At this point in my life I'm not sure who to trust
This is one of those times that I feel like I'm cursed..
Where to turn at this point
To figure it out seems a lot....
My so called most trusted
Had been the ones who'd killed me the hardest..
In a room with four corners
The room? Sadness.. I'm one of its best customers..
The weight of it all, is not to lie, pretty heavy..
Cried about it, not once, not twice, but a time too many...
Somewhere near me, Rage was being discussed
The topic so relatable, I nearly screamed; "Enough!"....
Every familiar word felt like a knife through my chest,
It literally hurts, I really need some rest..
I don't know the painkillers that could help..
The things Rage steals, having been said,
Fit my description so perfectly
I had to stop to breathe, to catch my breath...
It shouldn't hurt this bad, I shouldn't care,
It's not my fault that you lied you'd always be there...
Crying and screaming within me, waiting for you to realise
It's been going on for so long, this war I'm fighting inside..
Yet you say that you love me,
You see me down you do nothing...
You'd done so so many times but I'd never cried....
You say that I'm worth it
It's my fault; I fell for it...
Somehow I wish that it's all a lie..
Pushed a lotta them away
To bring you closer...
There's not one day
I didn't wish for this to be over..
They'd seen my works,
They'd all applauded..
Then you'd see mine
Never commended...
Was down and wrote
And you'd laughed, sometimes loudly..
They'd actually all hurt..
My expectations? All burnt.
You're part of what caused all this..
Didn't notice on time, what was amiss..
Everything's just unsettled my sea of emotions,
You could've just asked for my heart's brochures..
You could've then done stuff right
And I wouldn't always cry into the night..
Up till tomorrow there's still pain,
No matter how much I say ;"I'm okay"....
Guess life's just one nasty little game
Given a pretty cute four-letter name...
"From all the memories stored in my heart,
I gather up the ones of you,link them together
Gazing at them projected across the room..
My life's TV screen got ruined your bad weather..
I let you crawl through my veins,
You literally replaced that red substance...
I can't seem to accept reality,
I believe that I'm stuck in a trance..
Yeah.. that's it..
A sad , betraying, heartache guaranteed trance...
