUAL SHIT, GRAMMY?
WE DESERVED THAT AWARD, OKAY? KISS ME DIDN'T STAY NO.1 ON THE BILLBOARD CHARTS FOR FIVE WEEKS, DID IT? KISS ME ASS, BLALAJDSIWH.
Okay, now that that's outta my system...
Much love, ana_banana2103
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PoetryJust a collaboration of all my poetry. They're all pretty sad, though. So, if you're looking for something to cheer you up, this ain't it. Don't forget to leave your feedback :)) And vote, please. Helps me know you liked it. And I'm kinda insecure...
