thunder23000
Hey hey, I love united the fallen. It is something fresh and different. Are you going to continue with it??
PaperMars
songsofhers
pls pls pls pls when will the epilogue of the bone cutter be coming out ? <33
sqacebunny
happy easter <3
magellanic_clouds_g
PLS UPDATE I'M OBSESSED WITH YOUR STORIES! <3
POESIE_FUMEUR
As someone who also feels the same way about past things I've created or just anything in general that makes me cringe and feel ashamed, I can't lie and tell you to swallow your shame because I'm the kind who will try to eliminate any embarrassing instances of my life (even though I love love loooove your books, does that make me cring? Hehehe) but yeah, even now if I think back of what I used to read when I was a teenager I feel embarrassed and ponder to myself "why the heck did I enjoy those books". But then again, I ponder some more and remember how I actually was having a lovely time whilst reading them. The cringe came later in the future. However back then I was honestly enjoying my reads without a care in the world.
I truly admire the people who give no cheese about their cringiness or embarrassment, cause I could neveer. I don't even know where I'm going with this, but basically I'm just trying to say that your past self enjoyed writing this stories and present people (me included) still enjoy reading them. So don't go to hard on your past creations. I've been there done that, and (personally) i regret it.
POESIE_FUMEUR
@PaperMars So please pretty please no need to swallow your pride, and I truly hope you don't delete them. You are the only author I've found who's managed to write strange but incredible characters in mind-blowing settings. They're a quite dark but also wholesome? Idk haha it's such a different nice concept. At the end it is truly your decision what you do with them, but do know that even if you find shame in them, I really like them (and I know I'm not the only one). Kaaay sorry for the podcast, peace out hihi
POESIE_FUMEUR
I even thought to myself....what if a musician I like were to delete their music from all platforms just because they no longer liked it, or felt like I did with my paintings. I would be sad and honestly quite mad hehe. That's probably how my mother felt when she found out what I did to my paintings, yes they were mine, yes I painted them myself. But maybe instead of just getting rid of them I should have given them to her. Things I create might not be liked by me in the long run, but others might find beauty in them, like I once did, like my mother always did.
Currently, I started re making an old painting of mine. I'm making a new one that fits my standards at the moment. Yes, there is a big chance I might end up hating it later on (which I know my current self will be angry at my future self if I were to destroy it) , but that's okay right now I'm loving how it looks and bc of that I'll keep it and rather admire my progress.
POESIE_FUMEUR
To give you more context, I paint, my style has changes and improved. I dislike my past creations, I threw away many paintings bc I no longer liked them and they looked awful (in my eyes), some I kept even though I didn't like them. One time a relative of mine got quite mad... then stuff happened and he tore my disliked paintings. After that, I was so so sad and angry that he had done that, even though I had done it before lol BUT I didn't care if it was me doing it, I didn't even like the paintings. Anywaays, a few years later my mother ask me about them cause she wanted to hang them on the walls (she didn't know I had thrown them, and that a relative had torn the others) I ended up telling her I got rid of them, and her face was so sad. That's when regret started setting in and I knew that the person who I was back then was actually proud of my creations, I was enjoying myself, people gave me compliments about them but I didn't care about my previous good memories (after all, they were all in the past) , until my mother did.
PaperMars
lately i've been ashamed of my stories so i've been going back and editing them slowly anytime im bored. this has taken up much of my time hence no updates (not that i've given much effort to writing updates) but i thought you all should know, i haven't abandoned, i'm just lurking, editing, and slowly disappearing my embarrassments. this account shames me and i feel bad i haven't written better stories for all of you.
i have a lot of stories in my head that are somewhat more precisely thought out, but i have a feeling none of you would tolerate them if i posted them due to my lack of finishing my previous novels (some of which I started 10 years ago and still have not completed, but also 10 years is a long time, and I've grown up, and im not that person anymore) i have lost a lot of readers due to my inconsistent ability to update. but also, every time i try, i cringe, and feel 10 unique waves of repulsion. i hate the skeleton in me. i hate HATE idolize me, i hate all of them, maybe with the exceptions of The Bone Thief and that lesbian novel i have with a name too long to write out (United the Fallen is also an honorable mention)
i would like to post books reflecting who i am as a writer today, and not ridiculous stories i started and enjoyed when i was practically a kid. would anyone like that? or should i shut up and swallow my shame
golden_specks
@PaperMars Long time no see! I've pretty much dropped off the face of Wattpad, but I was doing a midnight lurk and found this post and I can't let go of the opportunity to tell you that it's ok for you to want to edit your older stuff, but please don't be ashamed of it! We are human and we grow and learn and hopefully get better, but there is no way of getting better if we don't start somewhere. Professional or not, your stories brought me a great deal of joy and entertainment and I loved them. I've loved everything you've written, you have such a unique voice and style, and your stories are so different and creative and please never stop writing, even if you don't post them anywhere. Your brain chemistry baffles me, the characters you create amaze me. You're a wonderful writer with such a wonderful gift and I'm honored that you've decided to share it with us.
PaperMars
sat on the floor of my bedroom for 3 hours justttt tt t t t ttt pondering
yeupthisisdead
Don’t ponder too hard that’s how you get the bad thoughts (like putting pineapples on pizza)
chokemerick
what happened to demons under the church? i randomly remembered it
POESIE_FUMEUR
@chokemerick I would also like to sign up for the down low way of getting them heheh xD
yeupthisisdead
@PaperMars this incredibly pains my soul, dear leader. Please return the sacred texts :( (or give them to me on the down low so I can still read it bc I liked that one I did a roleplay inspired by it a few years ago)
uesrnamebitch
I check ur account for updates everyday. Ur truly the best author, I’m obsessed with ur books! The Skelton in me is one of the best things ever written!! Hope ur doing well <3
PaperMars
@uesrnamebitch i have been trying to update for so long i just haven't had the time, I'm sorry, thank you so much for all your support, I will try harder to update I promise! <3
lwuvriley
heyyy, will there be any updates soon for Witchcraft?
PaperMars
@lwuvriley I'm hoping very soon, the next chapter is almost done, I just have to find out a good way to end it, srry it's taking so long <3