markie

happy new years, guys. 2020 was not the year for me creatively, but it certainly was mentally. the end of 2019, and leading into the early COVID quarantine were terrible for me. i struggled with eating and body issues, and most days at school i cried and wanted not to be seen. as selfish as it is, i’m very thankful for school closing due to the pandemic. my mental health improved ten-fold, and i felt comfortable for once. 
          
          but writing? oof. i dont think ive ever had a year so bad. i wrote nothing in 2020 that i’m proud of, although i dont hate the 5k word story i wrote for school. but for 2021, i wish to read more. so much more. i would love to attempt that one-book-a-week challenge, but i know that wouldn’t happen. instead, i’ll aim for 1-2 books a month. 
          
          and i’ve found that when i read a book i TRULY enjoy, it inspires me to write. i hope trying to read more will lead to me writing more. i miss writing, i miss putting together the puzzle of what words and sentences flow together the best. i miss seeing people enjoy the stories i put out. i miss everything about writing. 
          
          2019-2020, ive been so absent from the culture of wattpad and fanfiction, so i’ve no clue if anyone even remembers me. but i hope you will look forward to what i may create. 
          
          - markie

wow its been a little bit since ive been on here. so updates i guess, becayse i feel like it
          - i got a car :0 me drive to work by myself now
          - my frog tonpa died ): i miss him lots
          - but i got another frog :) his name is yugi. after yugi amane and yugi tsukasa

i know you can do it ^^ 
          don’t get mad at yourself <3 

and i know i joke about wattpad deleting my account, but it ruins me. my whole life from 2016-2018 was just deleted over a stupid joke between me and my best friend. it makes me so fucking mad and i miss it so much

im so mad at myself. why did i ever stop writing? i’m not trying to be like. self centered. but i enjoy reading my old writing and i think i was good at it. but now? it’s just so bad. i stopped writing and im so mad. why did i stop? i know the only way to get better is to WRITE, but i just cant. its so bad i cant even stand seeing it. im so so so so so mad and i feel like i should jusy give up on writing. i basically already have but denial

the way i wanna get active on this account again

my pet frog is literally the stupidest looking creature ive ever seen but hes also so cute 

caramelldansen goes so hard for absolutely no reason

i’ll be publishing something soon

do you think vivi shouldn’t be in loona or are you normal