"Ma imma be back imma go buy me a new Motorcycle" Jahseh said grabbing his Keys from my dresser he came to me and kissed my forehead .
"When I'm done imma come back over here to chill with you" he said hugging me I hugged him back , he smells good
He left and I laid back down I grab the remote then i suddenly got a bad feeling , i ignored it and put on some music
i went into my thoughts but still couldn't get rid of the bad feeling that i got , im not going to ignore it tho
After I done listening to music I grabbed my purse , I wanted to go to the corner store thats s few blocks away from my house .
Yes I went to the living room to ask my brother to bring me cause I didn't drive and i was not about to walk
After I came from the corner store I was just fixing my room up cause it was a little messy at the moment
i called jahseh cause i was started to miss him , he picked up the phone on the second ring "jah i miss you when you coming back"
he went quiet for a few but talked "i'll be home soon im having trouble picking which one i like" he said for sum reason the feeling got stronger
"jah i got a bad feeling" i said quietly onto the phone , he heard me but i think he was more focused on the bikes
" jah are you hearing me right now" i was irritated, the feeling kept getting stronger then ever "ill call you back ok ill be home soon i love you"
"i love you too"
our call ended..... 2:56 pm june 18th , 2018
Its now 4:13 I still haven't heard nothing from jah yet , he gon call soon i hope...
i went on instagram to past the time cause im bored and got nothing else to do here , well there is im just not participating!
me being bored i called jah to ask when he coming home cause he wasn't answering my text , he haven't text back in hours and that's unlike him
maybe he being a hoe!
i called hoping he would answer..... still nothing , i ended the call and hopefully he calls me back soon
i got a notification that stokeley is live , i joined it hoping he was with jah cause i know they be everywhere together.
i clicked the live "I THINK X GOT SHOT" is the first thing I heard when I joined
my body instantly froze from shock , he sounded so hurt i just know it was real but i refuse to believe it i didn't want to...
The people he was live with wasn't listening I was to shock to even cry i sat quietly until the live ended , not saying anything..
i blankly stare at a picture of jahseh and me on my nightstand as a tear fell from my eyes , i didn't want to believe it
i hope this is all a dream
I went to the news it was a commercial i stay there shaking waiting for the news to come on
i didn't even want to watch it so i turned off the tv and silently cried to myself
I finally got my strength to call mama Cleo , nobody picked up
"jayden can you bring me to jahseh house please" i said quietly , i couldn't even stand knowing what just happened
my heart hurts "hey whats wrong" london said sitting next to me , i honestly didn't wat to say the words
"i think jah got shot" i said silently and started crying , the whole house went quiet
after a while of crying i finally had the confidence to go to mama cleo house when i got there i knocked on the door , she answered
No words was shared , i hugged her i didn't want to talk about it right now i rather the quietness !.
It's my fault I should've go with him , I hugged Cleo tight before she let go off me and close the door
She wipe her eyes and hugged me again she didn't have the energy to talk and either did I
It was quite in the house , Aidan was at his grandma house he didn't know what happened and I know Cleo not going to tell him right now
It would be hard telling your younger son that his older brother just died I should have asked him can I come with him maybe this wouldn't happen.
"Be strong for me , okay?" Cleo said rubbing my back we both were crying I couldn't stop I can't believe this is really happening
I stayed with Cleo for the day it's around 10pm now and I'm home just sitting on my bed
Staring at the wall , this don't feel right I miss his hugs already he was suppose to come back to my house
I laid down on my bed then started crying my room door opened and I didn't even pay attention to it
"Hey , it's okay everything will be okay he in a better place now" I heard my brother say I didn't say nun till I decided to speak up
"You don't understand, you don't understand how much he meant to me i don't you really understand..." I said slowly while crying
It was no talking , everyone went quiet
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