Please Don't Leave

How We Met

8th of December 2013

I was with Adam (at the time my boyfriend) and we were doing our usual walking to town at about 6pm to meet up with his friends. Whenever we walked to town, I always saw this guy. I knew of him but I didn't actually known him. Mathew, His name was Mathew. Mathew Button.  Odd, I know but he was always isolated from everyone. He usually left after about 10 minutes so I never really got to talk to him. As we usually did, Adam and I would sit there either holding hands or him with one arm around me. We would all be outside of a cheap shop that had shut about 2 hours before. The street we were in was the main street of the town but pretty empty at night. We would all just sit and talk and most of the time drink and smoke...I know bad but oh well. At about 10ish we would all leave and go home and stuff.  So we did the usual routine, Adam and I would walk with everyone until eventually it was just me and him. We would sometimes stop and make out and stuff and after walking for almost an hour we would finally reach my house.My mother worked about 5 nights a week only having 3 or 4 nights off and because she worked night shifts she wouldn't be back until 8am. Most of the time I would invite Adam in because his house was about 15 minutes away and normally he would cuddle me for half an hour until he had to leave. So it was almost 11:30pm now. I turned my head and it was verry close to him. I could see the few strands of hair hovering over his face, I could see the blue colour in his eyes and it actually looked like he was getting upset.."Ok Babe?" He said to me as I fell into lust with his face."Hmm? Me? Obviously me haha. Yes im fine thanks. But um.. are you ok?" I said with slight worry in my voice"No Baby. Im not ok. I know that I am going to have to leave soon and that the only thing I will be able to think about is you. It makes me so sad knowing that I can't spend every minute of each day with you. Baby I just l-""I love you too!" I said as I moved closer and leaned in to kiss him. He leaned into me and didn't even try to finish what he was saying. I just knew him so well. It had been 4 months that very night. We just sat there and kissed. We were sat on my bed because I was cold and it was warmer upstairs. We kissed for about 3 minutes until he stopped. He said "Babe I love you so much I want to make today special and make up for not getting you anything" and I know you're probably thinking wow how much older is he but he was only 15 so he was just over a year older than me. "Babe, no..sorry.." I said. "Ok cutie" he said. "Im just not ready to show you the...you know.." I said while looking away from him and looking at the wall. I had a ter in my eye. "Baby no..you haven't again, have you? I understand you don't want me to see but....I care about you. I love you and I want to care about you, I just wish you would let me.." he said while a tear rolled down my face. He grabbed his jacket and carefully, softly wiped away the tear with the sleeve. I looked at him and he just looked at my eyes. I just loved him too much. I didn't want to put him through what I was going through. He rapped his arms around me. I felt like I was safe. I fell asleep and so did he.THE NEXT DAY Adam left at 7 that morning and got home before his parents woke up

Adam P.O.VI got in and i missed her already..i walked into the kitchen and my sister was sat there....almost like she was waiti fir me."What, Jess? What now?" I was wayy to tired for this ugh. Alex and Jess were best friends until about age 8 when Jess and I moved schools. "Bedn with her. All night!? You crazy?!?" She said. I don't know why she was so angry.."Yes obviously I have been with her she is amazing so just don't I'm too tired for this, ok?"I ssid quieter "whatever just keep that emo fag away ftom here, ok!?"she said. This just made me so sad. "You werenher best friend once. What even happened? When you see her you act so nice. Just stop don't talk like that again or I just won't bother coming back. Imggoing to bed. Goodbye." I just left. I went upstairs to get more rest.

Alex P.O.VHe left. I was obviously sad but eh I was seeing him later. He called at my house at half 4 because my mother had just left to go see my sister. I invited him in, we sat on the sofa and kissed and cuddled then headed for town at about 5. We got there and sat and stuff. I saw Mathew. He looked at me but Adam looked at him so he looked away.

Mathew P.o.vI looked at her. She looked at me. She was so beautiful words can't explain.  Her hair looked perfect on her and her face was just so naturally beautiful. She looked at me. But he looked at me. We used to be friends until he dropped me to spend more time with these people. He didn't like me anymore. I was about to get up to leave. She looked over as I moved. "I have to go, sorrey!" She said while making a silly face then she giggled which was insanely adorable and then hid her face with her baggy jacket. I laughed to myself. I had to leave too so I got up. "Babe, shall I go with you?" He asked her. "No need Baby" she said while she bent down to peck his lips. I got up and started to walk away. 

Alex P.o.vHe kept looking at me. It made me feel slightly uncomfortable..."I have to go, sorrey!" I said and then I pulled the stupidest face ever haha. I hid my face. I told Adam not to come with me and bent down to kiss him. I told him I was going to see my dad and it was only 5 minutes away. Mathew got up and walked away...he walked the way that I needed to go....oopsie.. I just stood back straight and walked down the road. Adam was staring at me walk away, I could tell. I kept going untill I turned the coner. I wasn't seeing my dad. I needed time alone. I sat on the floor against the building with my legs by my chest.i put my face in my knees and I just burst out crying. I wasn't payi attention to anything around me until I felt someone sit beside me. I expected to look up and see Adam. It wasn't Adam. It was Mathew.