McLovin_It

Ok, I told them that I'm just gonna take a break. Good job me... I actually talked to them... A little bit at least... 
          	
          	Ok. Here is my plan for today. No food, no water, just work then lay in bed all day. 
          	
          	Lazy, I know.

McLovin_It

Ok, I told them that I'm just gonna take a break. Good job me... I actually talked to them... A little bit at least... 
          
          Ok. Here is my plan for today. No food, no water, just work then lay in bed all day. 
          
          Lazy, I know.

McLovin_It

Yeah, I'm a coward. I didn't respond to any of them. I just left them because I'm scared that they'll find out who I am. I've been lying to everyone, I'm not a good person. I'm lying to someone right now, and they don't even know, why am I like this? I don't understand.

McLovin_It

Ok, my first problem that I really want to talk about, but I'm not gonna talk about it on my main account, coups. There's a lot of people on there, and I don't feel comfortable with a lot of people knowing my problems.
          
          I have been having more bad dreams and I have been sleeping way more than I should, that or I have been having more black outs in the night again. 
          
          The only reason I know I have black outs is because there is something on my phone that's different, something I know I didn't do... 
          
          Uhhhhhgggg. It is so weird calling them black outs though! It is just me not being able to remember anything... and that's normal... right? Uhg! Why should I ask, I'm not talking to anyone but myself. 
          
          I don't want anyone to get close to me. I like being alone! I don't get why people can't understand that! I don't get why I like being alone either, I just do... 
          
          Why... Why am I like this! Every time some nice person gets close to me, I flip out and get really sad then push them all away! I guess I'm just scared... Scared that someone will end up knowing the real me... I don't want anyone to know me... That's too scary... I have never let ANYONE know the real me... Not my closest friends, not my family, not even my dog and he is the closest person to me...... Why?... Why am I like this? 
          
          I am not sad about this I am just honestly curious... Why am I like this?...