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Chapter Three

She stood there staring at my hand like it was made of fire. Her eyes bewildered. My stomach was in knots. I was doing everything in my power to appear like I had it together when inside I was so close to falling apart. Hell, I'd already let her see me cry. What the fuck was wrong with me? I was Supreme Fucking Leader. I was so close to spiraling out of control. I needed her, in a way I had never needed anything or anyone before. Just taking my fucking hand. I silently demanded her to take it, but I kept my mental shields up, making sure that the command didn't slip through our link.

Then I saw it, her right hand lifted and reached toward mine. Her eyes left my hand and slammed into my own, like two TIE fighters on a collision course. They reflected my own heat. She wanted this just as badly as I did. The moment her fingers grazed mine it was like sunlight hitting my body for the first time, everything was right in the galaxy. The ship literally could have been under fire and I wouldn't have fucking cared.

She was willingly placing her hand in mine, FINALLY.

I was unable to move, almost scared that if I did she would pull it back. So I didn't. I let her make the next move. I stayed seated with my arm outstretched, her hand placed in mine. My fingers wrapped gently around her delicate hand. My eyes studied her face in the silence. She started to lower our joined hands, and my confusion must have shown because her face softened and she stepped forward, bringing my hand to her hip.

"Undress me?" She asked softly, her eyes begging the question. I nodded but my hand stayed in place on her hip. Her hand still wrapped around mine, I stared at it. I'm not sure if in shock, or utter disbelief but finally, I was able to force myself to move. I slid my hand up her side, picking up the hem of her tunic. I pulled it from her body, up and over her head, leaving her standing before me in her modesty band.

I exhaled the breath I didn't even realize I had been holding, "Fuck you're beautiful." I lifted my gaze back to hers; her irises were blown black with desire, her lust overwhelming her senses just as strongly as my own.

"Y/N?" I let her name fall from my lips and she stepped towards me, I spread my legs as she stepped into the space between them. "What do you want?"

There was no hesitation as the next words left her mouth, "I want you to make me feel good, Ben. I want all of this."

She leaned forward her mouth slamming into mine, desperate, needy. The moment her tongue darted across my lips I lost it. A growl ripped from my throat and my hands went under her arms as I stood, lifting her and switching our places.

With her now sitting upon my throne and me between her legs, I sunk down to the floor in front of her. Confusion washing over her face now. "Shhh." I whispered as I slipped off her shoes before reaching for the band of her pants, pulling them down around her hips and fully off of her legs, planting a row of kisses as I worked my way up her leg.

"Ben." My former name, or current name I didn't even know anymore, fell from her lips and I paused my track up her legs just above her knee. My eyes seeking her own, needing to know she was ok, "Can we open the link?"

Fuck. I didn't know that I could show her how I felt. Not fully. She would run for the hills if she knew how insanely head over heels I was for her. If I lowered my walls at this moment she would have full, unbridled access to me. But wait, so would I, to her. That was enough incentive for me to look at her and nod. Knowing no further words would be needed through this as our minds would guide us, I let my walls down and searched for the string of light in my mind.

The moment I found it I could feel her body, warm aching, begging, needy, scared, but excited. I leaned back down and placed a kiss inside her thigh and almost panicked when I could feel the sensation against my own skin. My eyes flew to hers, and a smile was plastered upon her face. She was reveling in this.