Our comeback is near.
Continuing on our biggest project yet; the Love Yourself Trilogy, we are about to release the last of 3, "Love Yourself: Answer".
We've all been busy.
Namjoon and Yoongi hyung have been locked up in their respective studios, cleaning up and perfecting the songs to the last minute, although the last time I saw them, they were very happy with the results so far.
Hoseok hyung have been especially hard on us for the choreography; picking up on the littlest details. Team choregrapher indeed.
And as result, Jimin and Taehyung hyung who are notorious for being extremely harsh on themselves have been practicing endlessly, both in vocal training and dance performance.
As for Jin hyung, well, he has his own solo this time. Well deserved and long awaited is an understatement. The song fits his vocal so well, and I'm happy that he will finally get the spotlight he deserves.
To conclude, everyone was focused.
However tired, however busy, I always find strength in the little sunshine of my own in the name of Lalisa Monoban.
For the past few months, I feel as though our dynamic has changed. We were still very good friends. But more than that, I feel as though we've gotten closer, past the joking and headbutting levels... something deeper.
Just a shame I don't get to see her often.
We've only met a couple times since that day in my apartment on music shows and such.
But since the start of the trilogy, it's been work non stop on my side.
As for her side, her comeback has gone and went, it broke so many records I couldn't keep count of all of them.
Needless to say, it ddu du ddu dued into my heart though.
We are planning for the world tour after this release.
Just great.
Another 50 yrs added on to the days until I can see Lisa again.
I sighed,
I can't believe there would come a day where someone holds such great importance in my heart, maybe as much as our armys?
I wonder if there'll be a day when I'll have to choose...
"Jungkook"
A voice snapped me out of my thoughts. It was Jimin hyung.
"Ready to go?"
I simply nodded.
Today was the day I'm going out to buy a present, for my one and only of course...
She'd be saying that about me too if I COULD JUST CONFESS KSDJKBAKEUFH.
Yes, call me pathetic, call me a pussy. But I have not had the courage to even bring up the topic of romance to her.
Maybe it's because I'm happy with where we're at currently (really?) or maybe because I'm just scared of losing my best friend, or the consequences that will follow, either from our companies or the public if this information leaks.
I just can't bring myself to do it yet.
But there are things I COULD do to hint at all these emotions I feel inside.
I'm going to go away soon, AGAIN.
I'm going to give her a little keepsake. Something physical that will remind her of me while I'm gone, so no other male caN PENETRATE THEIR WAY INTO HER HEART BEFORE I-
"What are you gonna get her?" Jimin hyung asked nonchalantly, yawning while looking out the car window.
"Tsk" I made a noise at him for interrupting my thoughts.
"You'll see" I said confidently.
I've already thought this out;
I'm going to get her a ring.
I'm going to play it off as a friendship ring, obviously, but of course I have an ulterior motive;
Any guy who sees that upon her finger will hopefully gtfo becausE SHE'S MINE.
"Pfft" the older guy snorted back at me, still looking out the window.
I side eyed him and rolled my eyes.
He's been moody lately.
Maybe because of Jeonghyun noona.
I shrugged it off.
Jimin can handle it, he's been at it with noona for years, and he STILL wouldn't tell us what's going on between them.
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"This one's perfect"
I exclaimed, picking up the piece of jewelry and admiring its details.
"And for what occasion are you gonna tell her you got this ring for?" Jimin hyung smirked, leaning against the glass display case.
"Friendship rings of course" I replied, not even looking away from the little ornament.
"HAH" he scoffed loudly.
"a 500 US DOLLAR frIeNdsHiP rInG my ass" he mocked.
I ignored him.
It made me think of her the moment I laid my eyes on it.
It was perfect.
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I'm going to see Jeon again.
Finally.
And this time it'll be a proper hang out, not just a quick high five behind stage.
It's his birthday today, September 1, 2018.
He's set to go on his world tour soon.
He set aside a time for me despite his busy schedule.
I guess this will be the last time I will see him for a while.
The realization hit me like a truck, and a deep sadness settled in my heart inexplicably.
The hardest thing about being an idol is that we never have the time or privacy to do things with the people we love.
Love?
.
Does Jeon count as someone I love?
Well..
He's my best friend.. so I guess he is in that category-
"Lisaaaaaaaaaaa-yahhhh"
Jennie unnie called out from the kitchen.
"What's up unnie?"
"There's food in the fridge if you get hungry ok?" she said, walking into the living and towards the front door.
I smiled, "thanks unnie, but we could've just ordered something-"
"And risk the delivery guy see you two alone together in our apartment? HAH, you're funny" she fired back at me, putting on her shoes.
I smiled even wider.
Everyone in the dorm is going out, with Jisoo unnie and Chaeyoung have gone home for the weekend, and Jennie unnie is about to go on her date with Kai oppa before also going home.
Yes, you heard that right, Jennie unnie and Kai oppa are dating. It's weird and ironic seeing Jennie unnie out of all people date, when she was the one who was ON ME about Jeon.. and we aren't even dating!
So believe me, I grilled her like all you can eat korean bbq when I found out.
Oh,
And Jeon's coming over.
"Don't get pregnant" she added and slammed the door before I could even speak.
Pft.
Like that's ever going to happen.
I looked down at myself and suddenly got self conscious.
Sweats.
Again.
Should I change?
But it's just Jeon. He's seen me in this countless of times.
... that's why you should change you dumdum.
Do you want him to think you're a bum who only has one outfit to greet your guests?
And with that, I walked with purpose towards my closet for something more fitting.
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I arrived at Lisa's dorm a little earlier than anticipated.
I hope she doesn't mind.
I gulped down my nervousness.
I had been to this apartment before, but this is the first time that we will be alone.
I just hope she's wearing the same thing that she's always been wearing.
The track suit she always wore showed nothing for imagination.
But that just made me imagine more.
Thankfully I've gotten used to the run down track suit, so I don't get as "excited" when I see her in it anymore. (if ykwim).
I rang the doorbell to Blackpink's apartment and waited patiently, clutching the ring box I have in my pocket tightly.
I can't wait to see her.
I can't wait to give her this ring.
I can't wait to see her reaction when I give her the ring.
I can't wait to-
The door burst open with such force it took me aback a little.
There, Lisa was standing, slightly out of breath, looking like she ran 2 blocks just to get here.
Honestly she probably did, Blackpink's dorm was huge.
"Happy Birthday!!!!" she yelled, her arms full of boxes of presents.
That was not the thing that caught my eye though,
.....
Oh shit.
She's not wearing the same thing.
I silently thanked God, Buddha, Allah, and every deity out there that I wore a long enough hoodie to cover my crotch.
She was wearing a pair of booty shorts that perfectly accentuates her hips... and made her butt POP might I add.
On top she was wearing a simple tank top. But it cut off just slightly above her booty shorts, I can see the skin of her belly every time she lifted her arms.
Everything however, was partially covered by the huge loose cardigan that she wore on top.
I think she noticed me staring, from the way she shifted slightly behind the door.
"C-come in" she said, somewhat nervously.
I gulped, looking down at her unicorn slippers.
We shuffled inside awkwardly.
Is it because we haven't seen each other in a long time?
Why am I so nervous?
"H-have you eaten?" she asked, breaking the silence.
"N-no I haven't" I replied, not quite sure where to place myself for some reason.
"Wanna order something?" I continued, trying to sound normal and not the NERVOUS WRECK that I am.
The girl in front of me beamed and pulled me into the kitchen and opened the fridge,
"Actually, Jennie unnie made us some food.. wanna eat?"
She proudly held the fridge door open like she's showing me her trophy cabinet. It was adorable.
"If you're hungry just say so Li" I couldn't help but tease her a little.
I just want to see her cute cheeks puff.
Her face immediately went into pout mode.
I melted.
She blew her bangs out of her face, mumbling something (which I'm assuming, are curse words) and proceeded to walk towards the cupboards for some plates.
After that was smooth sailing.
We ate, we talked, we bickered, we laughed.
Everything was good and fine again in my world.
Amidst the laughter and bickering, I suddenly remembered the ring.
I eyed her cute little stuffed face full of food carefully.
"Lisa.." I started.
Oh god, be still my heart.
"Hm?" she hummed back, reaching for more food.
LET'S JUST FUKIN DO IT JEON.
"I uh.. got you this" I pulled out the box and slid it across the table to her.
Please don't think it's too weird.
She stopped chewing for a moment and raised an eyebrow at me, as if questioning my motive.
I pointed my lips toward the box, urging for her to open it.
She slowly swallowed whatever was in her mouth and reached for the box, eyes narrowed but never leaving mine.
"What's this?" she asked, popping the box open.
I swear my heart almost stopped beating.
She was still for longer than I would hoped.
Why is she not saying anything?
I knew it.
She thinks it's weird.
I just ruined our friendship.
She's going to hate me.
Oh wait, maybe I can salvage it by-
"It's so pretty" she uttered, cocking her head to one side, admiring the piece.
I let out a sigh of relief I didn't know I was holding for God knows how long.
"You like it?" I managed to pipe out, heart still beating violently in my chest.
"I LOVE IT!!!" she exclaimed, her half crescent eyes turning to look at me with pure joy.
Ah.
That's what I've been waiting for.
Her eyes sparkled like the stars on a moonless night, and I swore I've never seen a more beautiful night sky.
Her smile alone makes me incredibly happy, and I wanted nothing more than to give her the world right then and there.
"Jeon, it's your birthday today, why are you giving ME a gift? What's it for?" she asked, eyes opened wider in question.
I chuckled, I am WHIPPED.
"Actually, I have one too" I said, smiling, lifting my right hand up, showing the same ornament on my ring finger.
Her mouth gaped open, the cutest sight I've ever seen.
"EHeh, it's a friendship ring!.. I wanted to give you something to think of me by, you know, before I leave for a while" I continued, scratching my head sheepishly.
Her face immediately revert into a pout, eyes getting more shiny. She was going to cry.
"Oh nonono" I quickly said, instantly moving forward to wipe any excess liquid that begins to form in her eyes.
"Here, let me put it on you" I said, trying to cheer the mood.
I grabbed the ring in one hand and her hand in another.
The feeling of her skin against mine never fails to send electrifying shocks throughout my body.
I put the ring on her index finger.
It fit perfectly.
I admired the ring on her hand for a moment before looking up and meeting her eyes, that were still watering but nevertheless showed an immense amount of gratitude that reached the core of my heart.
"Thank you" she whispered, suddenly gripping my hand tight.
"Stay safe" she continued.
We were silent for a while, not speaking.
But our eyes conveyed more than any words could express.
All those feelings can only be concluded into one overwhelming emotion, until my heart can no longer contain it.
When I finally had the courage to speak, I was surprised to hear the sound of her voice that also echoed throughout my entire being;
"I'll miss you"
"I'll miss you"
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We went out for a walk.
It was the dead of night, and I didn't want to leave yet.
Plus, the weather was so nice.
Normally, you wouldn't be able to see stars in the heart of Seoul, but for some reason today, they were visible.
I looked at Lisa in front of me, she had changed from her tank top and cardigan into an oversized purple shirt.
It was 'perfect for going on a walk in this weather' as she says.
She giggled and skipped ahead of me, like a child with candy.
I couldn't help but smile at her small figure, dashing here and there.
I decided to pull out my phone and take a few snapshots, wanting to keep this memory to myself, forever.
"Hm? Did you take a pic of me Jeon?"
I hear Lisa trotting over, and that's when I realized;
My flash was on.
Goddamit.
"Huh? ahahah yea, you looked so carefree, it was funny" I chuckled nervously.
Adorable.
Her face morphed to a frown, and I laughed.
She ushered me to show her the picture, and I did.
"Send it to me" she said.
"I do look funny" she looked up at me and smiled that eye smile.
We stayed like that for a split second, but it was enough to momentarily stop my beating heart.
"Huh. The stars look extra pretty today, don't you think?" her beautiful face moved to stare up at the sky.
I agreed, not even taking my eyes off her. The stars were truly beautiful that night, but nothing could have compared to her.
I stared at her as my world slowly came to a pause.
"Happy birthday, Kook"
I never want this night to end.
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BONUS:
A notification binged on my phone as soon as I flopped myself down on my bed.
(@lalalalisa_m just posted a photo)
I eagerly tapped on the notification, taking me to Lisa's instagram account.
lalalalisa_m 🌙☁✨
The picture I took.
She didn't type it in words but her caption says it all.
"Huh. The stars look extra pretty today, don't you think?"
Lisa, this girl.
I smiled to myself, as always.
This is better than any present you could ever give me, my Lali.
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Hello everyone~
Hope you guys are staying happy and healthy.
This is probably the longest chapter I've ever written (no edit as always haha).
But I hope my work can be of some use of those who are bored at home.
I will try my best to update more, sorry for the long hiatus, again :(
Lots of Love,
P.