Walnut

Can someone send me on vacation please and thank you 
          
          But like an extended vacation. I feel like I need it. I just want to get out of what I’m doing, to have no stress. To not keep checking my phone. To not have anything to do. Ahhh sweet bliss 
          
          Maybe I’ll dream about it. Everyone always ask, what would you do if you were a millionaire. Dude I’m running out of here, somewhere warm, not working, doing whatever I want, preferably alone or with 19 cats maybe 21 

This specific scene came into my head about Enzo and Lira and I can’t find it! 
          
          Yes it’s my own story so I don’t know how I can’t find it… I forgot which chapter whoops 
          
          I really need to print them out 

Yesterday, was a BIG day
          
          I was reading king of sloth and I felt all these emotions and flashes in my imagination. At some points I wasn’t reading the story anymore I was imagining my stories, my characters coming to life. And it was AMAZING like ecstasy 
          
          I was so inspired that I cuddled in bed later, and I wrote some words. Granted it wasn’t a huge amount, they probably weren’t the best words but I felt sooo good just to be able to do that after so long 
          
          I fudging love to write but I’ve been so blocked off that this has been everything ❤️

You know what’s funny… when people talk about wattpad and how the stories are mediocre (because most of us are just writing whatever we want) and I’m sitting there like ‘nooo some writers are sooo good’ keeping the fact that I write hidden because I just feel weird to expose myself like that
          
          Many people have that view of wattpad and I’m like yeahhh I’ll just keep myself to myself heheh 
          
          And if I was to say oh I do write wattpad, I’m sure everyone would think yeah mediocre dumb shit and well my stuff may be mediocre dumb shit but I like it I like it a lot 
          
          Anyway that’s my bedtime thoughts 

Oh dam
          
          Wattpad is deleting and closing down direct messaging on the 6th may. I feel like it’s a prank but it’s not
          
          Oh no :( I love messaging anyone who messages to talk about our days and stories and just to connect. It’s sad but you can always post something on my message board or reply to my status update whenever you want to

I’m shitting myself 
          
          Like I can’t even, I have horrible anxiety which plays up from time to time and right now i am freaking out because tomorrow at work I am seeing ‘the coworker who stole my idea’ and I’m pretty sure my boss will be in and we might have a meeting. This meeting has been dragged on for over a month now and I am shitting myself because I would never want to sit down and have a serious chat.  But I wanted this to happen so i just need to suck it up and be a big tree. But I get so nervous and worried and anxious. This is not right. I don’t deserve to feel this way. Also I’m probably making myself more anxious than what will actually happen :(  duck me
          And the funny thing is she is probably sleeping like a log and I’m worried. I’m pissed 

I’m literally insane 
          
          I’m buying books, same book’s different versions 
          But I love a good deal so it’s like a reward after finding something it’s like an adrenaline rush 
          
          Do I need 129 different versions of the same book? No.
          But it will make me happy YESSS
          So I’m on a hunt for books and also I’m poor
          I have to hide my new books from my parents so they don’t have an attack over me buying more books but I say to them isn’t it better I’m buying books and not d r u ggggss 

Happy Eid Mubarak to everyone celebrating ❤️
          
          I just know you guys are dressed up in the most beautiful clothes, having the most yummy food. Enjoy your day :) 
          
          Much love ❤️

I am sooo mentally exhausted. I’m just tired tho but it’s getting harder 
          
          I was gonna stay in bed all day today but I made myself get up and get dressed and go for a walk because it’s exhausting being exhausted you know
          
          Imma head to bed. I just hope that maybe in a few days or a week I’ll be in a better place where I can write and do the shit I love to do 
          
          KEEP GOING THOUGH

Hy Walnut umm I would like to ask for your permission to put MrandMrsMafia cover as my profile pic on Wattpad?