lhhismyvice

happy pride month milas !! i love u for who u are, completely, totally, and unconditionally. 
          	
          	if ur queer and proud, questioning, or in the closet, u are valid. u don’t owe anything to anyone, remember that. 
          	
          	i’m proud of u, proud of us & thinking of u always, but especially now. 
          	
          	love love love, 
          	az.xx <3
          	
          	

lhhismyvice

happy pride month milas !! i love u for who u are, completely, totally, and unconditionally. 
          
          if ur queer and proud, questioning, or in the closet, u are valid. u don’t owe anything to anyone, remember that. 
          
          i’m proud of u, proud of us & thinking of u always, but especially now. 
          
          love love love, 
          az.xx <3
          
          

lhhismyvice

thank you for everything. thank you for your unrelenting support–whether it was through reading, voting, sharing, commenting, etc. for everything you have done for me, i will be eternally grateful. 
          
          thank you for letting me share these characters with you, even if only for a short while. i love them, and i am so glad you did too. 
          
          all in all, this experience has been one of the most thrilling, exciting, challenging, creative, fun, stressful, and rewarding experiences i’ve ever been a part of. 
          
          and don’t worry, i will still be right here if you ever need somebody to talk to. i’m not going anywhere, these characters and this story is just taking an extended hiatus (awful word choice, i know). 
          
          i’ve got two more unfinished stories, and believe me when i say, temporary fix deserves the passion i feel for those two, but is just not getting it at the current moment in time. tf deserves that. (hopefully one day she’ll receive it; i have a glimmer of faith that she will).
          
          please know that this decision hurts me just as much as (if not more than) you. again, thank you for literally everything and i’m sorry it came to this point. i’m sorry if i let you down. 
          
          in an attempt to offer you any solace at all: this isn’t goodbye forever, it’s goodbye for now.
          
          i love you so bad, 
          az.xx 
          
          (3/3)

lhhismyvice

because of you, this book exists. and for that, i am eternally grateful. this book is for you, it had always been for you. and i’m sorry if i let you down. that was never my intention. 
          
          ultimately, this decision was a labor of love. after an excruciatingly long deliberation period (and many late night conversations with the love of my life, h), i decided that in my eyes, it wasn’t fair of me to write something i no longer had passion for. it wasn’t fair of me to give you guys something that i wasn’t proud of anymore. 
          
          but, i also know that it is totally unfair of me to have written so much of stevie + stardust’s story (we nearly made it to the end!) and then leave you completely in the dark. that would be cruel. so, i’ll leave you with this: stevie and stardust are two people who wanted nothing more than to find their person, be loved completely and totally by them, and give love completely and totally to them. and they found that in each other. their love story was far from perfect, but it was theirs and it was good enough for them. they’ve found their happiness in each other and will spend their whole lives sustaining it. 
          
          as of right now, i don’t have plans on republishing. maybe, one day, she’ll come back and better than ever. reworked and rewritten, finally ready to be out in the world. i’m just afraid that this isn’t her time yet. i want to work on repairing and cultivating an even deeper relationship with this story before that ever happens. i hope, for both my sake and yours, that it returns one day. 
          
          (2/3)