Judy
"I'm not gonna force you to tell me what's going on, but I'd really love it if you could" she said putting her hand on mine with a smile and I just gave her a tight lipped smile.
"Kayla and I aren't what you guys think, well at least not to her" she mutttered and I looked at her, she just chuckled
"Before last week, we were just messing around but that day at their place we decided to take things a notch further, well at least that's what Kayla wanted, but I wasn't ready" she explained
"Why"? I asked and she looked at me "why weren't you ready, I mean, don't you like her"? I asked and she sighed
"I do like her, I mean she's beautiful and hot and smart but I don't know if I want her like that, I mean I like boys, I've never been with a girl before, so I wasn't prepared and she wanted more than just messing around I'm not sure I wanna go that far, so since then we've not talked about it, she's been distant and it's kind of awkward and weird" she finished playing with her fingers "she probably hates me" she added chuckling.
"How do you know that, you've not even talked to her about it, maybe she thinks you don't like her or you think she's weird or something" I say with a shrug and she just shakes her head.
"I see the way she looks at me, she expect more not just kiss and messing around, she wanted us to have sex and I'm not ready to do that with a girl, I'm attracted to boys not girls, I didn't think she'd want to take it this far, now everything is awkward and I kind of feel bad cause it's my fault, I led her on without thinking it through" she said regret filling her tone, I just put my hands on hers
"Hey Adrianna, it's not your fault, she should have talked you and made you understand that she didn't want to just mess around with you, you both didn't communicate what you wanted so it's not just on you, don't beat yourself because of it" I explain and she just sigh out before nodding
"Okay, if you say so, I'm gonna try to talk to her and get all this tension and awkwardness out of the way" she mutters and I nod before pulling her close to my side and wrapping my hands around her shoulder.
"What's up with Abby and Andre? she's been so clingy around him lately, it's actually kind of annoying" she muttered pulling back and looking at me.
I just sigh out and go back to playing with my fingers, I have to tell her.
I should tell her, she needs to know, maybe she can help me out.
I'm not gonna tell her about Jordan tho, just Andre.
I breathe out again before looking up
"Andre and I had sex" I mutttered and I heard her gasp
"Whoa, how did that happen, scratch that, when did it happen"? She asked with shock written all over her face
"Last week, after the hang out at Kayla's, I caught him kissing Abby so I kind of got mad, I don't even know why I got angry, so I started giving him attitude, then that night at Sam's place that he offered to bring me back home, we got home and we got talking, I don't know what came over me and I asked him to kiss me and he did and that's how it happened, woke up the next morning and we were both butt ass naked on my bed" I rushed out
"Wow" she whispered
"Yeah, since then I've been avoiding him, I don't wanna talk about it with him, now everything is awkward between us and we still have the whole marriage thing to deal with and also I'd be resuming my father's office soon to get familiar with how it works, everything is just so overwhelming" I rush and she quickly rubs my shoulders
"Let me get this right, you had sex with Andre but you don't wanna talk about it with him, why"? She asked and I sighed out
"It's weird, Adrianna he's my best friend, I can't just decide to wanna talk to him about us having sex" I whispered
"He's your best friend that you're supposed to get married to if you don't find a solution to it, and I'm pretty sure both of you don't have a solution to that yet, and besides have you ever wondered if he likes you, you know like feeling kind of way"? She asks making me look at her and she shrugs
I just snort
"Andre doesn't like me like that, if you haven't noticed, he's having a happy time with Abby" I mutter the last part out and she just starts laughing, I give her a pointed look
"What's so funny"? I ask her
"You're jealous" she said trying to catch her breath and I just roll my eyes at her
"No I'm not" I mutter and she just looks at me with raised brows "and no Andre doesn't like me like that" I add
"Okay, if you say you're not jealous I'm not gonna argue it with you, but I'm pretty sure Andre likes you, trust me you need to see him these past few days you've been avoiding him, he's a mess Judy" she explains making me sigh out and think
She's wrong, Andre doesn't like me like that, I mean he's my best friend.
I sigh out and shake my head
"So what should I do"? I ask and she just shakes her head.
"Talk to him about it Judy, maybe he likes you, you can never know if you don't talk to him about it, both of you should come to a decision that helps you both" she says before smiling "do you like him"? She asked and I almost choke on my spit
"No I don't like him, I mean I like him, he's my best friend but not like that" I mutter looking away
"Talk to him Judy, if he likes you, you should give him a chance, I'm not saying you have to, it's your choice if you're not ready but stop running away from him, it's only making him feel bad" she says softly and I look at her
"You think so"? I ask and she nods
"I know so Judy, Andre is a very nice guy and if you guys actually stop trying to jinx this whole marriage thing maybe you guys would actually make a very good couple" she says smiling and wiggling her brows, I just roll my eyes at her, she's so dramatic.
"Is that all that's been bothering you"? She asks and I think for a while.
Should I tell her about Jordan?
What will I even tell her? That I'm fucking Jordan who's supposed to be Andre's friend.
It's not like we're still having sex, I mean I don't think we are.
"That's all that's been bothering me all week" I mutter and she sighs
"Well then, I guess we still have time to smoke this" she says bringing out a blunt and I just smile before she lights it up.
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I've been stalling talking to Andre since Adrianna and I talked.
Honestly I still don't know how to face him
It still feels weird to me.
Where will I even begin
But true to what I told Adrianna I've stopped avoiding him and the others, I now hang out with them like before but I always avoid talking to Andre.
We're at a birthday party, I don't even know the kid's name but he invited us and we came.
Ever since that night I went out with Reys that he tried to touch me, I haven't seen him and I didn't bother asking Kayla or Abby about him.
Talking about Abby, she's clinging onto Andre again and I'm really resisting the urge to roll my eyes at her.
I'm pretty sure he told me last week that he's not interested in her, and he also may have told me he likes me, I didn't tell Adrianna that.
Actually I don't even want to tell myself, because I don't want it to be true.
Not that it's a bad thing but if it is true, I don't know how I'm going to handle it.
Andre is a very nice guy but I don't think I like him like that, I don't even know if i like him like that.
I mean I like him but not like that.
God I'm so confused.
With Jordan, I'm not this confused, I know what I wanted but with Andre I don't even know.
Speaking of Jordan, he has completely ignored me, irony of my life.
I'm ignoring Andre because I think he likes me and we had sex once, Jordan is ignoring me because he knows I like him and I want just more than sex.
My life is really a mess.
These days Jordan is always with Jack, it's as if Jack is a part of our friend group.
Where you see Jordan, you'll see Jack.
I'm not gonna lie I'm really jealous.
I just wish he'd talk to me or at least explain to me why he's so into Jack, maybe then I won't be so jealous whenever I see them both together.
I mean technically I'm not even supposed to be jealous of Jack, he's a dude that going out with the feminine side of Jordan, and I'm having sex with male Jordan.
That's like two different things all together.
Technically I don't think Jordan's cheating on me but it still feels weird and annoying.
What does he want with Jack that I don't have.
I even have things Jack doesn't have, yet he picks Jack over me every single time we have an argument.
I sigh out and try to get my head out of the clouds, I need more drugs to get me to stop thinking
The table is almost empty, just a few pills, and some white substances, no weed, we already smoked it all.
I reach out to the table to pick a pill when I hear Andre's voice behind me
"Judy, can I talk you for a second" he whispered and I turn to find Adrianna looking at me and smiling before she nods her head.
I breathe out before looking at Andre, Well here goes nothing.
"Sure" I mutter before getting up and following him upstairs, Abby is glaring at me, I just roll my eyes at her.
Dramatic bitch
Okay finally
So who wants to see a little bit of Adrianna and Kayla?
Maybe their own story? 😁😁