Little vent type thing
Me being touch starved is really catching up to me lately. Like family members and my best friend is calling me out of never giving them hugs. It's not that I don't like to be touched, I love hugs. I'm just used to not getting them. At least not anymore. The person that I knew gave the best hugs is my ex lover who moved away and we broke up so I don't get their good hugs anymore. Then my best friend likes hugs but doesn't like them from me, so I don't get them from her but recently she asked if she could have one and I instinctly said no without thinking. She asked why and got offended I guess and I just asked why she wanted one and she said just cause'.
Different thing. I was told that I let my emotions get the best of me and my only thing is like 'what emotions??' Like I honestly haven't felt much in probably months. And I hate it. I Hate it so much. But recently I just constantly feel like I'm about to burst into tears even when I don't have a reason. I mean my grandma died kinda recently but I got closure on that when we spread her ashes so I don't think it's that. I just don't know. But I guess its not bad Enough for me to ask for help, I've felt worse and people are doing worse than me. Anyways just wanted that out of my brain.
Have a good day peoples!