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(There will be multiple parts to this post, but don't feel obligated to read or react. I truly appreciate anyone who is willing to take some time out of their day to listen to me vent, though)
*sigh* Where do I begin? Well, before I get into anything super dark and depressing, I want to sincerely apologize to all of you wonderful people who like my stories. I hate to admit it, but I've lost my inspiration and will to continue writing. I read over my stories and can't do anything but cringe at how annoying, all over the place, and grammatically incorrect they are (especially the neko story). I honestly have no idea how people can read them and actually enjoy them.
Now, onto the dark and depressing stuff;
A lot of things have happened in my life in the last two years. I lost my uncle to brain cancer in the first few months of 2021, then we had to put his sweet pitbull down a few months later in September (he was having seizures, falling when going up and down a single stair, and was crying in pain when we tried to move him or pet his hips), and the very next day, my chihuahua (who I had for 11 years - nearly half life, and who was practically my son) was killed and torn apart by coyotes. That was the thing that finally broke me and pushed me over the edge.
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@Todo_Doki_Doki_ you know im always here for you I'm sorry I fight with you a lot I really do I want us to have a positive sibling relationship no fighting at all. You can always call me to vent outside so mom doesn't get in our personal conversations.
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Everyone who follows a religion should pray to the deity/deities that they believe in for a change. All those who believe in something other than deities should attempt to manifest change into every universe. And if you don't believe in anything...flip a coin and hope to the void that we all scream into that it lands on something good.
I'm going to disappear from Wattpad and social media for a while. I wish everyone happiness, safety and love in these times of grief and suffering. ✌️❤
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insurance as the only payment (we both have mental and physical disabilities that keep us from working and fully functioning as adults, so we have no way to support ourselves once we move out. I have a social security hearing coming up, but there's no absolute guarantee that I'll get accepted).
I'm terrified of the future, and I'm barely hanging on by a thread as it is. There's Roe vs. Wade being overturned (even if the deadly parasite was forced upon the uterus wielder without consent or created from a "family bonding experience"), the ban on contraceptives in some states, the multiple mass shootings and murders, the possible ban on LGBTQIA+ marriage and any intimate activities between anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community (even if they're consented to by everyone involved), the fact that there are states where people can get away with killing trans people with practically just a slap on the wrist, the way that so many toxic Christians are forcing their religion and bigotry down the throats of basically everyone who isn't a cis-gender, straight, white, pro-life, republican man (I know that there are good Christians out there, but they are few and far between), and so many more horrible things.
