Tegan; school time
Noah ; mom no
Tegan ; rember dad said be a good boy for me
Noah; fine
Tegan : aww thank u
Noah: lets go
Tegan ; you'll have fun
Noah ; no i won't
Tegan ; well try have fun
Noah; ok
We walk out the door getting in my car
Tegan : so in a few weeks i have time off work how about we take a visit to new york to see gran and pops
Noah ; yes and romeo
Tegan; i don't know but I'll see what i can
Noah ; make him come
Tegan; doesn't work like that but i will see what i can do but new York yes
Noah ; yes can we get that pizza u took me to last time we were there
Tegan; yes we can that pizza
Noah : yay
Tegan; u seem more excited about the pizza then gran and pops
Noah ; no I'm existed for both
Tegan ; ok
I Carry on driving and i drop him off at school and then i drove home and i tidied up for a while and the door goes
Tegan ; crap ok
I take a breath and i answer the door
Tegan; hi
Daniel ; hi
Tegan ; food u want food
Daniel ; I'm good
Tegan ; no eat i can make something i wanna make something
I go to the kitchen
Daniel ; I've eaten honestly i couldn't eat
Tegan; drink anything to drink
He puts his hands on my shoulders looking at me
Daniel ; 1 i don't want anything 2 stop walking round like a headless chicken and 3 whats up
Tegan : I'm pregnant...oh fuck why i did i blurt that out
Daniel: your pregnant right um ok ok...ok ok
Tegan : can u stop saying ok
Daniel: sorry...i just wasn't expecting u saying that are u sure your pregnant
Tegan ; i have 3 tests all say positive
Daniel; ok and mine
Tegan: yh
Daniel; how long have u knowen
Tegan ; found out yesterday
Daniel ; and are u ok
Tegan ; still in shock scared but I'm ok are u ok
Daniel; yh I'm good just shocked aswell
Tegan: yh
Daniel; your the keeping the baby right
I go quiet
Daniel: u don't want to keep the baby
Tegan; i do I'd do anything to have another baby but I've had to many miscarriages that if i had another one i would die i can't go throw that pain again i just can't.
He pulls me into a hug
Daniel ; hey its ok what ever u choose i will help and support u throw anything and everything
Tegan: i don't know what to do
Daniel: well your what 5 weeks u still have time to think
Tegan: what do u want to do
Daniel : its your body i don't have uterus so its not my choice
Tegan : i don't think i can make this decision on my own
Daniel ; we can talk about it but at the end of the day its your body
Tegan: ok
Daniel ; come on lets go sit down
We go to the front room sitting down
Tegan : i hate u i can't have coffee
Daniel; hey it both of us for u to get pregnant not just me
Tegan; i can Blame u
Daniel ; can u
Tegan: yes
Daniel: ok even tho it takes 2 to make a baby
Tegan; i know but ya know
Daniel ; so what are u thinking about this whole pregnancy
Tegan: i really don't want to have a termination 99% of me wants to try again but theres that 1% where I'm thinking termination could be it cause then i don't have to go throw that pain of going throw another miscarriage . But in the back of my head I'm always gonna think what if i did manage to get throw full tearm and having a termination was a mistake
Daniel ; with a termination theres always gonna be that question what if u know
Tegan : yh its just difficult
Daniel ; i know but there is time to think
Tegan: u know I'm gonna take the risk I'm gonna keep the baby if i manage to go full term then that would be amzing I'm gonna take the risk .
Daniel; really
Tegan ; yes
Daniel ; so we are having a baby together
Tegan; we are thats if u want anything
Daniel; i know what u are about to say and don't I'm not gonna abandon u not now not ever .
Tegan ; thank u
He puts his hand on my face
Tegan : no one can know till I'm aleast 12 weeks
Daniel : i gotta tell my family
Tegan; u can tell them but no one else cause the first 12 weeks are where the complications can happen
Daniel ; i know I'll tell no one but my parents
Tegan ; ok...i need to go get Noah
Daniel ; and i need to get lars
Tegan: see u at the school
Daniel; see u there
We walk out the door and we get in our cars and i drive to the school
Tegan: fun day
Noah; yh
Tegan: what did u do
Noah: nothing
Tegan; oh that's got to be lies
Noah ; no we did nothing
Tegan; ok
Lars ; bye noah
Noah : bye
Daniel ; I'll message u
Tegan; ok see u
Daniel: bye
I put noah in the car and i drive home
Tegan ; what do u wanna do
Noah; chocolate
Tegan ; i said what do u wanna do not eat u money
Noah; chocolate
Tegan : how about we go in the pool for a bit then u can have chocolate
Noah ; ok
Tegan; go change then
Noah ; ok
I go to my room getting in my swimming costume i take my leg off and get my cruches and i head out
Tegan : u ready
Noah ; yes
Tegan; do u want air bans
Noah ; no i can swim on my own
Tegan ; ok well lets move
I get towels and we go into the backyard getting in the pool
Noah: see i can swim
Tegan : i can see your a big boy being able to swim on your own
Noah ; i know I'm big boy
Tegan : can u float on your back
Noah ; u can't float
Tegan: oh look
I lay on my back floating
Tegan : see
Noah: i want to try
Tegan: let me hold onto u first
Noah; ok
He lays on his back and i hold onto him
Tegan ; I'm gonna let go now
Noah; if start to go under safe me
Tegan; i will don't worry
I let go and he floats and we swim around for ages and then we get out get dressed and Noah has his chocolate and i made dinner and we ate and we watch tv for the evening
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