Wednesday - 12:47pm-Ahmira-
I got up out of my bed to see Kenzie gone. She stayed with me all night long just talking and watching movies until we fell asleep. We had to watch our favorites which was twilight. I had to get on her ass for being team Jacob. I got out of bed and checked my phone to see 10 missed calls from august. I sighed knowing I was wrong for not responding but I was scared to face him knowing I had to ask that question. I shook my head and brushed my teeth and cleansed my face.
I got in the shower and hummed while I washed my body. Ever since my first time in the booth I've wanted to go back because I've been humming this melody for a while, that I wanted to make a song to. I got out of my bed and went to my closet to find something to wear I put on a simple T shirt and jeans. I sat at my vanity doing by my eyebrows only and putting on some Jewelry. I curled my hair and I looked in one of the many mirrors in my bedroom and took a picture.
I posted the picture on my ig and took my time to reply to a few comments. Some were positive and some were dragging me for being august "stripper girlfriend" . I rolled my eyes and strolled seeing he posted a picture
I stared seeing how fine he was and liked the picture. I grabbed my keys and bag and went downstairs. I had a text coming from my phone and seen it was august that kept texting me. I stopped and read all the text messages that he been sending me
Text messages
Big Daddy Aug: wyd?
Big Daddy Aug: you see me calling yo phone😒
Big Daddy Aug: damn at least text me back so i can make sho you gud
Big Daddy Aug: Ight yo peanut head ass need to answa ya phone
Big Daddy Aug: You ain't gon answa fr?
Big Daddy Aug: At least make sho you eat sum hard headed ass
I laughed at his rampage and looked in the fridge and grabbed an apple. I took a couple of bites and threw it away. I grabbed a water and drunk it while walking out the house and locking it behind me. I got in my car and drove off to the office.
2:05pm- Therapist Office-
I sat shaking my leg waiting to be called to the room. My nerves were all out of whack knowing I haven't seen her since I was 17. Heather was a family therapist that my mom went to when she was on drugs. I felt completely comfortable with her, she knew everything, well some things. I checked my phone to see august texting and calling me but I didn't answer.
"Ms Johnson, it's so nice to see you" Heather said walking up to me. I rose out of my seat and hugged her tightly. She smiled and led me to her office. I sat down in a chair across from her desk.
"I haven't seen you in a while" she said putting on her glasses and taking out her notepad.
"I know. I'm sorry about that" I said playing with me fingers and rubbing my palms together. I looked at me
"It's fine. I see your still fidgeting Ahmira" she said looking at me
"Yeah, it's gotten a tad bit worse since then" I said looking up at her. She nodded
"So how have you been since we last spoken before we hop right in" she asked with concern eyes. I shrugged my shoulders not knowing how to answer
"I've been..okay I guess" I said.
"Just okay. We talked about this, no half answers I want you to be able to express yourself without feeling bad about it afterwards. I'm not here to judge you" she said looking at me over her thick glasses
"I feel myself falling back into that hole again and I don't want to revisit it" I said taking a deep breath
"Are you taking your medicine" she ask. I shook my head no
"Okay we are going to take it slow okay but I want you to get a refill on those pills Ahmira" she said pointing her finger towards me. I nodded in response
"Okay so we left off on the subject about your relationships. Whether it was your mother, father, or spouse" she said reading her notes I nodded remembering.
"Yes" I said
"How do you feel about your mom right now Ahmir?" She said. I shrugged shaking my head
"You know the routine. We use our voice in this room. I want you to close your eyes and talk to her like she's here with you right now" she said. I closed my eyes taking a deep breathe and pictured her sitting across from me.
"Um I don't like that you left me" I said trying to control my emotions.
"And what else Ahmira. What do you want her to know" heather said
"I hated you for a long time because you left me, alone. Your baby girl needed you the most, and you abandoned me." I said wiping my face.
"What else Ahmira" heather said. I felt the tears build up in my eyes as I squeezed them tighter
"You didn't care about me. You made me this angry person inside, You was suppose to be there for me but you left me. You left me" I said breaking down crying. I opened my eyes to a glossy vision as she handed me a tissue.
"What about your father Ahmira" heather said getting up and rubbing my back
"He didn't care about us. He left when my mom got pregnant with me" I said wiping my tears from my face
"What emotions you feel right now?" She asked.
"Angry, sad, and lonely" I said shaking my head. "I hated myself so much because I thought I wasn't good enough for anybody. Everyone in my life left me, nobody wanted me. " I said wiping my face
"I'm sorry" I said taking a deep breath
"Don't apologize for crying. This is good for you. You hold too many emotions in at once then you'll start to feel flustered, okay?" She said getting up and walking back to her seat.
"Yeah" I said fixing my poster in the seat.
"I know you had a relationship, are you still with that person" she said looking at her notes
"No, we broke up 3 years ago" I said she nodded
"How is your love life" she asked
"It's nonexistent" I said shrugging.
"Why" she asked.
"I don't want to get attached. I get attached easily" I said she nodded
"And why did we say you get attached easy" she asked looking at me for a response
"Because I'm scared of being lonely" I said rubbing my hands together.
"Those are the reverse abandonment issues. You are trying to fill that void that's missing. But you look in all the wrong places., I can say you fall in love easy Ahmira" she said making a note. I nodded knowing that was true.
"I know" I said. She started writing and nodding her head
"Are you seeing anyone" she asked looking up at me. A smile crept on my face as I immediately stopped
"No" I said quickly shaking my head. She took off her glasses and smirked
"Are you sure? Because that smile said otherwise. I noticed your posture changed and your eyes lit up when I asked that question. Don't try to fool me I have a masters degree in psychology" she said letting her hood accent spill. I shook my head
"I don't know what we are, we only had one date. I feel comfortable around him but I don't want to be one of those girls that fall for a guy like him and he break my heart" I said. She nodded
"I understand the trauma that you went through in your last relationship but how about this. Ask him" she said looking at me. I sat back confused
"Ask him what? I said
"You are so anxious and I know how you get, ask him what's his intentions, and what do he want. Unless your scared" she said shrugging her shoulders. I poke my tongue through my cheek knowing she trying to test me.
"Okay I will" i said confidently
"Okay. How about I let that marinate and I'll see you next week love. You did very good today, I can tell you matured from the last time" she said rising out of her seat and hugging me. I walked to my car and sat there knowing this want easy for me but this is a next step.
I drove home to pack my bag for work tonight. I got out of my car and seen a bouquet of roses sitting infront of my door step. I picked them up and smelled them. August was so sweet. I put them in the vase with the others he got me and went upstairs to freshen up
- 6:35pm- Studio-August-
I called Ahmira but ha ass wasn't answerin. I sat in my chair in the booth with Chris and a couple of broads. But I didn't pay them no mind.
"Wassup wit you bitch" said said taking a sip of henny. I shook my head
"Nun bru" I said taking a drag of of the blunt
"don't lie Craig you don't got to lie" he said
"Gone foo" I said shaking my head laughing. "Ahmira ain been talkin to me" I said shaking my head
"Damn bro you in love already" Chris said looking down at me
"Nah man I just care" I said shrugging. I knew to block my feelings cause my ass be obsessed with my girl, I want you under me 25/8. Ion think she ready for dat
"Care yo ass somewhere else and get one of dese hoes bruh" he said smacking a broad ass.
"What bout you and mini wheat" i said looking at him chug down the henny like it was water
" we got a understanding. We chillin rn" she said shrugging.
"Yeah if you call fuckin like two dogs in heat chillin" I said. He just laughed. I shook my head and loosened up a lil bit.
9:57pm- Blue Diamond- Ahmira-
I packed up my bag for a successful night. Carter brought my bags of money to me from tonight and the other Night as I counted the tips. I rubber band my money and put it in my duffel bag. I got dressed and walked out to the girls getting dressed
"Y'all did good asf tonight" I cheered and they started shouting and twerking knowing we had a good night for it to be a Wednesday. I walked pass Valentina to see her smirking at me
"Bitch what" I said. She waved me off and whispered something to the other girl. I tried to calm down but I had enough.
I jumped on her and started beating tf outta her. I grabbed her head and smashed it on the locker and hit her in the face. I stepped back gave her a nice ass two piece. I grabbed her hair and wrapped it around my fist so she could stop moving. I hate pulling hair but this bitch tried to run from me. I felt somebody pull me off of her and the girls grabbed her. I wiped my nose and I seen it was blood and I got mad all over again. Carter grabbed my stuff and threw me over his shoulders and walked me out
"It ain over bitch, I'm beating yo ass every time I see you" I shouted as he took me to my car.
"Calm down and go home" Carter said putting my stuff in the car and handing me my keys. I got in and went home. I got out and grabbed my stuff. I seen another bouquet of flowers and grabbed them. They were a very large vase of flowers. I sat them on my counter next to the others and decided to text august to come over.
I really missed his presences. I went upstairs and I pinned my hair up and sat my bags down. I changed into a tube top and shorts for comfortability. I went back downstairs and looked in the fridge for something to sip on. I pulled out a bottle of Hennessy and grabbed a shot glass and poured some. I looked at it for a moment
"Bottoms up" I drowned the shot and it sent hot chills down my spine as my throat burned. I wasn't a drinker but I needed this.
An hour has passed and I've just been drinking none stop. It got to the point where it tasted like water to me. I picked up the battle to take another shot and seen it was empty. I groaned getting up off the couch and falling to my ass.
I heard the door bell ring and grabbed the couch and rose to my feet. Whoever it was started knocking on the door.
"I'm cominnggggg" I said singing as I unlocked and opened the door. It was august looking so fine. He had on some shades that covered his eyes, I grabbed his hand and pulled him inside
"Damn strong ass" he laughed as I jumped on him hugging him . He caught me and hugged me back
(Switching pov's)
"I missed you" She hiccuped resting her head on my shoulder
"Naw yo ass should've answa yo phone" i said shaking my head. She started laughin and pinching my cheeks.
"You are so adorable" She slurred smiling. I looked at her side ways.
"Ma yo breath smell like alcohol. You drunk" I asked holding her thighs up.
"Obviously not drunk enough, if I still have clothes on" she said jumping down grabbing the bottle
"You drunk this whole thing by yo self" I said taking the empty bottle from her hands.
"Yup" she said poppin the p.
"Ight come on you gotta sleep this off" I said grabbing her hand.
"No I need more" she whined stomping her feet while fixing her shirt.
"Nah you had enough" I said picking her up. She laid her head back and groaned. I laughed and took her to her room and put her in her bed. She started jumping up and down
"Lay yo ass down" I said grabbing her feet making her fall.
"Nooo I don't want to" she said crossing her arms and rolling her eyes
"Yo shi gonna get stuck" I said about to walk out
"Stay" she said. I turned around and looked at her. She started poutin
"Yo ass betta not throw up on me" I said taking off my clothes leaving myself in my shorts.
"Don't tell me what to do" she said looking at me. I looked at her nose and she had scratches on it.
"What happened to yo face" I asked. She put her head down. I walked over to her and picked it back up
"Nothing" she said smacking my hand away and rolling her eyes. I sucked my teeth.
"what happened, that nigga put his hands on you" I said looking at her.
"No. I got in a fight with one of the girls I work with" she said looking up at me.
"control yo temper and that's why I'm getting you a guard" I said. She shook her head
"No you don't have to do shi for me" she said rolling her eyes. I chuckled knowing she was drunk asf
"What's funny" she slurred
"Even when you drunk yo attitude fucked up. I'm tired of dat shi" I said getting in the bed. She climbed on top of me straddling me
"Mira what you doin man" I said rubbing my face.
"Fuck it out of me" she said looking me in my eyes. I looked up and she was on demon time. That's dat henny talkin
"Get up bru and go to sleep" I said laughing at her.
"My attitude bad right? So fuck it out of me" she said reaching her hand in my pants stroking my dick and leaned down kissing my neck
"Ma you drunk" I said grabbing her hand. she gripped it tighter making me groan
"Shit" I hissed as she continued to stroke me.
"Fuck me right now" she whispered on my ear taking out my dick. I grabbed her hand
"wait Mira. I don't want our first time to be like this baybae. Ion wanna take advantage of you while you drunk" I said putting my dick back in my pants. She looked at me and got up
"I'm so sorry" she said feeling bad.
"Listen it's coo just sleep it off" I said grabbing her and holding her. I closed my eyes as she got comfortable in my arms. Minutes later I heard her snore a lil
"You smell like weed and strawberries" she said. I laughed and she went right back to sleep.
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Now y'all know why Ahmira sometimes act the way she do
It's more to it but keep reading
The next chapter is very spicy for Chris and Kenzie