monjin_innit

Hi! I'm back, sorry about being inactive for over 2 months I got wattpad taken away TnT. But I'm back. I wanna know.... Would you like to see something with the grownup versions of Richie Tozier and Eddie Kaspbrak? Because I have never seen one and it's kinda upsetting. But hey! I'll do whatever :) 

monjin_innit

Hi! I'm back, sorry about being inactive for over 2 months I got wattpad taken away TnT. But I'm back. I wanna know.... Would you like to see something with the grownup versions of Richie Tozier and Eddie Kaspbrak? Because I have never seen one and it's kinda upsetting. But hey! I'll do whatever :) 

monjin_innit

sorry about being inactive for a few weeks and not finishing the story you recommended @MonsterRanboo i just have been working on school and kinda forgot i had things to write ehehh. but i will eventually finish the book idea you recommended. have a nice day/night remember you are loved!! <3
          (sorry for any spelling errors ;-;)

EdGarAlLanH03

@monjin_innit Your very welcome! I'm glad I could help a little bit :)
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monjin_innit

@Ge0rg3N0tCl0th3d :) thank you for supporting me so much!! it means so much to me honestly... and if im being genuine.... i might not be here without you and my friend :) thank you again
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EdGarAlLanH03

@monjin_innit Don't worry, your fine^^ Take care :)
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monjin_innit

helloooooo!! uhh i wanna write something right now. please give me a BL plot and names. it will be out in at least a few hours MAYBE. it might take a while though hahah. sadly, like i stated before, i wont be writing anymore Dream SMP content, and i apologize for that.

monjin_innit

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@MonsterRanboo shit i didnt realize i said hours ehehh i meant to say dayssss sorryyyyyy
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monjin_innit

the days are just going by slower and slower. i think im losing contact with reality. my best friend tried to kill herself last week and wasnt at school for two days. when she told me i almost started crying because that was when i realized how much i need her to keep myself sane. i really do want to live but i cant handle most things. i want to live life to its fullest but i dont think i can. i take medication for these things. it was helping but now its just making things worse. knowing that i take medication to make me happy. i might just have to end things. my entire life has been sought out already, my future planned. and i cant see it any other way than me being 6 feet under. have a good day. if i dont upload for a long time then you should know what happened to me.

EdGarAlLanH03

@monjin_innit oh please, it's the least I can do for you! If I can't help you otherwise, I have to do it like this.. And it's really the least I can do. You are still loved and appreciated! It really hurts that I can't do anything else but comfort you through the internet, but if it helps you, then I'm happy!! And you also deserve to be happy. Again, it's the least I can do.. I hope you can live a happy life :) 
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monjin_innit

@Ge0rg3N0tCl0th3d thank you for so much support through this it's really helped me a lot!! 
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EdGarAlLanH03

@monjin_innit Oh my! Please, I beg you, do not try anything!! Everything's going to be alright at some point, but please.. do not end things! I know that I know nothing about you and your feelings, but please.. I know that you are an amazing person, and that you can stand through it! I know life can be hard at some point, but People still care about you! Please, just give life a chance... If you want I can help you!!! I don't really know how to but I will try if you want me to.. We maybe are strangers but that doesn't mean that I don't care, in fact, I care about you so much! And it just makes me sad that such an amazing person like you can't find happiness.. I'm sorry about your best friend, and I'm sorry about the fact that you are stuck in such a sh¡t life.. Just know, I'm willing to help you, even if i know not much about you.. And know that I will always care for you.. Just please.. I hope everything turns out the right way for you.. I wish you and your friend the best.
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monjin_innit

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vent because im about to fucking kill myself.
          
          (i dont give a shit about spelling rn i just want someone to kill me)
          
          so... i just had this dumb ass conversation with my mom about pushing people i used to be really good friends with away. and she was like "everyone needs people" and i said "not me" and she was like oh but you do mimimimim just being a nucence. and she kept saying stuff about knowing people and blah blah and i almost lashed out. but i didnt say anything i just thought, "i dont even know myself anymore. and im losing myself." and multiple times i almost cried. luckily i didnt and i was facing away from her so she couldnt see me. 
          
          im also finding school to be harder to handle. and i can barely find joy in anything. and im pretty sure my best friend is sick with something because she was gone for two days and said today that she was just released from the hospital... and if she is sick and something bad happens i would definitely have to kill myself because i dont think i can handle life without her. even though i wasnt too fond of her at the beginning shes one of the people i trust most now. and yes, we have only known eachother for about 2 years now.
          
          im also sick right now. and ive been wanting to die more because of how shitty i feel...... im just so done with life and the people around me. and sometimes the internet is the only thing that keeps me happy and my mom keeps threatening to take it away from me.
          
          dont feel bad for me. im just a random ass idiot on the internet. dont feel sorry for me. i dont deserve your sorrow. dont try to make me feel better about myself. its already embeded in my mind that im worthless.
          
          have a good fucking day night. remember you are loved by many. <3

EdGarAlLanH03

@monjin_innit So are you!! You are also loved by many people! And don't call yourself an idiot, you aren't one! I'm sorry that your mom is acting this way, she knows nothing about the way you really feel. School is just a huge piece of sh¡t, i get that... I'm really sorry for your friend, but please don't do something you could regret! I know losing a friend is hard but it's sadly a part of life.. Being sick in such time is also just flipping stupid.. But you aren't worthless, get that out of your head! And I'm sorry for my choice of words, but your mom just sounds like she's a huge b¡tch... I'm sorry that you have to live that kind of life, but People still care about you.. you are still a human being, and everyone deserves happiness!
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monjin_innit

so uh..... i wont be writing anymore...... Dream smp ship books............. but i will be writing BL books :]
          sorry if this is a disapointment but i just- UGGHH- dont have motivation or ideas.... sowwy
          but uh- one thing is that- you- you can tell me names and ideas and characters and what they look like :()
          im sorry i just cant do it anymore lolll
          anywho have a good day/night :))) <3

monjin_innit

this is more of just so my dumb @ss doesnt forget but the characters for the beauty and the beast skephalo au will be as listed,
          Belle - Skeppy<3
          Beast - Badboyhalo<3
          Belle's dad - Philza
          Librarian - Niki
          Gaston - Techno
          LeFou (Gaston's bo- i mean sidekick) - Tommy xD
          and i think thats all i might add to this sooo <3