- There Aren't Any Words To Describe How I'm Feeling Right' Now .. ✌❤
Standing in self-hatred,
Drowning in my tears.
Looking back on my life,
What I've been through almost the past 14 years.
Living in my own shadow,
Everything I do & say,
Wishing somehow things would change,
Praying for a way.
Starving for love, affection, & attention,
I know none of this is how it's really supposed to be.
Everything was just so perfect.
I try to be strong,
Eventhough I feel so weak.
I feel like just giving up,
But I won't accept that level of defeat.
Pretending like I'm always happy,
Although I'm never really okay.
Waiting for this pain to end,
That I feel every day.
It's hard to say what's wrong,
When nothings going right.
Hard to keep myself going,
When I've been blinded by this painful sight.
This pain is never ending,
It just goes on & on & on.
It's all so unbelievably real,
I just wish it all was gone.
I'm trying to pick myself up,
When I've fallen so far and so hard.
But I don't know where I'm going,
It's all just so dark.
My heart is weak, my emotions are sore,
I do my best to never let it show.
But deep down inside I feel like,
I'm dying & nobody knows.
A lot of thoughts,
Run through my head constantly, always distracted.
I just wish I didn't live,
this life of misery & pain..
