Khuda

Hi. Just checking in after a long time. Anyone alive? 

Hey people. 
          I don't know how wattpad works anymore. But I might start writing again...I want to....
          
          What should I do?

But then again, no promises made. I've made so many writing attempts like these and left them halfway. 

@neharika21sharma  Hey.
          I'm really overwhelmed by your message after all this time. 
          I'm OK.
          I don't exactly write anything these days, so I can't give you a good reply. But well, right now I'd try to sit and write a bit, because well this message sorta made me wanna write. 

@neharika21sharma I wish you could make her realize that too. I really do. She did have really high self esteem. At least everyone else around her found it difficult to break her or belittle her. And she was always self sufficient. But I guess she had her Achilles heel and to him she was anything he wanted. And I guess that was her biggest flaw.

@neharika21sharma I think why she is stupid for a second a strong the next us because she is both. It's not contradicting characters....
          I guess we are all a mixture of stupidity, stubbornness, wisdom, lies, honesty, selfishness, selflessness...
          We are all full of contradictions within ourselves and Laya, she is an original, that helps me in writing her bipolar attributes in a way in which it's acceptable to at least a few minds. 
          
          Am glad you love her, I don't think she'd agree to you about how she is the perfection and love as she sees herself as a failure of both.( Reason as started off in the prologue).
          
          I'll make sure she takes your message to heart.

I gave up writing to avoid*

@neharika21sharma 
          Hi Neha,
          You don't know how much your message means to me. Yes I'm updating very soon, that is today or tomorrow tops. And after the chapter other chapters will be updated quickly.
          
          You see, writing 21st chapter of almost was, or rather is such a personal struggle that I have up writing to avoid it. I didn't know what to write.
          
          Now, I think I know, I just need to have the courage to.
          
          I hope this chapter was worth the wait for everyone.
          
          Khuda.

@dreamers113 sure

@neharika21sharma 
          Aw! Thank you so much. 
          Very rarely do I get such comments about my book. I do hope I'll complete the book.
          It was one of the missions of this year. It's just that am in a lot of mess now, and the book is way too personal. Writing is my way if healing, but certain things......, I am not clear about them myself and I do not know how to convince some one else because of it.