TheShadowThief
2 weeks ago

Hey Lottie, just wanted to let you know I just published the first chapter of Winter's Lullaby if your interested. (:

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TheShadowThief
1 month ago

Hi Lottie, I know this is super late and I apologize for taking so long to get back to you. D:

I'm really happy that you liked my playlist! That makes me happy. ^^ And I looked up that album by Bring me the Horizon you mentioned and I've really fallen in love with Can you feel my heart. Its amazing, especially since i'm not always a fan of unclean vocals, but in that song its just raw and emotional in a way I can't really explain with words.

But enough about music, how are you? How is the new therapy going and has going outdoors gotten any better? But on another note, you are strong Lottie. It's amazing that you've dealt with so much crap, more so than most people, and yet you keep going. You really are a strong person. (:

On the topic of me.. Well, things are not going well. The baddest bit of news is that my mother recently told me that in the final court case (she and my dad finally got their divorce finalized and things figured out) she had to give up our house in order for us to move anywhere we wanted. She wouldn't have had to except that my dad is refusing to pay the mortgage and the judge won't make him, so we're loosing our home. She said theres a slim chance that she may be able to work something out with the bank but it's more likely that we'll have to move, but on the upside she said we can move somewhere still in our town, so hopefully we won't move to a different state all together.

I don't know, it seems either way i'm going to lose something dear to me. My friends, and my own home. I've been having a bad week, and now I feel like i'm going to lose everything.

Thank you for cheering me up in your earlier message Lottie! It really does mean alot to me that you care and that I have someone to talk to. (:

Love you! <3

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TheShadowThief
2 months ago

Here the first playlist I made for her:
 Firefly by Ed Sheeran
Far from Home by Five finger death punch
Louder than thunder by The Devil wears prada
Trophy fathers trophy sons by Sleeping with Sirens (probably wrong song name)
When two are one by Atreyu
Lights out by Bim
First floor people by Barcelona
Words by Skylar Grey
I will follow you into the dark by Death Cab for Cutie
Burn by Versaemerge
If I lose myself by One Republic
Prove you wrong by He is we
Give me a sign by Breaking Benjamin
Its about time by Barcelona
My songs know what you did in the dark by Fall out boy

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TheShadowThief
2 months ago

No problem Lottie. <3 The same goes for you, I'm glad I have someone there to talk about my problems with.
I hope your dad gets better soon, and I'm happy that your sisters are being nicer to you, even if it is because of that.
Math is a bit better for me, because im actually raising my hand now sometimes and asking the teacher to come and help me with the equations and problems I don't understand, so that's better. One good bit of news though is that my dad finally gave up on pretending to be a father. He took me out to go see a therapist last week and she said that if we're such negative impacts on each other's lives we should just stop seeing each other for a couple months. =D So I'm really happy about that, I no longer have to deal with him for now. ^^ I'm also sad though because the time to be going to a High school is coming up, and of course a lot of my friends are splitting up and heading off to different schools. I know it won't be that bad because I'll still be able to talk to them via Skype or phone, but you know how it is when you don't see a person anymore except just over the internet or by calling them. I don't know, all I can think about is just how i'm always ending up alone no matter how hard I try to hold on to other people. I don't want to keep letting go of those I care for. This probably sounds silly but for me this is a cycle I cannot break, and I'm going to miss these amazing, beautiful, charismatic, interesting, wonderful people I call my friends. Whom I've gotten to know, help, talk with, confide in and listen to. I don't want to let these amazing people go, but its inevitable. I guess i'm just feeling really lonely.
But enough of that depressing stuff, I'll send you the playlist I created in another message. I like your optimism Lottie, it makes me feel happy. :)
Love you, <3

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TheShadowThief
3 months ago

Graaaaawr, Lottie, im so incredibly sorry. I wish I could help you more in some way, but all I have is my words through a computer screen. So I guess I'll have to make that enough.
It seems to me you've been stressed out for awhile now, is there a way for you to release some of that stress and frustration? Like perhaps going to a park with your friends or something like that where you won't encounter him anywhere, or just going for a run? Im worried that it'll build up and up for you until all you can feel is that constant heaviness of the pressure and sadness and frustration. Try and do something to make you happy Lottie. Anything. 
Its really sweet of you to worry about your dad, and of course im basing this off of what you've told me and whatnot, but your dad's still your dad. Hes still going to take care of you and love you no matter what, and that includes being there for you. I know your kind of cautious after his hemorrhage, but I think it would be best for you to trust him. This is my advice for you, my dear Lottie. I wish I could help more, but im hoping my words will be enough to make you smile. <3
Oh. My. Goodness.
School.
Me and my best friends have made playlists for my Language Arts teacher, so it was really fun to hear the songs I chose for my playlist being sung out through the speakers in her classroom, and it was, just, really cool. I liked that a lot. I could send you the songs that I have on the playlist if you want me to. =D
Math though seems to always be my enemy, I swear. Its like my brain just refuses to accept anything mathematical. I have some really smart friends though in that class and they help me through it, and I have two best friends that are in advanced math, so I usually end up relying on them for help, but I usually don't ask for help because it makes me feel stupid, and then they'll say, "Its no big deal, just ask for help." And I shall say, "It makes me feel stupid."
Ah,
Math.
Love you Lottie, talk to me soon. <3

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TheShadowThief
3 months ago

Hey Lottie, we haven't spoken for awhile so I was just wondering how you were. <3

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ViciousVixen
3 months ago

I started reading this in 2011 and then lost it wen my phone broke, forgot the nme and everything I'm soooo happy to have found ur book again!!' 

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TheShadowThief
3 months ago

I know they care, its my own fault for keeping it bottled up. But i'm hurt, and I don't really know how to fix that right now. So yeah, not the best of times for me right now unfortanetly. I think what i'm going to do this weekend is just show those emotions by pouring them out into Ross in the next chapter of M o n s t e r, or work on painting or drawing something just to try and get my head cleared. My latest project is cutting out some paper trees out of scrapbook paper, since I got inspired by Maggie Stiefvater's trailers for her Shiver trilogy. And her new The Raven Boys book where in it she mentions that the main character Blue also has some paper trees taped up in her own room, so I thought: Sounds like a cool idea :3 So im hoping that will just kind of get me out of my own head for a bit.

The bipolar weather here in lovely Florida is a bit chilly, nothing compared to the snow (thats so awesome you got to make a snowman! Im also glad it made you happy ^-^ :D) but shifty in a sense where its an endurable breeze, to cold, to kind of frigid outside. The weather never stays the same here in Florida, except in Summer, when its just ridiculously swealteringly hot all the time.

Love you Lottie, Stay Strong. <3

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TheShadowThief
3 months ago

Hi Lottie :)
Im sorry to hear about all the coursework and exams. I can't pretend to know what it's like (except from what you tell me) but you'll pull through, I know it. <3 I recently just wrapped up my last project today! It was about Hephaestus and basically just a few facts about him, (he got thrown off the mountain by his mother when he was born because she thought he was really ugly, his wife cheats on him, and he likes building and making things to socializing, oh, and his name is not to be confused with Hepatitus ;D). So that was kinda fun presenting, =)
Im so happy you like that trilogy so far! :D And yes, I know what you mean! I loved Xander and Ky equally, because they were both really good characters but different in their own individual way that made them unique, like Xander's natural ability to help others and Ky's silent strength (And Cassia's way with her own words, I absolutely loved that about her character). Plus, I really enjoyed how I got to see from all three of their perspectives in the last book, it just made me love them all even more. I also liked the second book because of the artistery in it, I won't say what because I don't want to spoil anything for you, but yes, I really enjoyed those books! xD

Alright, sorry for babbling. ;3 Thank you so much for wanting to keep up with LtM, but I don't want to force you to read it, even though its so kind of you to offer! <3 Just look out for yourself right now, find who you are again Lottie dear, I know you will.
Things my end have been tilting towards the bad side, I feel restless because I'm kind of having a awkward tense phase with one of my friends, and I wish she would just say something to me, but shes been pushing me away, so I've been kind of hurt and lonely. It was unexpected to me, so I've been kind of drawing into myself lately, a bit more closed off with my own friends as well, but I don't think they really notice. Which is okay, I know they have their own problems.

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TheShadowThief
3 months ago

Lottie!
Im so sorry its taken me awhile to write back to you, things have been kind of hectic at School because right when we got back the teachers bombarded us with projects. So you know, thats ALWAYS fun *cue the sarcasm* ;D
Im so happy you got Matched! I love that book, the writing is just so different and real in a sense where you can almost taste thw words. Plus I just love how Cassia thinks, and how the third book, Reached ended. I loved it so much I made a painting with a quote from the third book for my Science teacher (because I like making things but I don't like keeping them). Also, all the presents you got sound awesome, especially the lion painting! :D
I realized, in my writing aspect, Im going to have to re-write LtM. Because i've been comparing it to my writings of M o n s t e r, and its definately changed. Im also going to re-write the Whispering Clouds, and re-write Siren Song into a longer chapter book rather than just a short story. I also have some ideas for new books that I haven't really thought about evolving in the past but I want to now. (=
So thats whats going on with my writing life. ;D
I found some songs by Bim that I think you may like:

Lights out by Bim
Monster by Bim

So hows your day-today life going Lottie dear? And your writing life?
Message back soon if you can dear friend,
love you. <333

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