How do I explain emotions I guess that's difficult isn't it?
Mmm I think I hate myself.
No I know I hate myself.
I can't understand how I feel and I often know I over react to situations.
I can't help crying in anger
I can't help the tears that drop from my eyes
I can't help the scratching at my skin
I can't help the panic in my body
I can't help my sadness
My thoughts
My anxiety
My anger
My sadness...
I often look at my skin.
The skin where my wrists are and I become infuriated
Others have gone through so much.
And here I am with clean skin and no traces of what's been done to it.
I sometimes feel my heart in my throat.
I feel my headaches go for days.
I get tired of talking.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm not okay but I don't know how to fix myself and the worst part is I hate myself for it.
I've never hated anything more than myself.
I can pretend I'm loud and talkative and that I want to stand out but I'm a coward.
I hate talking.
I hate standing out.
I hate everything that I've built myself to be.
And I hate that now if I attempt to be my true self in ridiculed for it.
I want to love myself the way I've seen characters from books grow and become better.
But I hate myself.
I hate myself.
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My brain
RandomThings that pop into my head or my feelings Lolol Feel free to use my brain junk in your stories just make sure to credit me ^^