Insatiable Desires

Ch 23: Our little secrets

Whenever I made her re-read my schedule for the day, she would pout those pretty lips, wrinkle her tiny nose, but do it anyways, with a sigh that was supposed to make me feel bad, but all it made me think was how her chest rose and how long it would take me till I would rip the clothes she was wearing and kiss every square inch of her body..

She had a mouthwatering hourglass figure that did things to me, messed with my head whenever she was around.. The long locks of that midnight dark hair that shone with this cold brown whenever the sun hit her, the fair olive skin and those wide daring eyes that searched mine with intensity I could not follow, holding back so many little secrets.. It made me wish she was mine.

It was becoming torture to have to push back all the urges, avoid all the tension that we both felt.. My lack of resistance started the night when there was a blockade on the road. I kissed her. It was the least I could do.. Something that was beyond my control. To just have her. And then it grew and grew with every little second that passed.

How long it would take till I snap and take what I wanted? - I asked myself.. It wasn't long. No, how could it be when it came to Anya? She was damn irresistible.. From a daring attitude to a sassy walk, she had it all.. She made me forget every damn thing, every little memory I was suffering from for over two years, and simply made me focus on nothing but her.. To obsess over her, to want her, crave her, and have her.

That night.. Christ, that night I could not push it all back.. Not anymore. Perhaps I was urged by her words.. By the fact that she said it would be best for us to stay apart.. By the fact that I somehow agreed.. But watching her walk away from the car, it just made me feel like I was once again giving up something without a fight.. Repeating the same mistake all over again.

But this was Anya.. I couldn't lose that. How did she expect me to bear with the thought of her being my forbidden fruit when I could barely bear my urges around her? When she went inside and closed the door.. I sat in the car for what seemed like eternity. I thought I had lost her. Not because we had a fight.. Surprisingly that day we didn't.

But because it was a crossing moment, the breaking point of my cravings intoxicating my mind, cutting all stings and limits that held me back and simply going after what I was supposed to call mine.. For a while now.

It felt like eternity to wait for her to open the door, but once she did, I looked at her, standing there in that white summer dress, a wild dark hair that had waves and curls through it, long and unkempt from how many times she had ran her hands through it. Those wide eyes searched mine in a way of trying to find an end to her thoughts through my own.. I let her read me. I let her know what I truly wanted, and my eyes gave it all away..

Her lips seemed as red as wild strawberries, parted with the deep breaths she took in, and daring me to taste them.. To kiss her breathless, senseless.. My hands itched to touch her, and all it took me was to take a small step towards her for that space between our bodies to be closed with her moving towards me as well.. I let myself get lost in her.

And that was the night when my tale with Anastasia Nelson began. It really wrote itself as for the two of us only followed our desires and cravings.. That night we crossed off each and every rule we had in our rule book, and saved ourselves from the suffering that 'staying apart' promised.

Her lips were my salvation that night, the oxygen I needed to survive. I couldn't get enough of her. It was as if I could finally have that healthy drug that drove me insane, and I let myself get lost in her.

The way she got on top of me, allowing me to see every inch of that body, every flush on her face.. How her eyes closed, her lips parted and her head fell back when that pleasure struck. How she held onto me in the need for control, yet let me guide her throughout every second.. Or the way that she flipped her hair to the side just to lean down over me.. Just to leave a kiss that was definitely a ticket for me to lose my mind over her completely.