Recap:
“What did you mean we would’t be safe,” I questioned. Was this why he rejected Alexis and why Hayden was ignoring Travis?
“Because I know if we became close to your or if he figured how important Alexis is to me and Travis is to Hayden, he would go after them.” Travis answered, anger flashed in his eyes when he mentioned how Than would hurt Alexis.
“What!” Our head swiveled around to the door as we heard Alexis gasp.
Chapter 29:
Alec’s eyes softened and he stood up, “Alexis.” He whispered tenderly. She gasped, covering her mouth, eyes wide. Taking a small step forward, eyes wide with disbelief. “T-This is why you rejected me? To protect me!”
“I-I,” Alec tried explaining but was cut off. “And you decided this, did I get a say?” She whispered pointing a finger at him, tears filling her eyes. “Did you think about how much pain I’d be in! How much I would hate myself! Wondering what was I missing ... what was wrong with me. Wanting to hate you, but I couldn’t.”
He grabbed her hand but she ripped it away from him and a pained look filled his eyes. “That was the only way I knew to protect you.”
Her eyes softened, then hardened before softly saying, “You didn’t.” Alexis took a step back, her hands fall to her side.
“You didn’t,” She whispered again before backing away and running off. Alec just stood there, staring at where she last was. His face screaming pain and hurt. He looked defeated. “What are you doing?” I asked and he looked to me confused.
“Go!” I encouraged. “Go after her!” He looked conflicted for a second-a split second-before giving me a small unsure smile and running after her. I leaned back and watched him leave. I know he thought what he did was for the best, I understand but what about Alexis? Would she view it the same way, having experienced that much pain would she say it was for the best?
I know she would rather have her mate and die, then not. I just hope she would forgive him, I think he really does care for her. Maybe he might get her to see it in his perspective. He too, must have got through some pain having to do that to his mate.
But then again... “‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” I whispered softly.
Alexis POV:
Tears blurred my view as I ran, my feet pounding against the grass. It seemed like just a second ago I was in my room, the hollowness eating me alive. The pain, the constant wanting to scream. My reflection grinning at me, it’s disgust. The hate I had for myself, my wolf’s pain. “Alexis!” I heard him call and I panicked.
My breath came out in pants, heartbeat thudding against my chest.
I didn’t want him near me, I didn’t want to forgive him. The need for him was almost impossible especially with the yearning of my wolf. Wanting to feel his skin on mine, breathe in his scent.
But I didn’t go though all the pain for nothing. He was getting closer, and closer. Feeling my wolf claw against my skin, I couldn’t help but give in and shift.
Dark brown fur sprouted from my skin as my hands and feet morphed into paws as they hit the ground. The wind ran through my fur as I ran, hearing the soft sound of ripping from behind as Alec shifted. All my senses was heightened, everything more detailed and I could smell all the different scents.
Dodging the branches and bushes of the forest, I found myself starting to like the chase. I could feel him nip at my tail letting me know that he was going easy on my and if he wanted, he could’ve caught me.
Pushing myself faster I looked back for a second before feeling myself slam headfirst into a tree and I whined. Lying down on the grass as pain hit me smack in the face. Alec whined and gently nudged my head with his.
He shifted, his hands fluttering nervously around my body, not sure what to do. I couldn’t help my eyes that traveled from his beautiful eyes and luscious lips towards his perfectly muscled chest with a 6 pack before going lower causing me to squeak, scrambling away from him blushing.
He chuckled lightly then giving me a concerned look. Although I was mad at him right now, I couldn’t help but feel pride well up in me that such a fine specimen was my mate. Mine.
I shifted back curling myself into a ball. I saw lust in his eyes before he shook his head. “I’ll go get us some clothes,” He said hesitantly before disappearing.
I clutched my self harder, nails digging into my skin slightly.
I-I didn’t want to hear what he had to say. I didn’t want the explanations. But I had to. I knew if I never let him speak I would be regretting it forever and would want to know what he had to say. Maybe he didn’t know what pain he would cause.
The truth was, I wasn’t mad at him. I couldn’t be. I wasn’t angry, I wasn’t betrayed. I was just... sad.
He was mate and no matter how much he hurt me, I would always be by his side. It might take me a while but I know, I would never leave him. It was something I couldn’t help. And it frustrated me, I wanted to hate him. I wanted to tell him to fuck off and leave me alone... but I couldn’t and wouldn’t.
Alec arrived with the clothes and I took them silently before changing behind a tree. I let out a sigh as I caught him looking at me, filled with concern. “Alec,” I started. He cut me off before I could continue, seeming desperate.
“I know what I did was wrong but I was just trying to protect you! I-I didn’t want you to get hurt and I should’ve let you have a choice! But the second I saw you, I knew I couldn’t let him hurt you. I didn’t want you caught up in my mess, I told myself that you deserved better, that you deserved a happy life and not having to worry about your life.” He rushed out.
“It hurt me so much having to do that to you and when I heard you were in pain, I wanted to hurt myself for causing it.” I winced slightly at the thought of him hurting himself but I let him continue.
I just listened.
“Even though I barely knew you, if felt like I had known you my entire life. I admit that it scared me a little, but if I had the choice I would’ve done anything to be with you. What am I talking about? No.. I had a choice. I did but I chose the wrong one. No one made me reject you, but trust me, all I wanted was your happiness. I-I care about you... a lot.” He nervously looked up, unsure about how I would react.
I just stood there shocked. Slowly processing it all. But he did care for me, he really did.
I opened my mouth, ready to speak when he blurted out. “I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness and I should probably leave you alone. Maybe you could find someone else that won’t pass on burdens and someone who wouldn’t cause you pain but I’m selfish enough to be standing here. Asking. I would spend my entire life trying to get back your forgiveness but I understand if you never want to see me again and I-”
As he rambled on I couldn’t help but shake my head, grinning slightly. Stepping closer he didn’t seem to notice till I tiptoed and lightly pressed my lips to his. He froze, eyes wide.
I leaned back, looking up at his face. He seemed shocked, like he wouldn’t have ever expected this. “T-the... I... uh.” He stammered.
I giggled at his adorableness. I cared about him too much to be mad and although the second he entered my life, the only thing he’s done is add pain, I would give him a second chance.
We could start anew.
“I forgive you,” I whispered meaning every word. Even though the pain was still fresh in my memory, to be honest I think I had forgiven him the second he showed up at our house, the second I saw his face.
I may not love him, not yet. But I’m sure that soon enough I will.
He looked at me as if my words were precious. “Thank you,” He whispered and in those two words I could hear the regret, happiness and how grateful he was.
“You made a mistake,” I continued. “But I understand that you were trying to protect me. Just remember we’re more powerful when we’re together and I would never ever want someone else. You’re my mate, made for me.” I grinned.
“So you’re my perfect match. No one would be as good.”
“You’re right,” He agreed “No one could be as perfect.” His eyes softening as he stared at me, brushing my cheek.
I blushed, but hesitantly touched his hand. He saw it and it seemed like pain flashed through his eyes as he stared at me closer. “You’re too thin. Have you been sleeping?” He questioned.
I looked away, uncomfortable.
“Did I do this to you?” He whispered in horror. “Oh Alexis, I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry.”
I sighed, “I-It’s okay.” He looked mad at my words. “It’s not okay. You don’t deserve this, it is isn’t okay that because of me you’re hurting. I-I... god I fucking hate myself. I’m so sorry.” He seemed to hate himself, it was reflected in his eyes. I didn’t want him to, and I did it to myself. I wasn’t strong enough, it was none of his fault.
He may have rejected me but he didn’t make me do any of those things. I did.
“It’s not your fault,” I said determinedly, giving him a look when I saw him about to disagree. “I did this to myself. Let’s just put this behind us okay?”
He seemed to want to argue but one look at my face caused him to admit defeat. “Okay.” I smiled, grateful.
I unsurely put out my hand, not sure if he would accept. Hurt crossed his face and he grabbed my hand. “I’ll get you to trust me.” He said determinedly.
I smiled, not even doubting his words. One day I will. But right now, the pain was still fresh. The reminder of what he could do, what he could make me want to do to myself.
“Come on,” I said leading us back to the pack house.
He gave me a smile, yet his eyes seem worried. I just gave him an encouraging smile. I know that the business with Than wasn’t over. I wasn’t an idiot, of course I knew why the Alpha was here. But all I have to say is bring it on. You will regret the day you threatened us.
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