A semi-autobiography written by an author who disguises herself as a teenage girl living through the long pandemic lockdown. Trapped inside her home for years, she documents the isolation, fear, and emotional battles that slowly reshape her identity. As days blend into months, and months blur into years, she begins to reject her own reality, feeling disconnected from the world outside and from the person she used to be. In her eyes, she becomes a loser-useless, unworthy, and invisible. Through her writing, she tries to make sense of these painful changes, exploring how the pandemic not only altered her surroundings but also deepened her struggle with self-worth, purpose, and belonging.