Basically I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm not dead, yet.
It's a bit if a long story so be prepare yourselves.
It start off, I'm done a bunch of research and, as much as my mother would like to deny it, I am depressed. At this point it's not just me being sad about something anymore.
Now I guess it isn't a huge deal expect for the fact I have literally zero motivation to do anything.
I basically forcing myself to write this right now.
Even things I should enjoy or used to enjoy doing, I just get bored or just stop.
Like reading. I have a book by my favourite author in the world and it's an amazing book just like all her over ones but everytime I pick it up to read it, I'll start reading and like 5 minutes later I'll zone out and stop caring about it.
So this is really affecting my writing. I'm trying to write and update for you guys but everytime I get my ass to open up wattpad, I either zone out or can't think of anything to write. Both things results in getting nothing done and then giving up.
I would love to be able to stay that I'll get something out for you guys soon but I know that would be a lie. This is the first time I've opened Wattad in about 2 weeks, which it very surprising because I usually open it every day checking my new followers and comments but I haven't even done that.
As you probably already guessed, all my stories are on hold until I can get my motivation back and god knows when that will be seeing as I definitely won't be getting any medication for this.
One last thing, I want to be clear that I'm not saying all this to get pity or have you guys feel bad for me. It's simply because I feel I need to explain myself to you guys so that you understand I'm not just being lazy or don't care.
I'll post another update when I'm going to start writing again.
Until then, this is goodbye.