Bucky🤷🏼♀️:
tk did mention u were a cop
being a cop must be coolCarlos:
yeah it's pretty cool
i do like my gunBucky🤷🏼♀️:
ive always wanted to hold a gun tbh
idek yCarlos:
if u ever come down to texas ill teach youBucky🤷🏼♀️:
thanks man
but i gotta go
see u laterrrrBucky🤷🏼♀️ is now offline.
I sent before shutting off my phone and finally getting up from my bed and stretching. My back ached and my legs were weak, my arms hurting and scarred.
I knew I had failed, cutting was the first sign of me failing but I knew I had to get up and do stuff. Get up and get on with my life.
I had let my weakness take hold of me for too long and I never wanted to fail but I knew I had to do something, cutting helped with that.
I had work in a short while, I didn't know how I was gonna cover up my arms. My long sleeved shirt was still in my locker, at work, at the station and I couldn't go there early because that was suspicious. Eddie had a spare shirt but I couldn't tell him why I needed to borrow it, that would just cause a lot of problems and then Bobby would get involved.
Life fucking sucks.
A loud groan was heard throughout my apartment and all I heard after that was a small voice.
"You ok Buck?" Albert yelled from downstairs. From his place on the couch.
"Yeah! I'm ok." I yelled back, stomping down the stairs and walking straight for the kitchen. My head hung low as I made coffee, my hoodie rustling against my arms and brushing over the signs of weakness.
"Well I'm going out, see you later Buck. Enjoy work." Albert rants, slamming the door behind him as he rushed out the apartment.
"See you." I mumble to empty air, a lingering sensation of loneliness around me.
The time until work had passed quickly, much too quickly for my liking and before I knew it I was sat in my truck outside work, wondering what I was gonna do.
Private messages
TK - BuckBuck:
i have a questionGod I hope he replies quick enough.
TK:
yh?
what is it?Buck:
promise u wont flip out
promise meTK:
i promise
pinky promise
what is it buck
ur scaring meBuck:
look im rlly sorry ab bringing this up but when u used to do drugs how did u hide it at work
like the track marks
not the highnessTK:
i never did drugs when i was a firefighter
dont tell me u started doing drugs manBuck:
i have not started doing drugs
acc it doesnt matter anymore
ill see u laterBuck is now offline.
I give up, I'll just have to be extremely careful today. I hop out my truck, plastering on a fake face of happiness. I stroll in, trying to look normal as I wave a few people.
Heading for the locker room I saw no one, which was both unnerving and good. Someone might round the corner while I get changed and the windows, people could look in through the windows. Shit.
I saunter in, trying to look normal. I manage to get on my long sleeve shirt with no problems. Thank god.
~~time skip~~
The rest of my shift went fine, a few minor calls and that was it. I spent most of it on the couch upstairs, playing random games with Eddie and Hen. I won mostly all of them. Especially Mario Cart, Eddie was crap at it and Hens not that good of a driver.
Private messages
Tk - BuckTk:
so r u gonna tell me what was up before or nahBuck:
i was curious 🤷🏼♀️
i haven't done anything stupid
promiseTk:
ru sure
i care ab u dumbassBuck:
ik u do
i haven't done anything stupid dumbasserTK:
ok then
i'll let u get back to whatever u were doing
see u later manTK is now offline.
I hate lying to TK but I didn't know what to do. It's not like I was gonna continue self harming, was I?
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FantasyThis basically centres around Bucks much needed breakdown btw🤭
Im a failure
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