Seungkwan:
Haeun-ah you'll come right?
Me:
Aish Seungkwan. On my way now.
Seungkwan:
Arasseo. tell me if you've arrived.
As promised, I wouldn't want to disappoint Seungkwan's mother as she had invited me to eat dinner at her house. Seungkwan told me how excited his mother was when he told her that I agreed to come.
Before going to his house, I went to uncle's cafe to take a cake for Seungkwan's mother as it wouldn't be good to just come with empty handed. That's what Uncle Jaehun said.
He was the one who called Jeonghan to pack a cake from the cafe.
My phone suddenly rangs, signalling an incoming call. I picked up the call while entering the the cafe.
"Welcome~Ohh! Haeun, you are here!" Jeonghan greeted and I waved my hand at him. He nodded knowing what I intended to do.
"Yaa it's okay. I can go home by myself later." I snickered at Wonwoo who was over the line. As always, his over-protective mode was no better with Hoshi.
"But, it's going to be late at night, Hae-ya... You know how scary this world can be. The last thing I want is for you to get in danger." He nagged cutely making me sighed in defeated.
"Arasseo.. I'll call you later. That isn't so bad after all, we can go to arcade after that." I smiled softly as I heard Wonwoo cheered on the other line.
After the call ended, I was zoned out for awhile, trying to register the situation I had made slowly, and when I did, I felt my chest tightened weirdly. As if every time and each seconds from now on was so precious to me.
But anything, I was happy with my decision. That's for the best.
"Wah, you cut your hair?" I came to the counter and saw Jeonghan's hair was a bit different from last time I saw him.
Jeonghan grinned, "Yeah.. I'm going to continue my study again."
"That's good!" I exclaimed before my smile turned upside down. "So, you will quit working here?"
"Yeah... It's my sister's will. And I can't let her down." Jeonghan sighed a little with a hint of sadness.
I knew he was having a hard time while taking a break from study as it was his was dream to pursue medic. He cared his sister so much that he put his dream aside for her sake. I couldn't help but feel proud at him to make such hard decision.
"Well, I know how much you love your sister, Jeonghan. Work your ass off to make her proud." I said and Jeonghan chuckled.
"I will."
"And I hope you won't forget about me when you have succeed later," I added in whisper to myself, letting out a weak smile.
"Why would I forget you, rascal? We can still meet each other though.." He asked, concern visible in his eyes. I flinched as I didn't expect he would hear me.
"and how would I forget a co-worker who called me by the wrong name for first week of working here." Jeonghan jested which I rolled my eyes at him.
"Still, you must be busy later. Ahh, I don't want to get late. My cake?" I told him, glancing at the clock on my phone.
"Oh, wait. I'll take your cake." Jeonghan quickly went to take the cake from the back and slided towards me on the table.
"Where are you going? Date?" He raised his brows teasingly. I gaped at him when he wasn't filled in with the news.
"Aah.. no.. I'm visiting Seungkwan's house." I mustered an awkward smile. I noticed Jeonghan pulled his brows together in mild confusion at me.
"It didn't going well?.. you and Mingyu?" He inquired hesitantly which make me scoffed in bewilderment. Sometimes I doubted the course he took in college, either medical course or psyche.
At the same time, I mentally smirked inward, as expected from the genius.
I shook my head, "Like always, I don't need to tell you anything. I have to go, we'll talk again after this. Bye Jeonghan!" I bid and left the cafe with a mix expression.
I took a taxi and went to Seungkwan's house.
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Mrs Boo had cooked variety of foods which some were special recipes from Jeju Island. Seungkwan was seating beside me while Mrs Boo was seated in front of him. During preparing the dinner, I felt so strange and unreal because I never thought I'd be having a dinner with my friend's family.
"Congratulation Haeun! I heard your rank in class rise incredibly. I'm so happy for you, keep the great work, okay?" Mrs Boo exclaimed, putting food in my bowl with a warm smile as we just started to eat. Seungkwan had the same expression as his mother.
I shook my head, "Thank you Mrs Boo.. I just got lucky.." I pursed my lips awkwardly.
"Ayy! Don't be shy Haeun, tch. It's just my mom." Seungkwan nudged with a teasing smile.
"You didn't act like though when with us. You brag so much in front of me and the boys, saying you're born genius!"
Aish, what the fck..
He knew I couldn't curse in front his mother so he intentionally got on my nerve. I discreetly send him a glare.
"Seungkwan-ah.. don't tease Haeun so much. Be good to her." Mrs Boo scolded making Seungkwan pouted and I smirked evilly at him as a revenge.
I'm gonna miss your teasing Seungkwan-ah..
A few seconds later, Seungkwan went to the door as the bell rang and I was momentarily surprised when he came back along with someone.
"Oh, Mingyu, you've arrived." Mrs Boo smiled as she prepared another bowl of rice, probably for him.
"Anyeonghaseyo Mrs Boo, I'm sorry that I'm a bit late " Mingyu bowed slightly, showing his charming smile.
"It's okay Mingyu, we also just about to start eating. Come here, and take a seat." Mrs Boo assured him and he smiled.
"Yah! why didn't you tell me he's coming too?" I whispered to Seungkwan as soon as he get back beside me.
He leaned in too,"Mianhae, my mother wants to invite both of you."
I glared at him. "At least tell me, pabo."
"And if I do that you wouldn't come for sure."
"Ugh that's not the prob—"
"What, I thought you're over with him. Just act naturally or else I take that you still like him." He sticked out his tongue playfully.
"What the hell— I'm not. "
"What both of you are doing? Eat up or the food will get cold." Mrs Boo said and we quickly took our own chopsticks as if the conversation didn't happen.
I noticed Mingyu glowered at me and Seungkwan that I faked coughs to stop the awkwardness. I turned to Seungkwan who himself was trying hard to hide his expression.
I didn't realize that my eyes met Mingyu's and we were staring to each other. I knew I should have felt uncomfortable with the warmth his eyes sent to me. I was clearly annoyed just by his presence and should have looked away.
But strangely, I didn't. Instead, the rhythm of my heartbeat increase when I saw Mingyu was still wearing the ring. It's been 26 days, why do he still wearing that?
"What's wrong Mingyu? Oh, your cutlery. Wait, I will take it for you." Mrs Boo exclaimed, snapping us into reality.
Before I knew, Mingyu was looking for seat and the only vacant seat was in front of me as Mrs Boo already seated across Seungkwan. He looked at me slightly hesitant. I just pursed my lips and he knew it was an okay so he pulled the chair and sat down.
Then, we started to devour the meals together.
"I'm glad both of you make it to come here, Mingyu-ya ,Haeun-ah. It's good to eat together once a time, isn't?" Mrs Boo smiled brightly at me then he turned to Mingyu.
"Of course ! I missed your cooking Mrs Boo. This soy-sauce crab — yaaaa so delicious! You should open a restaurant. I will come there everyday! " Mingyu exclaimed while munching onto his food with much appetite.
His cheeks puffed like a squerrel. It just made Mrs Boo showed her motherly smile even more.
"Obviously, because she's my mother." Seungkwan chirped in with a proud tone.
"Stop flattering me like that..." She let out a light laugh as she turned to look at me.
"Haeun, do you not like the crab? Does it taste weird?" Mrs Boo suddenly asked worriedly when she noticed I ate other dishes but the soy-sauce crab.
I shook my head with a smile plastered on my face, "No, Mrs Boo.. your cooking taste so good! Look at this boy eating so well," I trailed off as I unknowingly pointing at Mingyu.
His lips slowly stretched a little forming a handsome smile of him. When I saw that, I immediately put down my finger and looked at Mrs Boo again.
"It just that I can't eat seafood.." I added, smiling sheepishly.
"She even fainted and got admitted to emergency because of it." Seungkwan said making his mother to gasp a little.
"Omo, jinjja? That's bad. Alright, eat the bulgogi more, Haeun-ah. I know it's your favourite. Mingyu told me to cook this just for you." I heard Mrs Boo let out a laugh as she patted Mingyu's back lightly.
I blinked a few times upon hearing that unexpected fact as I turned to look Seungkwan for a moment and he nodded.
"Mingyu called my mother himself asking the favour." Seungkwan informed, "Omma, aren't you babying Mingyu too much? Tch."
"He's your friend, Seungkwan. Of course I'll treat them like my own children." His mother retorted playfully.
I felt my cheeks heated in embarrasment. Aish why did Mingyu do this to me.. I internally cursed at him.
I didn't understand his intention for making thing harder for me. Even though I didn't want to do it, but I forced myself to look at Mingyu.
"Aah, really?" I blurted that it came out dry, "Thanks Mingyu."
He just simply nodded at me, with that puppy smile. That I used love to see it on him.
"Mingyu is so kind! Ah, perhaps, do you like Haeun, Mingyu-ya?" Mrs Boo asked while raising her brows expectantly. I snapped up to look at her immediately.
"No way—"
"Yes, Mrs Boo. She's just too dense to realize it." Mingyu cut me off without hesitation as he smiled warmly at Mrs Boo as if he was just joking.
But at that moment, I didn't find any humor in it. My jaw dropped and looked at him helplessly. I was pretty sure that he clearly doubt my feelings towards him, and now what? After that painful break up I experienced, who would be okay with his stupid confession? Only the insane one would.
"Oh gosh, what kind of drama is this? Is this youth drama?" Seungkwan mumbled, speechless at that guy named Kim Mingyu and so was me.
A few seconds passed, I let out an absurd scoffed at the situation we were in.
"What are you doing, Kim Mingyu? It's not funny." I tried to hide my supressed anger by faking a laugh.
"He's just joking Mrs Boo."
"I don't think he's joking though." Seungkwan retorted.
"Ya." I hissed, glaring at Seungkwan.
"Omo! I can't believe with young kid these days." The elder shook her head.
"Mrs Boo, please don't listen to them. They're just wanna tease me in front of you." I scrunched my nose playfully while shaking my head. I tried hard to deny what Mingyu had said.
"It's okay, I understand Haeun-ah. That's how youth supposed to be. Enjoy the time when you can still be with them because it won't last forever."
She looked at Mingyu skeptically before letting out a sigh, "And Mingyu, if you really like Haeun. Always be nice with her.." She trailed off as she went to whisper something on him.
I frowned as I became curious to what she had whispered to Mingyu which make him grinned widely. He threw a meaningful glance towards me.
"I got it," Mingyu and Mrs Boo chuckled, causing me and Seungkwan to exchange a look.
"I'm going to add some side dishes and the bulgogi." Mrs Boo then stood up with her sweet smile before went to the kitchen.
"Mingyu hyung, we're in my house for a dinner, God's sake. Are you serious confessing at this time?"
"Of course, because she's my favourite girl ever. Its been awhile since I get to see Haeun-ie so close like this again. I just realized that I missed her so much, like crazy. " Mingyu told, whispering the last part as he sent me a meaningful look.
While Seungkwan almost throw up, I almost choke myself as I found myself was staring at him.
His eyes was locking into mine, glistening with a hope. A hope that I couldn't really dechiper the reason for his changed of mind. After a delay of silence, Mingyu breathed and looked down on his food to eat again and I looked away at the same time.
I can't.. sorry gyu..
"Mingyu, don't be like this. It's burdensome. And Seungkwan's mother is here." I confront him. My tone was clipped.
I was surprised at myself too when I said that. His eyes went up fron his meal to my eyes, I could notice how his mood changed. He scoffed bitterly.
"I'm not sorry for making you feel burdensome, because I just want you to know the truth." He emphasized clearly.
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"Take care on your way home, and thank you for the cake Haeun. I enjoy eating it." Mrs Boo said as she fixed my coat, making sure I wear it warmthly.
I smiled winsomely, "Thanks for inviting me, Mrs Boo. No lies, your food are so delicious. I will miss the taste."
"Just come here anytime you want. I'll cook for you."
"Mingyu-ya, make sure to send Haeun home first. Take care," She added with a warning tone, while Mingyu smiled mischievously at her.
"Sure thing, Mrs Boo!"
"Thanks for coming both of you. See you at school! " Seungkwan bid, smiling with a slight of hesitant as he sent us to the lobby of his appartment.
"Just don't fight on way home."
After seconds, now left were just me and Mingyu. We both walked in silence, the atmosphere between us was extremely awkward.
I knew this would happen as I had been dreading about this since the dinner. The idea of Mingyu and me walking home together was not a good idea at the first place. It was not because I hated him that much but because I knew he would bring up things that I wanted to forget.
I kept looking at the opposite side of him while frequently checking my phone, waiting for Wonwoo to call me. But he didn't and I was getting impatient to get out from this suffocated situation with Mingyu.
"Min—"
"Haeun.." Mingyu suddenly cleared his throats. "Seungkwan told me about the party on this weekend."
"Ah, yes. But just consider it as a get-together. I'm sure you're invited along." I played it cool.
Ever since the night, we two barely exchanged a word. So it was awkward in many ways.
"It's quite a good idea. I know you've work hard for it."
I casted a glance at him and just shrugged casually. "The party is for all of us, not just me."
"I've been keeping my present for you that I want to give since the race. Do you want another present?"
"I'd rather not."
I stopped him immediately, catching him off guard. Mingyu frowned mildly, a bit disappointed by my answer.
I groaned for cutting him so harshly but I had no choice. I huffed while raking my hair to the back in hostile.
"Stop acting like this, Mingyu. I told you it's burdensome. You're acting like nothing had happened. " I remarked with a straight face. I could feel my phone vibrate signaling an incoming text, but I didn't care less.
Mingyu seemed dumbfounded as he froze in his root.
"Ah, nevermind. You don't have to walk me home. Take care,"
Without letting he speak, I left Mingyu in place and walked away.
"Aish why are you like this stupid? It isn't even a big deal." I groaned to myself.
"YA! " Mingyu shouted in vain. "Haeun-ah!
"Until when you wanna keep doing this? Do you know how I'm doing these day? It's hard to fall asleep. When you ignore me like this, I get hurt even more day by day, don't you know?! " He hollered.
For some reason, I was feeling unfair, as if I was the one who hurt him the most. So, I stopped on my track.
It triggered a voice in my head, saying I should go after him and explain myself. I couldn't help but felt uneasy. Even I tried my best to ignore him, my feelings got the best of me.
If only I stopped there. If only I'd turned my heels and walked away, but I didn't.
I turned around and raised an eyebrow.
"What more do you want from me? It's over between us. Why can't you see that?!"
Because we were a few metres away to each other, Mingyu walked closer slowly until we were only three feets apart, and I could see his expression under the street light more clearly. He was fuming. His jaw tightened and his aura was different.
Both of us were staring too much in tension, both reflecting each other emotions. A toxicated one. And it was the last thing I wanted to happen between me and Mingyu.
"Yes I can't! I'm sick of being hassle by this matter. Why it seems so easy for you? Sometimes I think I don't know you at all!" Mingyu shook his head, outraged.
It was just tearing me apart when it came out from Mingyu's mouth. It wasn't easy at all certainly. No one told him how I forced to swallow all the pills just to make me sleep at night, just to stop from being awake at dawn and cries until my head ache.
No one told him. And he would never know, how much he meant in my life.
I looked away because I could literally feel anger creeping in my heart. Every words that came out sound under water, I couldn't understand his intention. I sneered while looking at him ridiculously.
"I don't get it at why you should get hassle, Mingyu." A mockery chuckle came out of my lips.
"And, you're not my boyfriend anymore. So don't bother to know me at all. I'm just a liar to you."
The night suddenly got chiller, seeping under my skin and I started shivering. Yet the anger in me made it numb.
It brought so much more inside me. The trust issues, the anxious feeling took over me. This was why I wanted to let go of everything here.
I was mad at myself for not be able controlling myself.
"Just get over me and go. Because I will do the same. You don't need a person like me in your life. If you stay, I'll ruin you. "
My mouth was faster than my sane mind. Immediately, I felt my heart clenched at hearing my own words. Even as I said that, I didn't believe it. Neither did Mingyu.
He instantly dropped his head as his face darkened, a silence filled the raging us, until Mingyu looked up , locking his eyes onto mine again. Yet this time, his intriguing scowl slowly disappear as his face showed an agony expression.
"Did you've completely over me... because of your childhood friend?" His voice was breathy.
"Why not? Since you also break your trust on me merely because of a girl sitting next to you." I muttered coldly. He was taken aback by my choice of words.
"That's so of you. You never think about my feelings." He declared, shaking his head. To my surprise, tears already threatening to roll on his cheeks.
"Listen, " Mingyu walked closer, slowly reaching for my hands.
He gazed at me with a painful longing eyes. The feeling of his gentle touch felt so familiar. His warmth hands on my cold one. His big hands on my small one. It just so overwhelming.
"I know sometimes I'm a little bit of a disappointment. I'm sorry for doing that to you. I'm so stupid. I'm sorry for everything. Still, I want you to know that I still love you. It makes my chest hurt knowing that you hate me while I really miss you so bad each day."
"Baby girl ... please... I don't have any intention to have a fight with you. We can start over and I will do anything, everything can be perfect. Just please don't leave me...."He confessed as I felt his arms slowly engulfing me, pulling us closer to each other.
I tried to calm my nerved down as I closed my eyes because his soft endearment just shaking away my cold self-pride.
My lips suddenly started to tremble and my eyes burned as I tried to keep my tears at bay. Hastily, I took a step back and removed his arms around me.
I wiped the tears with the back of my hand, looking away. As if the sky was with me, raindrops started falling heavily. We were all wet in no time.
"I don't hate you," I retorted firmly. "I swear I don't , Gyu. It just hurts too much to be around you right now."
"And I hope you realize that you're the one that made me this way."
With a sad smile, I added." You know what's saddest part? I know you promised you would never leave me five months ago while I was crying into your chest, so fucking vulnerable. But I also know that I shouldn't put my heart in your hand so you can crush it like this. So I understand that things happen that aren't supposed to."
Surprisingly, my voice sounded like a soft plead in my ear. For a moment, Mingyu dropped his head and messed up his hair.
"I'm seeing Wonwoo now. That's enough for you to stop begging like this. It doesn't worth to ask for a liar like me back, Mingyu—"
Then my mind went blank. Eyes widened.
This feeling.
His lips.
Mingyu held my face with both hands and pressed his lips against me. My heart skipped a beat as I returned the kiss. It just felt right at that moment.
But it was only a brief seconds, because I decided to pull away from the kiss. "I can't do this.."
He tried to catch his breath as he leaned his forehead against mine."Can we go back to the time that we happy, Haeun-ah?"
"NO!"
"Haeun, please.." Mingyu pleaded.
"I can't do that. I'm sorry, Mingyu."
Then, without glancing, I ran away to across the road.
I felt more tears trickled down my pale cheeks as soon as I turned around. My vision became blur from the pool of tears in my eyes.
"Soonyoung-ah, I can't do this anymore. You're right, I need let go of everything." I didn't hold back on calling Hoshi whenever I was breaking down.
"HAEUN! WATCH OUT!"
Mingyu's voice snapped me out and from the corner of my eyes I saw a harsh light and I heard a loud straight beeping sound.
I looked up to my left only to see a truck coming towards me. I could hear Mingyu's voice calling me over and over but I couldn't bring myself up to run away from the danger.
My breath hitched and the memories of my accident three years ago suddenly flashed before my eyes. My limb was paralyzed, my mind was like to stop functioning. I inhaled before closed my eyes waiting for my end.
That's when I felt my arm was being pulled away which I barely missed the speeding truck. I let out a groan as my side landed on the hard road.
"Yah H-Haeun.. a-are you okay?" I slowly opened my eyes and found myself in Mingyu protective hug.
He choked out between his heavy breathing as he cupped my cheeks and scanned all over me. Nothing came out from my mouth as I still didn't recover from the shock.
I couldn't open my eyes properly and felt so weak that I couldn't hold it anymore. And with that my world became a pitch black.
A/N: this gonna end soon :')))Hold you breath guys.. are you ready?
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