jamariah
but i miss you, and i hate you
your my ecstacy..
I sat on my bed drying my wet stringly hair out with a towel. I had just took a shower that was very much needed. gekyume completely wore me out today
I slid on my soft pajama shorts and threw my towel in my dirty clothes bin in my room. I'm probably gonna snack on something and call it the night.
I walked out of my room and passed gekyume's but back tracked when i heard him talking to someone
"daddy, when we be a family?" his little voice spoke out and i heard a huff. I immediately went into mommy mode and walked in there to see someone in black but i couldn't recognize them
"hi mommy." gekyume said and waved at me as he held his oreo jar.
it's the cutesttt 🥺
when the person turned around and took off their hood my heart dropped to my ass.
jahseh
"mommy, he say him my daddy, is that true." he said looking at jahseh and then me. "uh- baby what are you doing up, you should be sleeping okay" i stumbled on my words
He isn't a father at all. Not what the shit he's done to me. He doesn't get that title. But i'll never be bitter
how you claim you independent but can't pay yo own rent? summerxlations 3:57
"otay mommy, i go night night." he obeyed. I blew out a breath because my chest started to hurt.
I walked away back to my room and grabbed my phone to try and call my bestfriend. When i got to her contact i was going to press call, but my phone got snatched before i could.
I turned around to see jahseh. "miss me?" he smiled at me making me cry. I thought i was finally free from him. And finding out he's been in my fucking house at night pisses me off.
"jahseh you need to go.." i whispered to him. "nahh i'm good where im at." he smirked making me gulp. It was a nice try but i wasn't going to get him to go in any kind of way.
He stepped to me making me turn my head to the side. I couldn't face him, i was too ashamed and scared.
"i've missed you." he said looking me up and down, and grabbed my waist making me flinch, hard
"get off of me." i mumbled and backed up from him
he walked away from me and wandered around my room as i stood there. "why did you tell him i was dead?" he asked me straight up. "because that's what you should be, your a sad excuse-"
"you might wanna watch what you say to me." he mumbled and ran his hand in my hair.
"or what? you aren't shit to me. you fucking BEAT me while i was pregnant! you almost killed me for godsake. i bet you didn't tell him that." i whisper- yelled at him as the tears streamed down my face
He grabbed both of my wrist making me squeal. "i love you riah why can't you see that? i've been getting better for you and this family." he told me as i tried to get out of his grip.
"you don't need nothing else from me jahseh. you made that clear when you went and fucked all those bitches leaving me in that house with our child!" i cried pushing him off me
"and i still wasn't enough for you. i went through my labor alone and i raised him alone we don't need yo-" he cut me off by kissing me and i pulled back
"see this is what i mean jahseh, you think having sex with me is gonna make me stay, it isn't let go of me." i sniffled moving around getting out of his grip
He ignored me and pinned me against the wall. he put his head in the crook of my neck and started kissing it. I was slowly falling right back into his trap
He started lightly biting on it making me moan out. "i love you riah." he said against my neck. I opened my mouth but nothing came out
"i-i love you too"
mannnn that song bitter by summer got his bby momma mad asfff 😭
