Dear Caleb [COMPLETED]

13.

I have been up all night .
I can't stop thinking about all that's happened yesterday.

The wonderstruck expression on your face when I had kissed you, morphed into panic when I ran.

It was almost like a fairy tale.
Where the princess leaves her prince waiting & runs away.

The only difference being,
I'm not a princess,
You're not a prince,
And life isn't a fairytale.

These past few days, I saw parts of you that I didn't know existed.

And it made me realise that you were nowhere near the guy I thought you were, the guy I use to love.

You were not perfect.
We were not perfect.
The idea of us was not perfect.

I had made up my mind.

So , I messaged you and asked you to meet me in the park.
Our park.

There, you were watching me carefully, as if afraid that I would kiss you and run away.
Again.

And then I told you what I had called you here for, hoping that I will never regret it in the future.

I told you I didn't care anymore.

It was a lie.

Maybe I didn't love you anymore but I still cared.

I think I always will.

At least a little bit.

You almost didn't believe me at first but I'm sure you did when I started walking away.

How funny that just two months ago, the person walking away was you and not me.

But now our roles were reversed.

And as I kept walking,
you never once tried stopping me.

I was thankful for that.

Not because I didn't want to turn around but because I knew that if I did and saw the broken expression on your face, I would run back to you and hand you my heart.

If you could end a year of us for something as silly as a high school reputation, what's the guarantee that you won't do it again for something even worse?

I didn't want to leave but I had to.
For me.

Because even thinking about being broken by you again, hurts.

So, I guess this is where our story ends.

In the same place where it had begun.

And the truth be told :

Caleb, you were my anaesthetic, the only thing that could help me breathe and take away the pain while I was drowning in the flood that you had caused.

But now the flood was over.

And I finally learnt to breathe on my own again.

So,
I let you go.

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Hey guys,
This is NOT the end, there's another Bonus Chapter to go which will be in Caleb's POV. It will give you a taste of how Caleb felt about everything and how April's living her Caleb-free life. So hang on and thank you for reading so far!
Sara xx.

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