CHAPTER 39
KIMBERLY’S P.O.V
The sirens and spotlights are blinding my sight…
Kesakitan yang saya rasa sekarang teramatlah sakit… is it an ambulance is coming to my rescue?
Thank God… akhirnya saya diselamatkan juga daripada Luna si perempuan gila… segila-gila saya, saya rasa level gila dia lagi up sikit, sampai tahap macam ia sesuatu penyakit…
“aakkhh…” sakit segala otot-otot dan tulang-tulang saya…
Just as I thought saya akan diselamatkan oleh pasukan ambulance, rupanya sepasukan polis pula yang mengerumuni saya…
“Angkat tangan!” saya dengar someone shouted… pegawai polis? Kenapa saya perlu angkat tangan?
I was the one who was assaulted okay… hah, angkat tangan pun saya tidak larat..
Eh, saya dalam kereta siapa ni?
“Angkat tangan!” lagi tu teriakan kedengaran…
Mau gerakkan bibir saya tidak dapat, ini dia memaksa saya angkat tangan…
Sekali dorang serbu saya yang masih blur-blur dalam kereta dan heret saya keluar… what the fuck?
Saya menahan kesakitan bila saya dipusingkan dan digari…
Why am I cuffed? Okay, what am I being arrested for?
“Tuan! Sudah jumpa!” jumpa apa?
Oh they actually menyelongkar the car… so? It doesn’t belong to me…
Setelah saya siap kena gari dan nampak bungkusan sebesar a pack of sugar di tangan salah satu orang pegawai polis yang membuat serbuan ini…
Then I saw LONDON! Trying to run towards me tapi tubuh dia ditahan…
“kasi lepas saya!!... itu tunang saya!! Kimmy! Kimmy!” London berteriak…
oh god! Saya tidak berdaya melawan penahanan saya, I can’t even utter a word… seluruh bibir saya merekah dan berdarah, kerongkong kering dan perih…
I can only watch helplessly as London tried to fight his way to me…
“London… stop being a psycho, sayang… I’ll be okay..” saya bisik dalam hati…
Saya memejam mata dan menyandarkan kepala di cermin kereta polis… the pain is killing me…
***
BANG!
Tu pegawai menghampas meja dalam bilik soal siasat…
Apa yang saya mau jawab? Saya memang tidak tau apa-apa pasal macamana boleh ada syabu dalam possession saya… saya tidak pun tau saya di mana masa tu dan dalam kereta siapa…
Yang saya tau cuma LUNA LEVIERRE…
Berapi balik hati saya… my thirst for revenge is burning hot inside me…
“Aku tanya ni!” tu pegawai meninggikan suara… “nak kerjasama ke tak?!”
Tak kepala botak kau lah!
“Kau ni dalam barisan ke tali gantung… kau tau tak?” haihh, pening saya oh ni orang punya suara bergema dalam satu bilik yang dingin dan kecil… “3.2 kilo ni ringan ke kau ingat?”
Saya yang duduk di lantai, hanya memejamkan mata dan membisu… lantaklah kau…
Then he came up to me and went down on one knee… touching my chin..
“muke cantik… sayang lebam…” dia picit pipi saya yang luka…
“ssss…” I gritted my teeth…
“I tak ambil statement lagi ni, sayang…” Dubs jantung saya…! saya paling tidak suka disentuh sembarangan orang terutamanya orang yang saya tidak kenal…
Mata saya terbuka luas, semestinya dia nampak mata saya memarak dengan amarah…
“nak lawan?” dia mengusap pipi saya lembut… his face getting closer to mine… macam sikit lagi bibir dia akan hinggap di bibir saya… saya menahan marah, saya hampir mau butt head kepala dia…
BUUKK!!
Bunyi pintu macam kena tumbuk…
“ape tu, Will?” terkejut dia, pantas dia bangun dan duduk balik di meja interogasi dia…
“entah, Jai..” kawan sepasukan dia jawab… “teruskan?”
Dorang continue 2 questions lagi sampai dia hilang kesabaran..
“TAK NAK CAKAP?!”
Suddenly the door opened… LONDON!
“GET OUT!!!” he shouted…
“Tuan…!” the 2 officers stood up and memberikan tabik hormat to London...
“I SAID GET OUT!!” oh god, London! Sikit lagi dia cangak leher tu officer…
In a matter of seconds, London memeluk saya… I miss his smell, his body, his strength… I miss him…
“We’ll get through this together..” London whispered…
“No…” I coughed and shivered… the first word that I’ve spoken since the arrest..
No, London… I care about you too much to want you to get involved… I care about your career, I care about your reputation, I care about your family…
The best thing is to stay away from me, sayang..
Stay away…
“baby… stay with me…” I wanted him to stay away from me, he wanted me to stay with him… “fight with me, baby… I need you… I need you, Kimmy…”
Sakit hati saya… oh tuhan, hati saya sakit, dada saya sesak… kami berdua ternangis sambil London rocking me in his arms…
I looked up at his handsome face… kenapa dia pakai t-shirt? Kalau dia pakai buttoned shirt boleh lagi saya buka button dia dan mengusap-usap bulu dada dia…
Saya menatap wajah London… his eyes, his nose, his lips… even the stubble on his chin and jaw… making him look sexier… ssss, tercubit hati saya teringat kalau suatu masa nanti kami akan terpisah lagi… dan saya mengusap pipi dia dengan lembut…
Yes, I love his stubble.. I love his lips… I love his kisses… did I say all that aloud?
“I love… YOU…” London said! DUSH jantung saya!
Saya menarik nafas tajam… seakan tidak mempercayai yang London mencintai saya… he loves me?! Dia betul-betul cinta saya? the rebel me? the criminal me?
I love you more, Tuan Hakim Psycho…
***
I expected London…
But I did not expect KURTIS!
I expected Karter would turn up and turn his sniper on the whole city… I never expected Kurtis at all… the most dangerous of Bestians…
Saya tidak risau Kurtis finishing off Luna Levierre, saya risau Kurtis akan bertemu dengan London without me as the mediator… ugh! Saya tidak mau kejadian Karter and London berulang dengan Kurtis…
My family belum jumpa London in person, kecuali Karter… and Karter and London didn’t end well…
As for Luna Levierre… bila Kurtis sudah munculkan diri sampai sanggup datang begitu jauh dari Milan to KK, whether Kurtis decide you should live or die, both would be dangerous for her…
Kurtis menekan lembut tulang rusuk saya…
“sssss… argghh..” shit, sakit sampai saya hampir tidak dapat bernafas…
Kurtis wiped his tears, the last time he cried when we buried Kendrik…
“you… have a broken rib, sorellina…” Kurtis bisik…
“sto bene, fratello…” I’m ok, tapi saya teresak mendengar Kurtis calling me ‘baby sister’, like how he always does…
Kurtis mau saya ikut dia pulang to Milan… tapi berat hati saya…
“Kurt..”
Even if I am free, not hanged or jailed for life, will I be able to go back to my normal life in Italy?
Without Armando, I revived from a failed love… I became stronger, I had something to prove, I had revenge to seek…
Without London… how can I go on without London? I tried that once in Milan and Sicilly… and I failed miserably… I realized I won’t have strength to carry on without London because he never wronged me, he’s always there with me, for me… I had nothing to prove to him except my love for him…
Your heart’s getting too cheesy, Kimberly… I smiled to myself tanpa Kurtis nampak…
“you love him?” Kurtis tanya saya lembut… saya mengangguk…
“he loves you?” Kurtis tanya lagi dan saya mengangguk lagi…
Right now, I have all the confidence that London loves me and I love him…
If I were to die being hanged for drug possession… I’d die knowing I am loved by the man I love… I am able to close my eyes and rest in eternal peace…
***
Lebih seminggu sudah saya dalam tahanan..
Cell saya diasingkan berbanding yang lain berkongsi cell… tapi dorang cuma tuduhan ringan berbaju OKT purple… saya satu orang saja yang tuduhan berat berbaju OKT orange…
Case management kedua-duanya dihadiri oleh the Robinsons tanpa perlu kehadiran saya.. they managed to get me out of the spotlight…
Saya tau juga ini kes berat, bukan macam rompakan hari tu… tambahan lagi kes rompakan bersenjata tu, si uncle tua mati-matian refuse to file any charges walaupun tu pegawai-pegawai memujuk… and to add that Sydney and Hudson is in the picture…
But I know all the Robinsons are fighting for me… and my Robinson… my mr. psycho…
Selepas semua di IPK dan lokap tau yang saya tunang kepada Tuan Hakim London Robinson, tiada yang berani berkasar sama saya sudah… atau suka-suka hati menyentuh saya…
Lawatan adalah setiap hari, saya special sikit kali in a private room and my family can visit me…
and of course Sydney dengan his signature line…
“Do not say a word, do not plead guilty, do not say anything that would make them think you are guilty”
Sydney memegang kedua-dua bahu saya…
“listen, never say anything about Luna… we are working on the evidences… but no word about Luna”
“what happened to Luna?” saya tanya…
Sydney tersenyum nakal..
“we gangbanged her and made her into a porn slave..”
Okay, in my mental state right now being locked up 24/7, I’m not taking that as a joke…
“we?”
“umm.. Kurtis, Hudson…” dia saying out names… saya mengerutkan dahi… “mmm.. Holland… me… oh and London..”
“what?!” saya hampir mati sakit jantung…
“HAHAHAHA!” Sydney ketawa… “ketawa bah kau ni… lawak bah tu…”
PAAK!! Saya tampar lengan dia…
“not funny, idiot!”
“janganlah kau risau.. Luna offered herself to kesayangan kau… he said he’s not into blondes cause they taste like cheap beer…” Sydney bilang…
Saya memicing mata ke arah Sydney…
“he tasted blondes before?”
Terbulat mata Sydney… dia menggelengkan kepala…
“berapa ramai ex girlfriend abang kau dulu, Syd?”
Terbulat lagi mata dia, dia menggeleng lagi kepala dia sambil shrugging his shoulders…
Dengan berbaju OKT pun saya masih boleh rasa curiga terhadap reaksi Sydney…
“di mana London took his law degree dulu?” saya menyoal Sydney…
“States…” then Sydney covered his mouth… “he never told you?”
“no..” saya menggelengkan kepala sambil menaikkan satu kudou…
Pantas Sydney berdiri, looking at his handphone konon…
“You know what… I have to answer this call now…”
“there’s no ring..” saya hairan ni…
“it’s on silent… I’ll see you tomorrow… ciaou, Kimmy!” Sydney ruffled my hair and walked out…
Hmmm…
***
London and Kurtis berganti-ganti melawat saya… I’m sure either Bella or Sydney arranged separate visit sessions so London and Kurtis won’t clash…
But 3 days later, they clashed…
Then again, saya special sikit… OKT lain cuma boleb dilawat di sebalik kaca dan besi… saya dalam bilik soal siasat…
When the door to the cold room opened, saya nampak London and Kurtis sama-sama masuk… mana lah muat dua orang yang tinggi dan berbadan tegap masuk sama-sama…
2 saat, 3 saat… tiada yang mau mengalah..
“ehmmm” saya yang bersuara…
I saw London rolled his eyes and let Kurtis masuk duluan… Kurtis smiled in victory…
Kenapa macam budak-budak perangai dorang ni?
Kurtis cepat-cepat berjalan ke arah saya dan memeluk saya erat…
“Sorellina…” suara garau Kurtis berbisik atas puncak kepala saya… saya membalas pelukan Kurtis… dia melepaskan pelukan dan meneliti saya… “you’re getting thinner..”
Saya tersenyum lemah… Kurtis excitedly bercakap…
“after you get out of here, we’ll eat Fiorentina Steak, Polenta, ossobuco alla Milanese..”
“Ferdinand’s should have all of the cuisine… I’ll take both of you there…” London said in a steady tone.. “it’s an Italian Restaurant in Magellan Sutera…”
“I was referring to Milan, Italy…” Kurtis said coldly…
“Kimmy don’t need to travel as far to eat Italian…” London replied with same coldness..
“I am taking her ba…” suara Kurtis menegang when I cut him off..
“Kurt..” saya peluk lagi Kurtis seerat-eratnya dan melepaskan pelukan saya…
I looked at London… London walked up to me…
He side pushed Kurtis with his shoulder!
“jaga sana…” London jeling abang saya! then he looked at me softly, London mengusap pipi saya… “sayang…”
“sayang…” saya sama London dua-dua menoleh memandang Kurtis yang telah mimik London…
London focused back looking at me… menatap wajah saya sendu…
“I miss you..”
‘I miss you too’ I mouthed it out… malas saya abang saya dengar…
“I got this back from the stuff they confiscated from you..” London menunjukkan my diamond ring… my engagement ring.. saya terasa air mata saya bertakung… “you can’t wear it now…”
Saya mengangguk saja… saya tau I can have nothing on me except the orange uniform…
“I love you…” London menunduk dan mencium dahi saya.. then down to my lips..
“ehem ehemmmm…” Kurtis berdehem… our kiss stopped… eee, ni abang kan!
Kami berpelukan sambil London mengusap lembut rambut saya…
“i miss your smell…”
“I miss your smell too… and your bul…” saya mengusap rahang London…
“uhuk, uhuk…” Kurtis TER-batuk konon…
Saya dan London sama-sama menghela nafas berat… I looked at London yang sedang rubbing my diamond ring…
“I think this is too cheap for my beautiful little vixen…” he smiled down at me… “I’m buying you another diamond ring… for the wom…”
“bluek… bluek…” KURTIS!!! dia buat gegaya mau muntah!
“Last kau ah, Kurtis!” London tunjuk muka Kurtis dengan perasaan marah… And Kurtis just rolled his eyes in disgust...
Ugh!