co_exist

"i love to sleep, cause i pretend that i'm dead 
but i hate waking up cause it's hard to forget 
that i've lost all control of this life that i've held so dear...
well i made a few jokes but they said they weren't funny...
i tried to force a smile but they said it was ugly.
now i'm lost in this hole and i'm sure i am stuck 
and i can't run away 'cause i'm lazy as f*ck. "