My hands are shaking right now as this could be my last entry. I talked to Axel and he told me about the party so I know how it will show down. He wants me dead and I don't get why. The plan is to have me dead aswell with Silas but you know who knows how it will end. He gave me these pills right now to take unless things don't go as planned. I think they are supposed to kill me. I hate it here so much I feel so tired I hadn't even been acting myself today. I just wanted to see zack but I don't think he's that happy with me. I'm probably gonna go and grab some water and leave this journal to Zack. I don't know if he's gonna read it but when I'm gone I hope he understands me. I thought maybe things will be okay but I guess not. Two sides are now forming. Apparently Axel spread rumors about Zack being actually a shitty person and that hes on Silas side (probably true idk) so now everyone is against Zack and teaming up with Axel?? But everyone thinking it's me are on my side while the others are thinking Silas is tricking Zack so that they are on Zacks side and probably save him from Silas or try to. Violet said that Zack don't seem like the type to go and do that while others don't think so
I think it's funny in my opinion tbh I would be on neither. On 8/30 apparently there's gonna be a revival open and one person can be revived. It could be either me or Silas or Anthony's family and honest I feel like it should be me??? I feel like the victim here I was manipulated and was toss around like some puppet to everyone and yet everyone still see me shitty. Watch out because I will have everyone on my side and I swear that I will come back and maybe even fix things up. I don't even deserve to die and why??? For Zack? Fuck Zack he made my life feel like Its sinking. He should've thought about friend requests and shit before ruining me. I wish for just one day to feel better. might leave this journal on his counter since I won't have any used for it. If only they knew I spread those rumors.
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