You're Love, My Pain

Chapter Nine

                It’s been a couple of weeks since I went off on Jet. Him and I haven’t really talked or really been in the same room since then.

Today is Friday and I haven’t been to work since I told my boss off.

Do I feel bad? Yes.

Will I take it back? No.

                There is a fine line between business and personal information. The two should never mix, especially if that personal information wasn’t even given from that person.

Marcus is away right now for a couple of days. He’s in Saint Petersburg Florida writing a story on Vans Warped Tour 2012 performing artist.  He promised to take me one day but truthfully I’m scared to be around that many humans who are out of their common sense.

                Jet really hasn’t come out of my room since he’s gotten here. His father hasn’t contacted him that I know of anyways. His scary ass Beta hasn’t even stopped by either. Not that I’m complaining, it’s just I think it’s a little weird. Wouldn’t they keep in contact?

I started whipping down the kitchen counters when I heard my door open. I listened carefully to hear if Jet was going to the bathroom or if he was actually going to come out here. Before I tell which one he chosen I saw him appear from behind the hallway wall.

                “Morning Jet.”

He just nodded to me in show of acknowledging my presence, “I need to shift.”

I dropped the towel I was holding at just started at him. Was he serious? We’re in the middle of the city you just can’t shift out here.

                “You can’t just shift out here; there are humans all around us.”

“I know that Sky. I haven’t shifted in over a week…I NEED to shift.”

                “Alright…um well let me go find you some of my old swim trunks so that way you won’t rip any of your clothes.”

I walked into my room and it reeked of Jet. I could smell him everywhere in the room and I couldn’t help but get a little light headed. I walked to my dresser drawer and found him so baggy (on me anyways) baby blue trunks. Right next to them were my new red ones so I grabbed them both.

                I walked to the hall closet and pulled out a bag, making my way to the kitchen I handed Jet the blue swim trunks, “Hurry and change into these while I make us some lunch for the go.”

After I made some ham sandwiches, grabbed two drinks, and chips, we loaded ourselves into Marcus old pick up truck, and headed out. Twenty minutes into the car I noticed Jet getting antsy.

                “What’s wrong?”

“Where are we going?”

                “There’s an old lake a couple miles away from the city. No one really goes there; it’s on the outskirts of a nearby park. I’ve been going to it for 5 years now and haven’t smelt any human nor wolf.”

Jet didn’t really say anything after that, and I was okay with that, peace and quiet was good. It didn’t take long before we reached our destination and starting up the trail to it. I couldn’t help but notice Jet scanning the woods.

                “You know, if you want you can shift into your wolf form to double check, but I’m telling you no one is out here.”

I heard a ripe and looked to my left to see Jet all decked out in black fur. I felt the hair on my skin rise a little but I ignored it, he can’t hurt me, he needs me to live in the human world.

                The walk wasn’t too long just 2 miles, before I saw the lake, but by then I was a little sweaty, and I really wanted the water. So I dropped the bag under a tree, close to the water, stripped my shoes away, and pretty much dived into the water. It felt so good.

I swam around for a little before I noticed Jet just staring at me. “Are you going to get in the water or act stalker like?”

                I heard a growl before he stepped in and started playing. Before long he was cleaning his fur. I wish I could do that. I think that was the only thing I prided myself on was my fur. It was always soft and plushy looking.

I got out of the lake and decided to just lie in the sun, and Jet finished up.

                How long has it been since I shifted, 5 maybe 8 years? What did my fur look like again? Was my blue still there or is it gone? Is my white golden or dark now since I’ve grown more dominate and not submissive?

“Why won’t you shift?”

                I opened my eyes to see Jet in human form, seating in the water. “I just asked myself the same question.”

“Do you not remember how?”

                “I remember my first time. The pain and tears I had, but I do remember how to.”

“Well shouldn’t you at least clean your wolfs fur?”

                “Why no one see it?”

“Yes but you know it’s not clean. I hear that bothers a lot of subs.”

                “It does bother me but after 5ish year you sort of don’t think about it anymore.”

We fell into silence. I closed my eyes and started to enjoy the suns warmth. I missed being outside, even when I was human I loved just going outside and being in the peace.

                “The sun will feel better in wolf form, so will the water, and the peace.”

“Why do you want me to change so badly?”

                “Because Marcus said you’re an original…I want to see what he means.”

“So basically you just want to see my fur!?”

                “How about we make a deal; you shift this one time, and you have to stay shifted till we go home, and I’ll leave you alone about your wolf, and I’ll try to be more social able.”

“Who said I wanted you to be more social able?”

                “You’re always trying to interact with me by getting me to come out of the room.”

We fell into silence for a little awhile, both lost in our own thoughts, “If I change your promise not to hurt me in anyway?”

                “Unless you attack me or put me in harm I promise I won’t attack you.”

Well wolf…what should we do?