Hi guys sorry for no updates! I went to tatinof yesterday and it was the best thing ever. The Merch people told me I had no chance to meet them at all unless I had VIP. So my heart broke and I started to walk towards my car through the alley. Well about 100 ft away from me I see a guy with black hair come out of a building with a bunch of other people. I stopped like "that looks a lot like Phil." Then a guy came out with brown hair and I started shaking , "that looks a lot like Dan." I couldn't process anything at that moment. I throw my Starbucks somewhere (ik tragic) and fall to my knees and start crying. I look up to see them walking my way and Phil says "hello!" And does the cutest wave and I stand up and started to cry harder. Dan tried comforting me but holy fuck I was like blacking out. Phil is so gorgeous up close I couldn't take my eyes off him. Dan said "would you like me to take the picture?" And I said yes because I was literally shaking, and it was amazing. I asked for a hug and Dan said "yes of course! I like your shirt!" (I cosplayed as Phil and omfg Phil smiled hella big) and I said thank you, Dan gave me his signature hug and I held onto him for dear life. After Dan I was insecure and didn't know if Phil wanted me to hug him (Phil was the one I'm closest too so I was screaming internally) and he turned to me with open arms and I said oh my god and hugged me tightly. He wrapped his arms around me and I felt like I was home. My mom said "I may be older but my daughter is in love with you guys." And they awh'd it was the best thing ever and when Phil saw my scars from the day before (I didn't think I would meet them so I thought it didn't matter) he looked down and then back at me and said "no more. For me okay?" And I made a promise to myself to try and get better. That night I flushed all my blades. They've literally saved me. So yeah I'll be recovering for a minute lol. I'll update soon I just wanted to let you guys know why I haven't been on xx
Love you guys!