She Testifies

Nia Brooklynn; @quatainia

Quatainia

Rape. I experienced it at a young age, from my own brother even. It affected me in many ways and still does, not a day goes by where I don't think about what happened. Sometimes, I wonder... what would I be like if that hadn't had happened?

I'd be someone else. That brought me to another question: who am I?

I am a girl who has experienced rape, abuse, hate, bias, insults, isolation. I'm an American who has PTSD, insomnia, nightmares, trigger issues, constant worry... but what else am I?

I'm a stranger to billions of people, but I am still the person that has helped a cashier pick up something she dropped, the person who shared my sweatshirt with a girl who had none, the person that shared my love for Jesus with a little boy eager to hear it. The person who handed out homemade bookmarks with Scripture even when people looked at me funny, even when my brothers made fun of me; the person who acted as a volunteer helper to connect the ties of communication that were inexistent amongst a War Dragons guild; the person who shared her painful testimony just so others would find some help from it.

I'm me—and that's because of Jesus.

Jesus is the one who kept me stable in my weak moments.
Jesus is the one who encouraged me even when everyone picked on me because I was weird.
Jesus is the one who nudged me into sharing my testimony and brought me to help others who were suicidal.
Jesus is the one who gave me the ideas for life-changing projects and the ability to carry them through.
Jesus is the one who allowed me to be raped so I would be molded into who I am today.
Jesus is my Creator.
Jesus is my Lover.
Jesus is my God.
He is my Everything.
So who is He to you?

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I was raped, and the memories haven't faded, the scars haven't healed, and the insecurities haven't vanished.
But I am better—because of Jesus.
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When I wanted to end things, Jesus told me to keep living.
When I wanted to abandon all my friends, Jesus told me to hold on to them.
When I wanted to run away, Jesus told me to stay.
When I wanted to change life for the better, Jesus showed me it was for the worse and shifted my path.

Jesus Saved Me.
How has He saved you?

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The insults hurt;
but running from them hurt more.
The tears hurt;
but denying them hurt more.
The pain hurt;
but ignoring it hurt more.
Jesus convicting me hurt;
but turning away hurt more.

Jesus Convicted Me Out Of Love.
Of what is He convicting you?

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I was confused,
but Jesus showed me the answer.
I was in denial,
but Jesus spared me when I accepted.
I refused to believe,
but when I did I was saved.

Jesus Showed Me The Truth.
What is He showing you?

• • •
So many times:
I wanted to give up,
I wanted to let go,
I wanted to run away,
I wanted to leave,
I wanted to refuse,
I wanted to deny,
I wanted to...
change.

Jesus Changed Me.
How is He changing you?

• • •
Things can be tough.
But Jesus knows all.
We desire what's good.
But Jesus gives what's best.
We strive for decent.
But Jesus grants perfection.

Jesus Died For You.
Will you live for Him?
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HOLD STRONG.
TRUST GOD.
KEEP FAITH.
LOVE JESUS.
He's Got You.

Mar 10, 2021

- Nia Brooklynn -
To God Be All Glory!
Amen

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
ROMANS 12:2
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