Sorry I haven't updated. Alot of drama's been going on -Don't any of you dare feel bad for me. I'd feel like i was beeing an attention wanter. I just need to tell you whats been happening-. I have this extremely huge crush on my brothers best friend, DJ. And my best friend, April, came spend the weekend. DJ KNOWS I like him alot.-like alot alot- He decides to hurt me by flirting with my best friend. I was SO jealous. I feel like no ones ever gonna like me like I like DJ. It was soo upsetting! Everythings going terrible lately! Nothings going right! Everythings going a totally different direction. I wish for ONCE SOMETHING could go right. I wish I could have DJ like me. I've seen the way he treats April. It gets me so jealous i wanna cry. We live in a very small county. Everyone here is Redneck/Country. I just....He kissed her -on the cheek- infront of me. It hurt soo bad. He doesnt know that i've been waiting for four years for him and ONLY him, and he dates my best friend after only knowing her for ONE day. In ONE DAY my BEST friend gets my DREAM GUY and i've waited FOUR YEARS. Four years...im still young -12- i know. But still. I've liked him for soo long. Since I was eight. If he was my boyfriend, i'd do EVERYTHING with him -anything except sex...-. She refused to mudride and just ride with him. I wouldn't refuse. Id get my ass on his fourwheeler and ride. April didnt. The ONLY reason I didnt, was because DJ is her boyfriend. I may be jealous, but no way in HELL would i even try to steal my best friends boyfriend. I just wish he was mine instead of hers. Now i'm screwed, because well...if they break up, DJ's gonna be mad at me and think I told April something. It hurts to know he'll be mad at me for something i'll never do. Well, next chapter is Chapter Two. I'll write it now. Drama is all over. In my school, at home, everywhere.
Nicole
