If only there was a time where she could go back and tell him the truth.
"Hey, Bee. Is there anyone that you like?"
"No." She answers without any hesitation but inside, her feelings are wreaking havoc.
"Ah really?" Jimin lets out an inaudible sigh. "So, you don't have a crush on any of the other guys, do you?"
"No, why would you think so?" Bee forces a laugh. If only there was an easier way to confess to him. To tell him that the person she adores the most is him, but she can't. She just couldn't. There was no way she could jeopardize their friendship for her selfish feelings.
"But, you seem really close with Namjoon?" he asks, which sounded more like a confirmation for himself.
"It's hyung to you." She corrects him and laughs when there was a slight fear stricken in his eyes, "But no, we're just friends, Jimin. You know that more than anyone, right?"
"Yeah." He mutters as he stirs the ice floating in his juice.
"Is there someone you like, Jimin?" she asks and it's her turn to ask for a confirmation without sounding too obvious.
Jimin leans back and scratches the back of his neck out of embarrassment. There was a light pink tint on his cheeks. And Bee always found it too cute when he blushed.
"You're blushing! So you do have someone you like." She blurts out. She teases him and pokes his shoulder and he turns even more red. Inside, her blood is boiling with anger. Angry with herself for putting herself in this situation, and then the jealousy that strikes her right through her heart knowing that the person he likes will never be her.
"I don't think I'll tell her though, that I like her." He says. His face is apparently the colour of a tomato now.
"But, why not? You should never lose the chance to confess or you'll just regret it later." She tells him and pats his lonely hand on the table. Her heart aches terribly. Why couldn't she just follow her own advice?
"I don't know. I don't think she likes me anyway. We're friends but I don't think she sees me that way." He explains and for a while Bee feels kind of glad. However, it didn't last long knowing that she was happy over someone else's misfortune and it made her sick to her stomach.
"Well, I have to go now." He suddenly says and Bee blinks blankly at him.
"S-So soon?" Time had gone by so fast she didn't even realise it. She wanted to see more of him. Know more about him. But they were just friends –
"I promised Taehyung I'd meet him." He said as he got up and started to wear his coat. "Thanks a lot for the talk Bee. It was fun, sorry I had to cut it short from usual." He says a little despondent on having to leave so soon. Instead of saying anything back, Bee stares back with her mind blank from the heavy feeling in her chest. She's choking on some words that she just can't seem to let out.
He gives her a small wave goodbye before he walks off and finally leaves the tiny café. Once the door closes behind him, it seemed like all her brain functions started to work again and she finally runs out after him.
"Jimin!" she shouts. The young man not far from where she stood turns around and sees her. She walks straight up to him and stops right in front of him.
"Bee?" Jimin raises an eyebrow. "Did I forget something?" he asks as he starts to search his pockets for anything missing.
"Tell her." She blurts out.
"What?"
"The girl that you like, she deserves to know."
"Bee?" She feels a light nudge on the arm as she snaps out from her thoughts. It's Jin who was sitting beside her, looking down at her. Jin turns to look at the direction that she was looking at just now. "Hey, you okay?"
Bee forces a smile and shook her head. "I'm fine."
From the other table, they hear Jimin laugh and his one-month girlfriend giggle right beside him. The heavy feeling is in her chest again, but she quickly shakes it off. She doesn't want to ruin the dinner party for everyone else.
"You didn't have to come you know." said Namjoon who was sitting the opposite of her. Gladly enough the other table was loud because it had Jungkook, Hoseok and Taehyung and no one could really much hear the conversation. The older guys already knew her feelings for Jimin and it wasn't like his new girlfriend was a bad person, but they have been friends with Bee for a while now so they could pretty much see right through her.
"No" she shakes her head again, "Jimin would have wanted me here. It's his birthday."
Jin and Namjoon exchanged glances and Yoongi was pretty indifferent about the situation. Not that he didn't care, but he preferred to analyse things before working on an action.
"Heyy! Why are you guys so glum over there?" Hoseok nearly shouts, probably already drunk by now, he picks up his glass and stands up from his seat. "A toast to this kid here," he points towards Jimin who was already covering his face from sheer embarrassment, "Never stop being the Jimin we all love and adore." Hoseok drinks from his glass while Taehyung struggles to tell him to sit down and stop embarrassing everybody else.
His girlfriend however takes the advantage to give him a peck on the cheek and everyone starts getting rowdy and cheers on for them. Jimin clealy blushes harder and he tries to cover it.
Everyone else drinks to Hoseok's toast and as Bee does, she accidentally steals a glance up at Jimin and right at that time they lock eyes for a second, she gives away first and looks someplace else other than him.
If she had said something first, if she had told him her feelings, would she be the one sitting there beside him instead of someone else?
Back home at last, and she's finally back on her bed. She rests her head on the headboard and sighs out of exhaustion. The scene from dinner replays in her mind and as soon as she remembers the way Jimin had looked at her, her face turns red and her eyes start to sting so she buries her face in a pillow.
Of all people she should be happy for him since she was the one who told him to confess to the girl that he liked. She was just mad that it wasn't her but then she could have already guessed that it would never be her, so why was she being all sour about it?
She hears a message come in from her phone. Still hugging the pillow, she grabs her phone and checks it.
Joon: I let you go this time because you insisted
Joon: but next time I'm never going to let you walk home alone
Joon: capiche?
Bee smiles as she wipes a stray tear running down the corner of her eye.
Bee: yes boss :3
Joon: good
Joon is typing....
Joon: Are you sure you'll be ok?
Joon: Yoongi hyung is asking
Bee: are you guys at work again?
Joon: as usual
Bee: aren't you tired even after the party?
Joon: Yoongi says you didn't answer him
Bee: then why can't he just text me himself
Right at that time, she gets another message from someone else.
Yoongs: answer me
Bee: I was chatting with namjoon
Yoongs is typing....
Yoongs: I know
Yoongs: you didn't answer me
Yoongs: answer my question
Bee: I'll be fine
She rolls her eyes but smiles at herself anyway.
Bee: I promise
Yoongs: good
Right after that Yoongi doesn't type back and Namjoon's message comes back in.
Joon: you answered him?
Bee: yeah
Joon: good
Joon: we need to get back to work so rest well bee.
Bee: you guys too.
Bee: thanks namjoon
Joon: :)
Bee immediately got up and decided to have a shower before bed. She forgot her sadness for a while thanks to Namjoon and Yoongi and when she got out of the shower, she dried her hair, put on her sleeping clothes and switched off the lights before heading straight to bed.
That night, one more message came in and the light from her phone illuminated the dark room. Being the light sleeper that she is, Bee grunted at the rudeness of this person for messaging her while she was already just about to sleep. She turned in bed to reach for her phone on the bedside table and squinted at the bright light.
It was a message from Jimin. She suddenly didn't feel so sleepy anymore and decided to read his messages. Swiping her finger against the screen, it immediately opened the chat room.
Jimin <3: you asleep?
Jimin<3: you didn't seem too good back at the restaurant
Jimin<3: you ok?
Jimin<3: bee
Jimin<3 is typing....
Jimin<3: we haven't talked in a while haven't we
Jimin<3 is typing....
Jimin<3: I kinda miss talking to you
Jimin<3 is typing....
Bee immediately switches off her phone but grabs on to it tightly. Tears are already flowing from her eyes and she couldn't help but let it all out. It wasn't fair. He wasn't allowed to. He can't do this to her. He can't just date someone else and tell her that he misses them talking to each other.
"Jimin you idiot." She sobs under her covers knowing that none of this was his fault to begin with.