Confused In The Worst Way

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C H R I S

I lit the blunt:Inhale Exhale repeat.I was currently sitting in the studio getting high as a kite with my song book open ready to record some new ish...Flipping through the Pages I found the perfect song.

I've been meaning to record this but never really had the time,I was going to put it on the X album ANNND never did...

Starting the best I went into the booth and put my book on the stand pouring my heart and emotions out into the lyrics...

Said I'm all up in my feelings
Doubled up on this shot
Got me feeling some type of way told you I hate you I don't mean it
And the only thing that I got
Is the pain that you've been feeding
Faded, faded, faded, all because of you
Now my current situation, trying not to think of you, not to break the rules
Why's it always happen, when I get this way?
Just can't stop myself, so baby tonight

I'm blowing up your line
I got you on my mind
And the truth is hard to fight, so I'll be
I'll be drunk texting, drunk texting, drunk texting you
Drunk texting, drunk texting you
Yeah baby I'll be drunk texting, drunk texting, drunk texting you
Drunk texting, drunk texting you

Drunk texting you
(Drunk texting you)
Drunk texting you
(Drunk texting you)

I'm looking at my phone thinking
Am I gonna hit send or nah?
It's gonna be one of them mornings when I wake up and regret it
If Ion get no reply
I don't wanna make it obvious that I'm faded, faded, faded
Off a drink or two
And you know how it goes, this ain't nothing new
Why's it always happen, when I get this way?
No I just can't stop myself, so baby tonight

[Hook]

Intoxicated (Intoxicated)
That's when I think of you the most
But after the tides, anything goes
When I put my pride aside
(I'll be doing the most)
Doing the most

I done spent 1, 2, 3 AM, thinkin' about you
Don't wanna be without you, cause I'm on the liquid courage
I hope this shit is worth it, cause if it ain't then it's all bad, all bad.
So baby tonight

(Hook)

If by chance you're laying next to someone else right now
I hope it's the worst sex ever
Hope it's the worst sex ever

When the Beat ended I exited the booth sighing.I decided to send the song to a few females:Jhene Aiko,Beyoncé,FKA Twigs because I felt like it needed some vocals.

Sitting back in my seat I closed my eyes,What the fuck am I doing.I left my girl in Miami and didn't even think to check and see if she alright.What kinda boyfriend am I? Who would do this typa shit?

Taking my phone from my inside jacket pocket and unlocked it going to my contacts and pressing my mothers name.

"Hello?" her sweet voice filled the room as I put her on speaker

"Hey momma"

"Don't hey momma me,whats with you and Ali?Whats this I hear about you two together and you leaving her in Miami?"
Her questions flew frequently dazing me,confused on how to respond.

"It's true we are together....I left her because...." I railed off "Momma I don't even have a reason"

"Child it is one...Its pretty obvious your confused on your relationship and scared...Scared to get hurt again.Now baby I know you scared and your heart is damaged but Aleeyah is the one for you.Over the years you my have not seen it but there was always a sparkle in your eyes whenever you two where together...You'd get happy just talkin' 'bout her,Boy was I jealous"

We shared a laugh and I let her continue.

"Basically what I'm trying to say is no matter what y'all go through you two NEED each other just like how me and your father were....." She trailed off,judging by her voice she was in deep thought.

"Thank you momma I think I know what to do"
"No problem baby"
"Love you ma"
"I love me to" and she hung up 😒😐I looked at the phone shaking my head.

What am I gonna do with her bruh.Quickly hoping out of the chair I grabbed my keys and locked up the studio then ran out of the record label's main entrance.

Time to go get my baby back...

N I C K I

We landed in Miami and that's when August's words finally sunk in.

How am I supposed to find Aleeyah?

She could be anywhere.

"I found her" August shouted
"Who?"
"Ali...She just posted a pic 'bout gettin' a new phone...with her location on...she at Vinex mall" He broke it down to me,I looked at him oddly.

"What?"
"Nuffin' never mind leggo"

"Nigga ya not Chris" He said following me out of the jet
"And I care because"
"Aye thanks again Julez for flying us out on such short notice." He dapped the pilot up and opened the limo door open for me.

"You gon stop talking to me reckless"
I rolled my eyes
"Vinex Mall please" I said to the driver and laid back falling asleep...shit was bouta go down and I needed my rest.

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Enough about Ali and Chris let's tune back into L.A. where Michael and Chyna having their own relationship problems......

"Look I didn't do anything Chy...She was JUST a fan,I didn't even know she'd remember" I slipped,dragging my hands over my face I sighed
"Here we go"

"REMEMBER WHAT MICHAEL..HMMM WHAT?" Me and Chyna where out having a good time chillin since King was at Honey's house:She was babysitting. When while we walking down the street bouta hit up a new restaurant,a damn fan comes out of no where with her friends talking bout we had sex this that and the third.

Chyna was bouta beat up ole girl but I carried her away..and now we're currently at home screaming at the top of our lungs.And I know I was tired of it,it was to much ,I was on the edge and she was pushing it.

"ANGELA RENÉE WHITE" I called her by her full name and she looked at me shutting up but her eyes where still burning with anger "WHAT THE FUCK IS YA PROBLEM IT SEEMS LI WENT ON THAT DAMN TOUR YOU'VE BEEN DOWN MY...throat and I'm tired of it either you tell me what's wrong or I'm leaving I CAN'T keep doing this shit, I WONT keep doing this shit."

It got quiet as I stopped speaking she just went upstairs and I followed her,Going into our bedroom we shared together she entered the bathroom came out with something and threw it at me then ran out the room and I'm guessing out the house also because I heard her car start up and drive off.

Sighing I bent down to pick up the box and examined it...it was a..pregnancy test....and it was positive.....😐👀

DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUN *Dramatic vc* Welp I'm back Ik ik you missed me *Wipes fake tears*
Antywaaayyysss I have an announcement...for those readers who've read Forever & Always orrr on the Sequel How Bout Now (H.A.N.) as you can see I've deleted the book....even though a lot of you have been supportive with the book(s) I still felt as if it wasn't good enough...even if I'd gone back and edited most of it. Welp I'm going to write the story over...since it was my first book I feel as though something should be done....buuhhh it'll be more new and improved so you shouldn't be very confused...😂now I'll warn you a lot of the events probably won't be the same but most of the characters will be...if I can remember them lol😂😂💀😩👀Buuuhhh here's ur chap and oh I lied I'm extending the amount of chaps left in this book I think Might go up to 35 or 40 somewhere in that area.....✌️
Stay breezy-Jayden (Jai) signing out....Oh and y'all should like go check out my new book 'The Lost Ones' okay okay😂😂✌️😘❤️
*Walks off*🚶

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