I didn't lose my affection, though.
I simply stopped being the glittering little creature you wanted me to be and stopped caring what you thought of me.
I decided to leave for some reason after that, somehow. I had to make the difficult decision to love you from a distance since i've become accustomed to all of the devastation in order to free myself from the uncertainty of what we might become.
I didn't lose my affection for you, then. Even though I didn't want to, I left.
because remaining obligated to you is one thing I might do wrong.