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I have not opened this app since June, and just- I don't-
          
          I regret so much...

Haha, were both tired trash. :,)

So, um this is very recent. But like a couple days ago I hit 100 followers, which I guess is a important milestone.
          
          So thank you all for the support you've given me in the past seven months, It means alot. I definitely would not be this far if it wasn't for the support and suggestions I've gotten. 
          
          Idk what to do, normally people would have an q and a or face reveal or one of those YouTube subscriber thingys... So if anybody would be interested in something like that I wouldn't care.
          
          (But also in more important news Wattpad supposedly sold everyone's accounts to the dark web and people might have our info. So if all my stuff disappears I deleted everything including my account and everything will be on ao3)
          
          That's basically all I have to say. Thank every one of you for followers me I guess. I'm to akaward for this crap- But yeah the selling account thing is somewhat serious so be cautious is all I can really say...
          

Oh, I didn't know this was you XD

YO, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH PEOPLE!!!
          
          So, for pride month my friend challenged/asked me to suffer with them. So everyday during pride month I'm going to be attempting to write a certain fluff/angst thing everyday. Yes, I said everyday. 
          
          (Writing something everyday means alot when the last time I wrote something productive was like March)
          
          The ships I'm gonna be writing about are Saiouma, and Tododeku. And also another ship that's just one giant inside joke. 
          
          So feel free to tune if ya want.

Aight fam, update time. I'm going to the update corner, which will hurt my kneecaps. But whatever. 
          
          (Danny Gonzalez reference if your not cultured)
          
          But this is based on my last post(s) about homophobia and all the "wonderful" stuff
          
          But, I just came out to alot of my classmates a while ago. We have a discord server filled with band kids, and they're the closest people in my life. And so, if anybody deserves to know it's the band homies. 
          
          There haven't been any reactions yet, cause basically nobody is on currently. But I feel like their reactions will be, (that makes so much sense) But since my other friend who is also LGBTQ, who also came out runs the server. Whoever is homophobic will be banned.
          
          But yeah, current update. I feel abit better getting it off my my chest. But since the law is still legal here, and none of the religious people have noticed yet. I still feel alot of Virgil/anxiety
          
          So I might or might not keep ya updated on the rest. I just thought I should say this. Sorry if I'm bothering ya guys or something, but I thought this mattered.

(part two of this rant Incase your curious)
          
          It hurts that the world has come to such a horrible place. And yet, instead of looking at these problems. There's thing's like, the Trump administration debating getting rid of the right for LGBTQ+ people to get healthcare. Which would be removing a basic human right...
              I don't know how much this will mean to you, or how much you care. But never once have I ever felt so low in my entire life. Never once have I been more scared to do something as simple as come out, or simply leaving my house. And when I openly talk about my concerns, I get responses like, "that's just an over reaction" or "those are just over statements"...
             I honestly feel like I might kill myself. Anything right now is better than living another day in this unfair place. Somebody at my age shouldn't have to be scared to go outside. I shouldn't be scared to come out to people. Someone at my age, shouldn't have scars. And shouldn't of already planned out how they're going to kill themselves. And knowing that there are more people in the world like me, or people who have already taken there life. Or where just flat out killed for having a different opinion. 
          
          It truly leaves me with no faith in humanity...

     This is probably the longest rant I've ever written. You don't have to read this, but it just needs to be said. Wattpad might take this down for all I know. But if you can read this, it would mean alot to me if you did...
               But, never once have I been at such a low point. And never once have I been more disgusted in this world. The amount of racist and homophobic stuff in the world truly hurts. 
               When black people are being randomly killed and arrested. With no vaild reason why, just for the color of their skin. Or how gay people can be abused, beaten, and left for dead. Just for loving who they love, and just for being themselves. 
               And then recently I found out about the gay panic law, where gay people can be killed. With the only justice for it is "unsettling" straight people. And the law is legal where I live. I honestly start crying when I found this information out. And I couldn't even sleep, because all this information corrupted my mind.
          
          (I'm sorry but this was to long so it was split in half)

MERRY CHRISTMAS
          
          Incase y'all be wondering why I'm saying merry Christmas in May. Simple, 2020 is a disaster of a year with a new threat each month. So it's likely that nobody will live to see December.
          
          So enjoy the holiday season while locked inside, your Christmas gift is being able to breathe

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE