theloner

My mental status:

I feel
I feel
What do I feel?
There is an emptiness 
Like I've lost something 
I open my eyes
And there it is
An abyss 
An inevitability 
A confirmation 
A knowing glance
And hushed whispers.
I close them 
And there is silence
But then a sound
A strange constant sound
A bell?
No
Is it the crickets?
No, not exactly.
Oh
It's my breath
I breathe too loud nowadays 
It seems to be the only sound I hear.
Am I going insane finally?
Or has sanity reached me at last?
What did I lose again?
Her?
Him?
Or was it me?
Wait, who am I?
Oh fuck
My mind's gone to shit
Shhh...
Oh
It's quiet again
Are my eyes closed?
Oh no.
Fuck I can't hear.
What did you say again?
"Sab thik hai?"
No.
I'm not.