Ashtyn

Corporate keeps playing 1d, 5sos, and solos at my job and I'm in heaven.

Cried Tuesday because of cupcakes and Wednesday for getting yelled at so I put Hamilton and Lewis and Clark memes on my presentation. 

When people tell me I'm wrong when I clearly know myself, it pisses me off. I was having a conversation about stutters today (my mother brought it up) and she proceeded to tell at me and argue or correct me when I stated a couple different types of stutters. I also made the mistake of telling her that I had a bad stutter to which I got yelled at more by her and her boyfriend who hates me. But the other part is that when I say I have schizophrenia or anxiety, I get told I'm not right and that I don't have them. When I ask to go to therapy, I get told no because I don't need it. But the thing that annoys me most is that I get told everyday by my mother when I came out as ace that I am wrong, that she is right by saying I'm bisexual.
          
          This is why I avoid telling my family a lot of stuff. I can't even tell anyone that I am a trans enby because I know how my parents react to others, but it would be different if it were their child. I don't tell them anything about me anymore because, when I do, I gst yelled at or corrected.

I realise I'm a 'good kid' and have been for my whole life. Which if you think about it, that's not a good thing. It's not a compliment. 'Good kids' suffer from anxiety, depression, and/or sensitivity. They don't like any arguing and push down their needs because they can sense when any adult is mad. I hate when people think it's a compliment but in reality, it's a sign for parents to check in on their child who is like this. They shut down because they don't like any sort of disagreement. And yes, some children act out because of it, but a lot of children are acting as a 'good kid' as well. So I'm speaking for all of those getting called good kids growing up. They suffer from these things because of their family and it's not ok. It never was, so please check on you children once in a while to see if they're truly ok and happy.

Ahhh. I have sex ed at the ed of the school year and idk what to do because they're all homophobes and won't teach shit for us to understand in the lgbt.
          
          
          
          
          
          Btw Sorry it's been a while I've been busy.