Doubt

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Recap

Tom Pov

After Sofie and I made dinner, we went into her movie room, and chilled out, we ate, laughed talked, and decided to watch some movies, she turned off the lights, pick some random movie, we laughed and watched more, Sofie randomly clicked on a movie which I was un sure of until I saw it was 365 day....

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Tom Pov

I am so uncomfortable, I have heard everyone talking about how sexual this movie is, I started to fear, well maybe I am a virgin and Sofie might be gross out by it, Sofie eyes was on the tv,

T: Sof I don't want to watch this movie

S: Oh ok lets watch something else

She started to look for something else, I took a breathe of release, I threw my head back, the place was dark, I put my head back up and saw that it was a movie, I put arm over Sofie, she got closer and put her head on my shoulder, I was happy, then a scene came on with a very very very sexual one, all I saw was the screen turned rainbow with the remote in the center

S: Tom I am so so so so so sorry, I didn't know what type of movie that was

T: Its um fine but you destroyed your tv

S: Bruh I can buy another one

I laughed, Sofie is something else,

S: I should turn on the lights

T: Yea

She got up and turned on the lights, she then went to the tv and turned it off, and left the remote, I laughed we went into her room and watched Netflix, we watched twilight, vampire diaries, riverdale, teen wolf and some other movies

S; Ou you what we should watch

T: What?

S: The avengers, captain america is hot as fuck

T: Wait what

S: What its true

T: What about spider man

S: You mean the weird ugly boy yea no

I started to tickle her, she was laughing, begging for me to stop, she was so cute even though she is not even trying, I stopped for a second

T: What about Spider Man

S: He is not hot Tom

T: Take is back

S: Why its true

I started to tickle her, she was laughing hard, she tried to push me off but I didn't move, she started to tickle me back but I put her hand against the head board, and put my body on top of hers, I used my free hand and tickle her, she was laughing so hard, she caused me to laugh too, she was so cute, we stayed like we are just laughing we calmed down and I looked at Sofie and she looked at me, my eyes landed on her lips and I started leaning in, and before I knew it both Sofie and I are kissing.

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Kio Pov

I am on a livestream for god knows what, I am talking with my fans, pretending to be happy, I ignored all the comments asking about Madison and if I am ok, I am breaking the one thing I swore never to do and that is to lie to my followers, and thats what I am doing, I am emotionally drained, I can't live like this every single day. I decided to end the live as I can't put on a fake smiled everyday, I felt something wet ran down my face, I am living a lie but there is nothing I can do, nothing I can say, nothing, I went inside of my bathroom, found a blade and ran it through my forearms, voices started to fill my head, they told me to cut myself and I did, it felt so good, I started doing it more, it was so addictive, the blood slowly oozing out of my skin, it felt so good, I started doing it on my other arm, I slowly slide down the wall and sat in the bathroom, so many voices in my head, but I didn't care, my mind was focused on the beautiful sensation of blood oozing out my skin, I closed my eyes and started saying "Take me out of this hell hole" I didn't want to be here, I am not good enough for anyone, I lost the only thing that made me feel a whole only thing that made me truly happy, my only source of happiness all because I was doubting myself, I put myself down, well maybe this is what I get for listening to doubt. I deserve all of this pain. I deserve all of this pain.

I am so sorry Kio and I am so sorry Sofie.

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Unknown Pov

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Phone Call

??: I need you to take of something for me real quick

??: What is it?

??: I need you to take of Tom Holland for me

??: That is gonna cost you

??: Money is not an issue, but make sure you don't hurt the girl

??: No problem boss

Hangs Up

Phone rings

??: I can't do this I can't do rhis

??: The fuck you mean you better get your head back into the game before I take your head off

Hangs up

Who the fuck does Tom Holland think he is touching my girl, kissing her, taking her innocence, he shall die, no one touches Sofie. No fucking one.

Tom Pov

So um, I lost my v card and so did Sofie, we are both sweaty and heavy breathing, but that was amazing, her contortion skills turned into something more, I looked her and she looked at me, she smiled at me and I returned back one, we were both breathing heavy and sweating

S: Tom

T: Yea

S: That was something

T: What?

I was very scared on what she is gonna say, I really like Sofie, but I don't want us to lose our friendship, but I kinda went over the boundaries of friendship

S: Fucking awesome

We both laughed

T: Round two?

I said jokingly, but Sofie looked at me with seriousness on her face,

S: Sure

T: Wait what- uh sure

We both laughed and went at it again.

Kio Pov

What the actual fuck!

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I just wanted to say, that both boys and girls go through the same thing sometimes, boys can be depressed and hurt the same way girls can, if anyone boy or girl go through anything you guys can dm me personally just to vent or just want someone to talk to.

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Also what do you guys think of today's chapter

I am in pain for Kio

What did Kio see

Unknown out here getting mad

Both Tom and Sofie are fully grown!!!! (I am so sorry)

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