Ayla.
Jovan is here. I held Yvam's fist firmly at nginitian sya
"We'll just talk" Magaan kong sabi sakanya
He stop for a while and nodded pero hindi na nya ako sinagot
He step outside the room saka ko hinarap si Jovan
"What was that Ayla? Why is he here?!" He shouted at me
"Why is he here? I think you need to explain something for me Jovan. " Nagtitimpi kong saad
Natigilan sya at tuluyan nang lumapit sakin. I just want him to explain... I don't want to hold any grudges for now
"I-I o-only d-did t-that--"
"How can you be so selfish Jov? Plinano mo lahat ang nangyari 5 years ago. You told your sister na si Tamara that his fiancé is into me kaya sumugod sya noon samin ni Yvam and you made me walk away from his life. And the news that I saw? It was fucking edited by you!" Umiiyak ko nang bulyaw
I can't help but to burst in tears. He made me believe in his lies!
"Pinagkatiwalaan kita. Because your my bestfriend--"
"I just did those shitty things because I love you Ayla... Please don't be like this... I'll make it up to you baby pleasee" he stated while crying
I shook my head "Blame it all for love but if you love someone Jov, you must let go and let her decide the path that makes her happy" saad ko sakanya
"Y-your br-breaking u-up w-with m-me?" He stuttered
I held into my chest and nodded. I'm sorry Jovan, sakanya lang talaga ang puso ko
"I told you to stay away from the sun Ayla, why didn't you listen?" He ask out of the blue
Binalingan ko sya saka nginitian
"How could I stay away from it when I'm the moon and inorder to shine at the darkness I need his light?" I answered him
He stood up and chuckled
"I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings, please forgive me. I'll accept my defeat from Yvam but atleast fight this illness kahit para sakanya nalang" saad nya
I nodded at him "also hinihintay kana nina Tita at Tito sa doctor's main office " sabi nya as he tried to offer his hand
He still my bestfriend. Always be, kaya tinanggap ko ito
Helping me to seat on my wheelchair, lumabas na kami sa kwarto ko pero wala si Yvam sa labas
Sina Kuya Rey lang at Ate Van ang nandoon
They look away at each other kaya natawa ako
Pakipot pa ang dalawang to
"Nasan si Yvam?" Tanong ko kay Kuya Rey
"Pinatay ko na" seryoso nyang sabi kaya hinampas ko nga
Napadaing sya "may sakit ka na nga't lahat lahat ang lakas mo pang manghampas! Tss, pinauwi ko muna ang gago grabe ang eyebags eh tsaka pag yon nagkasakit malalagot ka sa mga fangirls nya" he joked out
Fangirls my ass! Sasabunutan ko lahat ang mga yon pag hindi sila tumigil sa pag-aaligid sa prinsipe ko
"Ayla, kahit anong marinig mo sa loob please be brave" Ate Van suggested then she held my shoulder
I hold into her hand at ngumiti
Tuluyan na kaming pumasok at nandoon na si Dr. Smith saka sina Daddy at Mommy
Mom quickly got up from her seat at yinakap ako. She already in tears so did I
Even daddy covered his face for me not to notice that this is also his weakness
"Fight baby ok? We can all get through this" sabi ni Mommy nasyang tinanguan ko
"Ms. Ayla the vampire syndrome that you experience had gone in a higher stage. And that is skin cancer" panimula ni Doctor Smith
Hindi na ako nagulat instead I let my heart understand that this is what it should be
"And if it's the common one we can still prevent it but yours is the Multiple Myeloma, we can do medications like prednison or chemotherapy but we can't do the x-rays to look into your bone marrow or else you'll die right away from the radiation" mahabang litanya pa nya
"how about the other medications in the US?" tanong ni Daddy
"We already tried those machines and antibiotics Dr. Miguel and yet her antibiotics that she's taking right now had already some side affects to her heart" pag-e-explain ni Ate Van
I didn't look down instead I raise up my head to hear the last suggestion
"I will not going to explain more further Ms. Ayla, your illness is now on the highest stage and the medication antics will only saved your life for 5 more days--"
"Then do something to save my daughter's life!!" Daddy shouted and he's about to punch Dr. Smith pero pinigilan ko sya
"dad... That's enough, alam na nating mangyayari to" saad ko sakanya
Tears started to pool in my eyes again
"Don't worry Dr. Miguel we might figure something up to help her" sagot ni Ate Van
Looking all this people who cared for me, alam kong kailangan kong bumangon. Kailangan kong lumaban, na kahit sa bawat segundo ay sumosobra ang sakit kailangan kong lakasan ang sistema ko
And I need a fresh air so I grab my phone and texted Yvam
🐻
Yvam.
"I'm so excited!!" She shouted while letting her hands feel the air above
I miss this side of her. Yung wala syang prinoproblema at nakikita mong malakas sya tama na yun para iinda ang sakit na nararamdaman ko
For once again I want to feel freedom with her. No worries just the both of us laughing our ass out and enjoying our love for each other
We escaped from the hospital sa tulong na din ng mga kaibigan namin, she keeps on insisting that she want's to go on a date with me sa Amusement park
And so I grant her wish kaya ngayon ay nagbyabyahe na kami patungong Amusement Park and seeing her so happy makes my heart to explode that's why I'm maintaning my emotions
"Nandito na tayo" nakangiting sabi ko sakanya
Her eye's lit up in the sight of the colorful decorations at walang anu anong bigla akong hinalikan
"Tara na prinsipe!" Yaya nya at nauna nang lumabas
Damn! Am I blushing at what she did? Iba na talaga ang epekto nya sakin
"O my god! I remembered our date at our foundation noon" sabi nya tsaka ko sya inakbayan
"Yeah... Those memories are meant to be kept" sagot ko sakanya
Tumakbo sya papuntang isang game at agad tinuro ang isang malaking stuff toy
"Gusto ko non!" Sigaw nya
Does she wants me to play the game and win that thing for her? Damn! Wala pa naman akong ka-alam alam dito
"Sa iba nalang tayo" pagpupumilit ko sakanya at hinila sya pero desidido talaga sya at nagstay sa pwesto nya
"Tss kukunin ko na lapa para sakin" masungit nyang saad at inirapan ako
I sighed at linapitan sya "fine... I'll get that damn thing for you" no choice kong sabi
If she wants all of these things edi sana sa mall kami nagpunta at binili na lahat in just one click
I immediately throw the ball to hit the target at biglang nagsiren hudyat na natamaan ko ang bull's eye
"Not bad" I commented on myself
The vendor gave the teddy bear to me, it's fluffy
"akin na" nagpapadyak na sabi ni Ayla as she keep on reaching for it
"My price first" panloloko ko
I need to savor every seconds and minutes with you Ayla, I'll let you know the truth later
She smiled at me saka ako hinalikan. Her kisses are always magic for me.
I gave her the teddy bear at bigla syang tumili
To see you this happy princess. It's enough for me
"Ano pa? May gusto ka pa? Name it and I'll get it" saad ko saka nagwink sakanya
She chuckled at tinuro ang roller-coaster ride, agarang napunta ang kamay ko sa dibdib
Nauna na sya sa pila and I'm still here standing not knowing if I'll risk my life
But her smile tonight... She seems so happy at ayaw kong maging kontrabida ngayon sa kasiyahan nya
"listen heart, I know that you have only an hour to live but I want you to keep your shits just for a minute and give her the happiness she wanted" I know I look like a lunatic now who's talking to himself but my fate is like Ayla's too
Nakasakay na kami sa roller coaster at namamawis na ang kamay ko
She held my hand kaya ako napatingin sakanya
The ride started kaya sumigaw na kami dahil sa excitement, bad thing hindi nakikisama tong puso ko
I take my gaze to look at her, I wish I had more time to make you feel my love Ayla
[Play: The Night We Met by Lord Huron]
My tears started to pool in my eyes but I quickly wipe it off. My heart is aching but I need to shrug it off.
We enjoyed the food booths, kumain kami ng burgers, then sa next booth naman fries and cokes
"Help me eat these things baka hindi ko na matikman ang mga to" sabi ko at sinubuan sya
Kumunot ang noo nya sa sinabi ko but I ignored her assumptions
We heard a blast from the stary sky kaya kami napatingin doon
It's the colorful fireworks again, trying to compete with the stars twinkling lights
"You know this is the 2nd time that I've watched the fireworks with you Prinsipe, and people say kung sino ang kasama or katagpo mo sa panonood nito ay sya ang makakasama mo habang buhay, he or she will be destined for you" mahabang litanya nya
Pinaharap ko sya sakin. The pain is eating me.
" I like the stars more. Fireworks only lasts for a minute but stars lasts for a million years and my belief is that when I kissed a girl under their lights I'll be like them and guide you through my light trying to keep you cover from the darkness" I stated
Her eyes sparkled as they met mine so I claimed her lips then she kissed me back
I hope the time would take me back to the night we met Ayla. In that way I can make everything right
"You keep on suffering pain from your wound Mr. Montello, I told you numerous times to consult me everyday or every week."
Flashbacks from my doctor's statement a while back came into my mind kaya napahiwalay ako kay Ayla
Nanakip ang dibdib ko kaya ako napahawak dito
" u-uh... Ca-can we sit for a second? " I ask her at nahihirapan nang huminga
Fuck this situation!
" are you ok?" tanong nya at inalalayan ako paupo sa isang bench
"Is there something wrong Yvam?" nag-aalalang tanong pa nya as she carress my back
I gulp as the pain is so unbearable
"Is this connected to the accident you had 5 years ago?" paos na nyang tanong
I controlled my breathing and looked at her. I touch her cheeks as tears started to pool from her eyes
I sighed "5 years ago I should be dead pero nakahanap sila ng paraan para maisalba ang puso ko, you see it's a machine who helps my heart to beat and do his things normally because after the accident I had a heart failure but I didn't go through the medications--"
" Why would you hide this from me?! Bakit hindi mo sinabi?!" she frustratingly shouted
" just like what you said Ayla... I don't want to be weak infront of you, ayaw kong may hassle na kasama ka... And then I felt a pain in my heart the moment I got out from your room, It hurt so much to the point that I ran to my doctor. Something must be wrong in the machine or something so I got into a PET Scan and they can't do anything about it anymore" I explained my self to her
But I leave the side effects of the rollercoaster ride. Ayokong sisihin nya ang sarili nya ng dahil sa sakit ko.
"Nung nasa kwarto tayo half part of me was clenching my fist for Jovan but the bigger part is that the pain in my heart is unbearable" dagdag ko pa
She closed her eyes and cried, even my tears slip in a second seeing her like this
I grab her face wipe off her teardrops, I wish I could stay with her...
But the pain doubled itself on my chest
"Ayla I want you to fight for your life ok? Go through your medications... And if ever..." I can't help but to sob
She hug me so tightly as her cries is the only thing I could hear
"If ever na pagod ka na... Pagod na pagod na... Just look at the stars my princess... I'll be your guide to heaven.. I always love you and my love for you will be at your side until your last breath. You don't need to stay away from the sun anymore Ayla, I'll be the cloud to protect you from it" saad ko at lumayo na sakanya
I held her flashdrive firmly at linagay ito sa palad nya, I smiled at her and the pain contaminated all my system
I wish I could fight more time Ayla but the blood that's running off from my nose and the way I started to choked blood is already my cue
I'm sorry for giving up to soon. I tried to fight but this is all the strength, I have left
"No! Yvam hold on.... I'll call some help... Yvam! Please.. Stay with me Yvam..--" atleast I heard her last word...
And that is my name.
I wish I could go back
🎶Take me back to the night we met