Beautiful Dreamer

"I wonder what it's like to have someone fall for you. Not just to get in your pants because they think you're attractive. But be consumed with every little piece of you. The way you talk, laugh, the way you just... Exist. To everyone in love: You don't know how lucky you are."

I don't know, really, what to do anymore. I can't think straight. I don't know how to help anymore. I don't know whether to leave or to stay... Decisions, decisions, decisions... 

"Take me away, a secret place. Take me away." -Pocketful of Sunshine, Natasha Bedingfield

I don't want to keep crying. I don't want to make you mad at me. I don't want you to judge me. I don't want to keep hating myself. I want to start living, not just surviving. I want to feel like I belong, somewhere... I want to be where I can feel happy...

I'm just tired
          I'm just cold
          I'm just fine 
          Look at me...
          I'm just full of these lies.

"I don't dance, but here I am, spinning you round and round in circles...."

Why do we have to live with all the pain and regret in our hearts? To help us learn. Why do we have to go through relationships, even if they end up tearing us apart? To help us build ourselves up, in case no one else is there. Why do we have to go through solitude and pain by ourselves, sometimes? To show us that we don't need other people to build us up. In the end, that's all it will be. There will be no friends or family. We will all love the same. In the end, we will be bones in the ground. Everyone has been bullied. Why are we bullied? So we can become stronger. For those struggling, just remember: "Suicide Doesn't End Pain... It Just Reassigns It." People suck. You suck, I suck. Just because we think nobody else has gone through the same pain, doesn't make it true. I hate how people can't just be nice to everyone else. I hate how human nature is naturally judgmental. Sure, you can dumb it down. But you will always judge, no matter how hard you try not to. I'm tired of pain, but it needs to happen. Nobody is ever going to not have pain. If you're thinking about how terrible you think you are or look, or act, odds are, no one is even gonna give a shit. They're too self absorbed. Sometimes, rants like these are good to get out. Pain sucks, and so does death. If you  struggle with suicide, please remember that it will only cause pain to those who love you. It won't stop the pain like you think it will. There are people who love you..

Have you ever heard a song that no one else could? Have you ever played the cords to a song that was unknown? Have you ever loved someone who was never loved before? Have you ever let yourself go, and let the pain surround you? I have.
          -Samm

I like your bio :3

@xRasAlGhulx 
          Hey, thanks. ^-^